Hi all, I am so affected by what is happening in the wider world and in my smaller world. I wrote a note to the Security Council. I guess we all wrote those notes. It's too bad that our country is in such a mess in every way. I get so angry, it's blowing my head even more.
I've had a couple of unsatisfactory talks with Brad, the Weed Supervisor, this last week. I'm feeling bad and scared. On one hand, I want to influence the county weed control to go to less chemicals and have a more wholistic concept. Everyone has her/his own paradigm and we're all suffering from cognitive dissidence as far as listening to another point of view. Brad actually told me that I was unhappy and maybe I should just work on my own land. I think he wants to get rid of me. On the other hand, I'm really hurting, and would like to go to a place where I could be happier. I think, though, that will come as these things are resolved. I need some spiritual guidance to get past the pain and into a state of happiness. I need an Epiphany. It would help if GWB, Cheney, Rumsfeld, etc. would suddenly start doing everything right and I could relax and feel that the world is going fine. Love to all, Merla
