It is with a heavy heart that I write this in the hopes that maybe it will help some. Not being there and not being in your shoes and not even knowing the little guy I can only write what is in my heart.
Nugget is blessed to be with folks who loves him and only wants what is best. If it were me, and I have been there, I would go with what the vet advises. He/She knows what is in store for the little guy if he continues the way he is now and even if the seizures can be stopped at this point the damage has already been done. It is so heart breaking to have to make the decision but it is something most pet owners have to face. I'm sure you would see more clearly about Nugget if you and your family had not had such suffering and grief of late.... it must feel like it is just one more horrible hurt. But, truly, in all honesty I believe that Nugget will thank you for letting him go. What ever you decide, Deanna, I know it will be what is best for Nugget. My heart goes out to you and this group of wonderful folks is all here for you. mj and benji ________________________________ From: Deanna Corey <[email protected]> To: [email protected] Sent: Sat, November 13, 2010 1:08:08 AM Subject: [Chihuahuas] Advice with Nugget Hi everyone! I posted this on one of my lists and instead of re-writing it all I am just cutting and Pasting...please be honest with what you think...I need input from CLEAR heads!!! This is the most frustrating thing ever...just when I think we have made headway things go from bad to worse with Nuggie's seizures! I went with diet change...that seemed to help a lot for a good 6 months...then they started increasing so we have tried the PB and then the KBR route...these past few months have been super hard as sometimes he responds so well to the meds...i think we have it licked and then WHAMO...seizures WAY worse than before meds. This week has been horrible...6 big ones! and then last night 3 more right in a row...in the time span of 2am to 5:30am...so far no more today but I am on pins and needles just waiting for the next one...Last week was a good week with none. Before the meds he never had one more often than every 20 days and they were not that severe as now. I thought maybe when the Dog Park lost 3 that would be a good thing for him but no matter what I can't seem to find the reason...the triggers. Our friends visited yesterday and bam...their little Pap sent him right into a huge one! Last month when they were here everything was fine...so no rhymne or reason that I can see.! We have had 100's of dollars done now in testing and the vets do not know any more than what they told me the day of his very first one. On Monday we took him in again...Dr Verred said maybe we should start thinking about putting him down. He has adjusted his meds 5 times now and he is frustrated too that we are not making any progress...accept causing more damage in my opinion! We see brain damage it seems with every seizure...I do have to say I didn't see that at all until we went with the meds!!! It is almost like we have reached a point of no return...even if somehow we can get the seizures to stop...he is still pretty damaged...doesn't know where he is 1/2 the time...has forgotten all training and now I think he has issues seeing for long periods of time...then it seems to come back! Anyway I am just sick!!! I don't know what to do...I don't want him to suffer...and I don't want to be selfish...but I don't know if I have the strength to actually do it...it is like deciding to have one of my flesh and blood children euthanized! With our lives like they have been...with so much grief...so much "stuff" I honestly don't know if I am seeing things clear enough to make any good decisions!! Something that scares me is not doing anything and then having the experience 2 of my friends did. They didn't have the strength to have their seizure dogs put down...they were on the same roller coaster ride I am on now...so they just kept waiting and trying different things. Both of them had the most horrible thing happen...both dogs...had violent seizures and then died in their arms from heart attacks. These were two seperate families but I have these stories in my head...they both have shared how much pain they thought the dogs experienced in the end. I can't do that!!!! I am so sorry to just dump all this on you guys but I so really need your opinions as I can't see clearly what to do!!! Any advice???Any suggestions?? Any thoughts?? Any one??? I just can't see through the pain what to do!!! Not just the pain from Nugget but just so much loss this year...so much grief...I am kind of sinking I think! Waggin' Tails in The Dog Park, Deanna and The Dog Park Pack: Nugget, Shuai-Li, Mouse, Myrtle, Mable,and Caleb and honorary non-dog members of The Dog Park: Stella-Macaw, Stanley-Amazon, Miles the cat www.joys4toys.com
