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>________________________________ > From: Bob Price <bobpri...@yahoo.com> >To: "FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com" <FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com> >Sent: Saturday, November 19, 2011 8:15 AM >Subject: Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Yo Denise > > > >full SCREEN please > >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H4jyF4LUpPM&feature=related > >________________________________ >From: Emily Reyn <emilymae.r...@yahoo.com> >To: "FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com" <FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com> >Sent: Saturday, November 19, 2011 12:44:42 AM >Subject: Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Yo Denise > >Oh mon dieu. Excusez-moi s'il vous plait. Je suis desolee. Merci beaucoup. > >Warning: Read at your own risk > >I realize this is going to sound kind of schizophrenic but I am retiring my >name and rebranding. You can call me Emily or Em or Em-dash or whatever else. >I have taken pity on myself and have taken Denise off the front lines for now >- her own name is creating too much angst for her. She doesn't want to >represent at this time - she's experiencing PTSD and is going to start EMDR in >January (yes, and will be meditating too). Somebody needs to have that poor >girl's back 24/7 in the real world - she's been having a rough go. It >occurred to me that that person has to be me. Imagine that. I meditated >yesterday and visualized her as a child and she is quaking in her boots. And, >bloodletting all over this forum is really not the right way to go for her. >I'm only going to do it this last time - hopefully. I have also let her know >that nailing herself to the garage door or prostrating herself in front of her >lawnmower won't improve her image in the >neighborhood. So, Emily is stepping in to help her. > >Obbajeeba, I am not holding your poor taste in video that morning against you >in the slightest. I will say that I much preferred the one with Ginger in it >that Bob sent, care of his wife. I know you didn't mean to set off such a >reaction in me and it was a pretty good joke, objectively, I do agree. I >triggered heavily, which is actually a good thing, and I blame it all on the >voodoo (see video at end of post). I might have even had a wet dream just >prior to the days' long rolling shame attacks that ensued. Kind of like an >ocean wave. They are happening a lot these days. I breathe through them and >allow them to wash over me. It was very kind of you to think of me after I >posted out and I don't want you to feel at all badly. I'm moving forward and >I do feel lighter :) > >To Bob's wife, I am extremely appreciative of your very fabulous response and >I am letting go of any guilt I might be harboring subconsciously. I am >definitely not a threat in any way....and I look nothing like Cameron >Diaz...so there is nothing to worry about there either. Although I do hope to >resemble Maria Bello in a year's time. > >Bob is a lucky man, which we all know on this forum. After hearing from you, >he is even luckier than we might have imagined. I unsubscribed soon after I >posted and didn't see this until now. I was thinking today that I should go >back and check the thread but I've been too frightened. I knew I lobbed one >out there and then ran for my marmot hole. I always underestimate this forum - >I was kinda hoping that if I didn't look, it wouldn't be there. Again, not >so. > >I am almost convinced, not quite, but almost, on the TM. Yes, I absolutely >want the benefits exactly as you have described and never have I heard them so >well put, may I add. But, I'm not buying the whole "value" line of reasoning >at the price its being offered - not at all - my subjective principles are at >play :) And, the remaining pennies in my piggy bank are being saved to buy me >as much time off as I can get in the coming year. I was hoping I could use >the Leonard Cohen mantra - the secret of the universe - if you haven't seen >the video I/Emily posted earlier, it's a good one - last two minutes for the >mantra. And he is so cute when he smiles. But, now its out there and off >limits. I keep forgetting. > >I have discovered that a buddhist monk kind of a guy is living several doors >down from where I live who is doing/teaching a meditation group. I am getting >his number, as for me, I want to believe in my current state of disrepair that >meditation is meditation is meditation and that this practice will work as >well as the next at this point in time. My head is barely above water, after >all. Yes, I will pay, but its a nominal fee. I did my own thing yesterday >for 30 minutes and it totally changed my day, so I know there is something to >this. Hours of classical music are also helping. My expectations are low, so >I'm sure they'll be met. > >We all have a story. I will keep this fairly brief but I was sexually >assaulted 1.5 years ago by get this, a husband. His wife, my primary friend in >the relationship, had left for their island retreat with the kids (one of them >mine) and I sat down with a glass of wine to "shoot the sh*t" with her >husband, who I hadn't seen in awhile, and who was staying behind. In >hindsight, he must have been drinking heavily throughout the day (he had a >very high tolerance and it was hard to tell). In hindsight, they had invited >me to their wedding anniversary at Teatro Zinzani the year before as they >"weren't enjoying just spending time with themselves anymore." In hindsight, >he lost his mind. It was a physical fight and he didn't get what he wanted at >the time. He apologized, but it was too late. > >I cut off contact with both of them immediately. I begged off dinner >invitations. I forced myself through one ski day with my friend because I knew >she had no idea. I did the George Costanza line..."it's not you, it's me," >which was also true in that I was full into my corporate death spiral at that >time. I asked myself, "What will be gained by me telling her?" They were >"do" friends - backpacks, ski trips, camping trips, dinners, parties...she >didn't like to talk emotional anything. We were always about the activity - >our friendship was very "stereotypical male" in that regard. But, I was >already pulling away because I was turning into an emotional wreck and was >having trouble pretending or getting the energy up to "do." > >It would be excruciating; it would blow their marriage apart; it would blow >our families apart; betrayal, pain, and suffering. Our kids went to yoga >together - why ruin their world? It would be the end of the relationship >anyway. I agonized over this, because I am usually pretty direct and I like >to think I am an honest person. I asked myself as Bob likes to say, accept >seriously in this case, "Was it something I said?" And then, "Was I giving off >sexual energy in some way that he picked up on and thought I wanted back?" >"Was my vulnerability showing through?" After all, it is always the woman's >fault isn't it? She asked for it, after all, didn't she? I've known them for >10 years - nothing even resembling this kind of interaction or conversation >had ever occurred. > >So, in the end, I determined it "wasn't on my dot." It really wasn't my >fault. I couldn't take on being the one in the middle, bringing their >problems to a focus at point blank range on my forehead. If she had been my >best friend, I would have told the story, because I know she would have >believed me and it would have been about honoring the friendship, first and >foremost. But, she wasn't my best friend in that sense - she didn't own her >feelings - she would have looked for someone to blame - it would have been me. >I chose "situational ethics." So, you see, when that video was posted, I >freaked out - even though it had absolutely nothing to do with any of you at >all. > >I am living in my "pain body" as Eckhart Tolle would say. I know it; I have >to stop feeding it. I have a plan. I need to keep it light here. This post >is not that light, but Emily is in charge now and she has better executive >function, so there's hope for the future. > >By the way, I created my name - "the Reyn part" based on the weather here, but >see now nicely it dovetails with the video Raindrops Keep Falling....In the >end, I really do blame it all on the voodoo. > >And, luckily for me, I located some speakers for my laptop in my garage. And, >I hooked them up, and they work. > >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jcr9_dCOusk > >________________________________ >From: obbajeeba <no_re...@yahoogroups.com> >To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com >Sent: Friday, November 18, 2011 5:39 PM >Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Yo Denise > >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWMxX5MGuHI > >--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Bob Price <bobpriced@...> wrote: >> >> >> >> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P_5l6rIUu4A >> >> >> ________________________________ >> From: Ravi Yogi <raviyogi@...> >> To: "FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com" <FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com> >> Sent: Tuesday, November 15, 2011 12:57:10 AM >> Subject: Re: [FairfieldLife] Yo Denise >> >> >> >> Nice to hear from "the wife" and glad to hear that you have given up all >> pretenses to reign in Bob and letting fat chance and old age do its work :-) >> >> >> >> On Nov 14, 2011, at 11:14 PM, Bob Price <bobpriced@...> wrote: >> >> >> >> >-Denise >> > >> >This is my first and (I hope to God) last post on Fairfield Life. I'm "the >> >wife". I asked Bob to let me send you a post, after he showed me this post >> >of yours. Bob shows me a lot of FFL posts, but the ones I enjoy the most are >> >yours and Judy's. I enjoy your posts because you have a great sense of humor >> >and do not take yourself too seriously, and I admire Judy for standing up to >> >some obvious sexism. >> > >> >Thank you for asking Bob to share your post with me; I appreciate you >> >watching my >> >back. I wouldn't be too concerned though; I'm confident the chances of Bob >> >finding another brunette version of a Cameron Diaz doppelganger are about as >> >narrow as (I'm told) my very narrow ankles. Not that Bob isn't resourceful, >> >he's all of that, but as I'm sure you've guessed, he's getting a bit long in >> >the tooth. I agree with your take on the "after sex" video, according >> >to Bob, Obbajeeba was scraping the bottom of his nitrous oxide tank (I have >> >no >> >idea what that means) and got a bit carried away. The only part of >> >this post that's Bob's is this link, which Bob insists is the link Obbajeeba >> >should have sent. >> > >> >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VDmCZar-MpA&feature=related >> > >> >I have no doubt you and I could keep up with Ginger, but Bob as Fred, maybe >> >on his >> >keyboard. >> > >> >The reason I wanted to send you this post was to do something I've never >> >done >> >before; recommend you get initiated into TM. I'm not a promoter of TM, and >> >unlike Bob, I've only been mediating for a couple of years. I've been >> >following >> >your posts describing some of your recent health challenges. Based on the >> >last >> >few years of meditating, it's been my experience that TM might just be the >> >kind >> >of technique that would help you with the passage you are presently going >> >through. TM is subtle; it's been my experience that it unlocks something >> >that's >> >already there; I like to think of it as a slight edge (no fireworks) like >> >the >> >slight edge top performers have. I don't mean it makes everyone a top >> >performer, I don't believe it does; I believe it opens this edge of a little >> >more energy, a little more clarity and a little more happiness, and I >> >believe >> >that slight edge makes many of the normal challenges life, throws at us, a >> >lot >> >less daunting. I run my own company, and I've been impressed by how it >> >helps me >> >when I should be running on empty. >> > >> >When I started a few years ago, I thought Bob was an idiot for not teaching >> >me and >> >insisting I pay the 4 figures to get initiated. I wanted to know why the >> >hell >> >he won't teach me, but he insisted I go to the TM center to learn (he said >> >he didn't want >> >me to use it against him, if we ever ended up in court:). Since my first >> >meditation, I have not asked him why again. The point I'm trying to make is >> >that if you can manage the fee, I would not hesitate to recommend >> >you pay it. I can't honestly explain it, but for what it costs why mess with >> >the system, if it will help you find in yourself what you need to come out >> >the >> >other side of what you're presently going through. It's also been my >> >experience >> >(with your corporate background, I'm sure you know this as well) people >> >value >> >what they pay for. And lastly, something happened when I went through the >> >puja >> >the day I was initiated, it might just be me but something seemed to happen >> >between my initiator and me that made me feel she's on my side. I recommend >> >you >> >get a female initiator, frankly, some of the male initiators seem a bit odd >> >to >> >me, but then the guy I sleep with seems a bit odd to me at times, so what >> >can I say. I >> >have no doubt; TM works, and it works well. >> > >> >I can't believe I just wrote this. >> > >> >Best of luck. >> > >> >________________________________ >> >From: Denise Evans <dmevans365@...> >> >To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com >> >Sent: Monday, November 14, 2011 2:03:23 AM >> >Subject: Re: [FairfieldLife] Yo Denise >> > >> >Thank you Bob: >> > >> >That is a great quote. >> > >> >My occipital lobe enjoys everything you post :)  My frontal and parietal >> >lobes struggle to keep up.  I forwarded the last one for later viewing.  >> > >> >My musical reply is posted at the end of this soliloquy.   >> > >> >It has come to my attention that my "debt to equity ratio" is high - quite >> >a bit higher than I'm comfortable with.  Ultimately, I'm in search of the >> >"win/win" solution for my Self - fantasy/hallucination or no.  I've got >> >some "action items" I need to "own" and "implement".  I'm all about the >> >client, you know, regardless.  In that my current client is myself or >> >Self, if you prefer, I'm just trying to "bring it on home."  >> > >> >I am "retooling" my strategy with my new client in mind.  I'm pretty sure >> >I'll find that I'm no longer in the driver's seat, but I've done plenty of >> >strategy in my life and I was pretty good at it in my particular line of >> >work, so my Ego insists on trying to help.  After all, I had a lot of >> >success - the clients were happy and so was I.  Unfortunately, hindsight >> >tells me, it was all at the expense of my nervous system and other systems >> >I was unaware of at the time.  Whoops.  >> > >> >Nothing was more gut-wrenchingly painful than watching myself >> >self-destruct.  I was perched outside my body and staying objective, so I >> >knew what was happening, but the forward momentum was stronger than my >> >ability to stop it. >> > >> >I made some critical errors along the way....I forgot to develop an exit >> >strategy, for example.  I remedied this immediately upon realizing the >> >error, but it was too late. I'd taken so many sucker punches and "hits" in >> >the final years that my body/Self said: "No deal, not this time - I'm >> >running the show now. I am removing you as CEO - you are out of touch and >> >doing a crap job - there is no "value added" from your input." >> > >> >Luckily for me, the larger God/universe stepped in and gave me a way out - >> >it only cost $36 million of our taxpayer dollars.  With my last remaining >> >strength, I dove for door.  I set up the meeting, I cleaned out my desk. >> > I moved everything I wanted to my car.  My layoff was in the bag and I >> >had a credible story to substantiate it.  When they walked me out, I >> >hugged my manager and thanked her profusely.  And then, I went to bed. >> > >> >I am in serious recovery in every respect - I thank you for your part in >> >helping move me from the "living dead" to  "hmmmm.....what is this?" Thank >> >you for helping me get back in my body.  It actually was an unintended >> >consequence of me partaking in a medicinal variety by myself for the first >> >time since high school.  I did an awful lot of dancing and you did help me >> >stay tethered to the planet that night. I hope it was as good for you as it >> >was for me.  Please tell the "wife" everything - I'm sure she will >> >understand, and for the fuckin' record, in case anyone on this forum is >> >wondering, I don't mess around with married men ever (Sorry, I just had to >> >say that because of that "after sex" video - can't let that lie there with >> >no response.  What, in God's name will people think of me?  I'll be >> >condemned and burned at the stake.  I like it hot, but not that hot.)  >> > >> >Phase II is "on deck."  It's time to heal. My sister sent me a 2012 >> >Burning Man calendar as a gentle nudge.  I don't know, looks pretty crazy >> >to me. However, she is smarter than I am, so perhaps she knows best.  I >> >took an IQ test today and while I am sure it's inaccurate, I am not as >> >stupid as I thought.  Does one need a high IQ to attend?  I am a bit of a >> >sandbagger at times.  In terms of reasoning, that is. Not sure what the >> >larger intellect is doing.  >> > >> >Obbajeeba, if you read this, you have also been an enormous help to me and >> >thank you so much for acknowledging my existence on the planet and finding >> >me pretty men to look at. This is where I am starting. And that line about >> >the crickets was priceless.  >> > >> >I'll be back later, if only to lurk and practice "silence" (Yeah, right). >> > >> >I leave you with my absolutely favorite song from one of the movies you >> >posted a song about (I think).  The all-time best of George Clooney. >> > >> >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08e9k-c91E8&feature=related >> > >> >________________________________ >> >From: Bob Price <bobpriced@...> >> >To: "FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com" <FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com> >> >Sent: Sunday, November 13, 2011 2:45 PM >> >Subject: [FairfieldLife] Yo Denise >> > >> >Denise, >> > >> >IMO, you're one of the real delights on FFL. >> > >> >I thought you might enjoy the following: >> > >> >"The true object of propaganda is neither to convince or persuade, but to >> >produce a uniform pattern of public utterance in which the first trace of >> >unorthodox thought reveals itself as a jarring dissonance." >> > >> >-Leonard Shapiro >> > >> >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=46bBWBG9r2o >> > >> >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbug5sM1T1w&feature=related >> > >> >http://c-realmpodcast.podomatic.com/player/web/2011-10-26T06_20_22-07_00 >> > >> >                      >> > >>   >> > > > > > >
