In a message dated 3/14/1999 6:12:38 PM Eastern Standard Time,
[EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:
<< (An homage to Nicole, who pulled the same trick to counter a "hot lead"
remark)
I feel strangely nervous, tense, on edge. What is the source of my
discomfort? There seems to be a tightness in my XY Jeans..it's getting hard
to breathe without panting...gotta unsnap the fastener, relieve the building
pressure...then IT emerges, lengthensthickensdistends its hideous, bloated,
throbbing, pulsating selfOMIGAWD! Quick, the BobbitKnife! Patriarchy has
Reared its Ugly Head! >>
That sounds like a sexual threat, very much in the manner of white slave
masters who raped the enslaved women and girls they owned.
It also is akin to the sexual threats issued - and too often carried out by -
by men against women who disobeyed the patriarchal structure - feminists,
afghanistani women, catholic nuns in Latin America,reflecting fannie lou
hamers jail experience, the fate of escaped slaves all over the americas, the
threat to women working in offices, walking home at night alone, and the ever
presented use of rape and sexual threat against women in wars all over this
world.
Klu Klux Klan members often sexually threatened the black women they
harrassed.
Included in this threats given to lesbian women to "fix them".
Is this the mentality you protect women at abortion clinics - the mentality
you showed toward your black girlfriend. Is this an example of the your
character that you say that I attacked unfairly?
That you pose this an "homage" to me reveals your intent clearly, but you must
understand that on an email list you are no threat me me, sexually or
otherwise. I won't trivialize what you have sexual threat you have written by
going for the obvious comment that I may well comment on lack of size you may
not want to reveal or the often manifestation of such blatantly sexually
abusive attitudes by men who are impotent. You are least impotent in your
ability to terrify or even passify me via email.
In reality, if you present yourself to me in such a way, what would you have
me do with your penis? Will you attempt to force me to do this? You will
require a weapon, such as a knife or a gun to force me to do this - and you
must wait until I am alone - perhaps breaking in on me in my home, jumping out
of the bushes, or forcing me off the a deserted road at night and drag me into
the dark, perhaps a wooded area, to achieve your intent.
Do you really think I would see any other choice than to cut it off? Defend
myself to the point of your death, even if it results in my death? I would act
upon the concern that you would later inflict such attitudes on younger black
girls, or elderly black women - and women of color really, actually women of
any race/ethnicity - who were unable to defend themselves.
Even without my death, I could fairly well make an argument for self-defense
in your murder by simply presenting what you wrote above as proof of your
intent. So if you ever came near me, I would have reason to be sufficiently
threatened as to stop you by any means necessary.
If I cut it off, I assure you that there would be nothing left to reattach
because I would either shove it down your throat or torch it in your presence.
You underestimate my capacity if you think otherwise.
I know masses of black men (arabs, latinos, africans, americans), who are very
repulsed by such sexually threatening abusive behavior in men (the masses of
men including my father, grandfathers, uncles, cousins) who would make sure
that would the dying swan song of your behavior towards me.
So you have gone from attempting to squash my expression of my own perspective
on my experience as a black woman, to making comments on savage somalis and
other such texts to "correct" me, refute the idea that I can know or think
anything other than what you deem acceptable and fact, and not being
successful at any of that, you resort to the sexual threat above.
You have shown what your philosophy is in full.
Nicole
