after working for years to do small coding, and my history of past skill with coding, it’s actually kind of pleasant to press my dissociation by trying to code. i don’t necessarily succeed though.
sometimes the areas are easy sometimes hard. i/you? can work around dissociation issues by building skill in many areas of the mind. so i just do it a lot and build habits distant from the feelings [like somebody with dementia] but i don’t always find a path to this, and sometimes it can be very intense and influential to work that hard on something, and usually it 8nvolves a number of phases of extreme psychological experiences to return from
