I am really appreciating all of your replies to Jeron but in turn they touch most all of our lives and hearts. I don't know where I would be if it hadn't been for you wonderful people on our sites. You have been such a large part of my recovery, both mentally and physically. You have given me the 'ok' to cry, feel sad, get angry, then come back again and start fighting all over again to not let this TM thing keep me down. We sure didn t ask for it but we got it and now we must deal with it. We can't 'quit' and when we start feeling that way, that is the time when we must draw from each other.
When I was in ICE, 5 years ago today!, the neuro had no idea at all what had happened to me. All he knew was that I was paralyzed from the chest down. Three days later, he said he was pretty sure it was TM but he was honest enough to say he knew nothing about it other than what he read about it. He also told me, and this is why I am telling you this....that I should never, ever go without taking some sort of antidepressant because having a condition such as the TM, it comes with a very high risk of suicide. It's okay to take them! And if one doesn't work for you, try another! They have all sorts and there is one out there that will be just right for you. It's like having diabetes where something in the metabolism of your body is not working right. When I was growing up there was no such thing as 'depression'. It was all in our 'mind' (get that..) Valium was the biggie of my Mom's day but there wasn't anyone to help you understand what was going on with injuries like we have. Just having issues with PMS was unaccepted. I am so thankful there is something to help in today's world!! Hmmm...I only meant to add a note! What happened? :) Jeanne in Dayton, WA Also, Janet, you and your son are still in my prayers.. -------Original Message------- From: Janet Dunn Date: 5/21/2010 11:10:59 AM To: tmic-l...@eskimo.net; tmic-list@eskimo.com Subject: RE: [TMIC] alive What I am really wondering is if one ever really gets to the point of accepting this thing? It has almost been six years (August) and daily I have to decide whether to get up and work with it, fight it, or give into it Most of the time I fight it. Working with it would make my life easier I suppose, but darn it, I am with Jeron . It has taken a lot away. One of the things that I have discovered after fighting it so hard for five years to get back to where I used to be before being struck with TM was that either way, TM or no TM I could not regain my former self. It would be like suddenly becoming 30 again. It isnt going to be. I would have aged 5 years whether I had TM or not. That made it much easier for me to realize that life is going to go on, I am going to grow older, and with age comes limitations, TM or not. That might not make sense to others, but it sure helped me quit fighting so hard, and to accept the down days. It also enabled me to lift up my head, look around, and realize that my friends and acquaintances all have their own struggles with growing older, they are just not as visible as mine. Most of them deal with pain every day in one way or another, just as a matter of course of growing older, and what that in itself can do to the body. But, Jeron, I do totally get where you are coming from. And I wish I could go scuba diving today too especially since there is a heavy snowfall warning in effect for my area. On May Long weekend no less! Janet
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