-Caveat Lector- Why was Sean Sellers hearing voices in his head at the age of *six*? How did he become "obsessed with Satanism"?
++++++ Wednesday February 3, 1999: 11:27 pm. They have come for me. Time at last to say Goodbye. I lay this body down and die. My race is done. I am finished. God must do the rest. Shalom. Sean Sellers 1969 - 1986 - 1999. These were the last words Sean Sellers wrote in this life. Half an hour later he was taken to the execution chamber of Oklahoma State Penitentiary, strapped to a gurney and despatched on schedule, just after midnight, by lethal injection. Sean had spent almost half his 29 years behind bars, under sentence of death for crimes he committed as a deeply disturbed, paranoid schizophrenic boy of 16. A withdrawn, damaged child from a fractured family who had been surrounded by violence all his life, Sean slowly lost touch with reality. He had been hearing voices in his head from the age of six and had lately become increasingly paranoid, given to bouts of suicidal depression and self-mutilation. He became obsessed with Satanism and took amphetamines to carry out nightly rituals. His dreams were punctuated by violence and mutilation. One night in March 1986, reportedly after going without sleep for three days, he finally gave in to the voices in his head. He fell asleep, woke up, took a gun and shot his mother and stepfather dead as they slept. These were not even his first murders. Six months earlier he had gone with his friend Richard Howard to a Circle K convenience store in Oklahoma City and shot dead a clerk named Robert Bower. The attack was desperately random and motiveless. Sean just said that he "wanted to see what it feels like to kill somebody." "Even if it's a different me, it's still me, isn't it? And if it's some other me who does something horrible and evil, isn't it an evil part of myself that did it? I want to take responsibility for it. I don't want to rationalize it away, and that's usually what it sounds like whenever I try to explain it." Nobody, least of all Sean, disputed the enormity of his crimes. But ironically it was what Sean did afterwards, as he awaited the inevitable, that provides one of the most compelling arguments against the death penalty. Sean grew to manhood on death row and discovered his own humanity in the most dehumanising of places. First he healed himself through writing and painting, then he dedicated himself to healing others; he made videos about the dangers of drugs and Satanism and entered into lengthy correspondence with similarly tortured souls. He even saved the life of a fellow inmate who had been taunting and threatening him. All the while Sean offered unswerving and unconditional contrition for his crimes. ++++++ M. F. Abernathy -- [[EMAIL PROTECTED]]-- 04/04/02 <A HREF="http://www.ctrl.org/";>www.ctrl.org</A> DECLARATION & DISCLAIMER ========== CTRL is a discussion & informational exchange list. Proselytizing propagandic screeds are unwelcomed. Substance—not soap-boxing—please! These are sordid matters and 'conspiracy theory'—with its many half-truths, mis- directions and outright frauds—is used politically by different groups with major and minor effects spread throughout the spectrum of time and thought. That being said, CTRLgives no endorsement to the validity of posts, and always suggests to readers; be wary of what you read. CTRL gives no credence to Holocaust denial and nazi's need not apply. Let us please be civil and as always, Caveat Lector. ======================================================================== Archives Available at: http://peach.ease.lsoft.com/archives/ctrl.html <A HREF="http://peach.ease.lsoft.com/archives/ctrl.html";>Archives of [EMAIL PROTECTED]</A> http:[EMAIL PROTECTED]/ <A HREF="http:[EMAIL PROTECTED]/";>ctrl</A> ======================================================================== To subscribe to Conspiracy Theory Research List[CTRL] send email: SUBSCRIBE CTRL [to:] [EMAIL PROTECTED] To UNsubscribe to Conspiracy Theory Research List[CTRL] send email: SIGNOFF CTRL [to:] [EMAIL PROTECTED] Om
