Robert,
I wish you a belated Happy Birthday.
Next year will be 20 years with TM for me. I don't remember the exact
date of onset, I just remember
standing up from my seat at a movie theatre, and my left foot/leg was
numb. Nothing has been normal
since then.
FWIW, I, and many others, understand how you feel. I hope and pray there
will be a breakthrough
that will help us old timers.
Take care,
Kevin
Robert Pall wrote:
Yesterday was my 60th birthday….in 6 days it will be my 10 year
aniversary of having TM. I am feeling somewhat sad and melancholy. I
normally accept my condition and give thanks that it is not as bad as
many on the list. However looking back I can no longer remember what
it felt like to be "normal". For people who do not have an affliction
like ours it is so difficult to explain. This was the first time I was
ever sick where I could not expect to be "all better". Therefore
instead of celebrating a birthday milestone, I spent much of the day
feeling sorry for myself. Knowing my personality I am quite sure this
feeling will soon be over and I will go back to being upbeat. But….10
years….and not one waking minute where I felt good. Some days are
better than others….but no day is without discomfort or worse. I have
found our condition almost impossible to explain to a healthy person…I
cannot even come to terms with TM at my own level.
I understand strides are being made to help us…but I truly doubt it is
going to help the old timers. I am grateful that the younger TM'rs
will benefit. I have not given up hope and will continue to battle
this condition for as long as I live. I will regain my positive
attitude and be grateful for all of the wonderful things in my life. I
just needed to vent to the people who really understand!
Rob in New Jersey
