I started to shake and then while shaking entered utter dissolution. I got all of us to our destination safely. I don't know if I experienced a step back or forward. I also don't quite get how I could feel totally dissolved and yet describe the experience to the men as I drove. The dissolution doesn't seemed to have disappeared. It feels like the dissolution is always there and I just don't place my attention on it.
It appears that there's a flip flop between being aware of the dissolution and feeling and seeing infinite love and I'm infinite and everything is infinite and no matter where I look I see people, animals and things but simultaneously see myself looking back at me. Frankly I prefer the infinite love thing a lot more than just the infinite thing.
