Om Em, Yes, vasanas. We all have them or get them in ways. Thought forms that can lodge in the energy system. Clearing them is a sort of a process of transforming to transcend and transcending to transform. You know who is really helpful with this is our own, XX. A guy driven off the list several times by some of the negative people here with short-fused aggressive intellectual vasanas on FFL. I dare not mention XX's name or it shall trigger a palsied agitation and retribution in some here. However, there are some people in Fairfield or around the meditating community that are adept at navigating this problem. It's a spiritual life skill-set. -Buck in the Dome
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Emily Reyn <emilymae.reyn@...> wrote: > > > > Yesterday, I was back at the cranial-sacral guy, who is apparently also > visited by loving "beings" here and there who ask permission to help him. He > is the "cleanest", kindest, most non-judgmental gentle person I have ever > met, has many years of experience, has studied with many different people, > and he is fully dedicated to his healing work which extends beyond just the > "cranial-sacral" modality. > > I was having a hard time quieting my brain down and feeling my body and have > in general been in a lot of physical/mental/emotional pain of late, feeling > like there is a concrete stone pressing on my heart/chest, feeling > increasingly very heavy, dark, angry, uncomfortable, and somewhat desperate > and panic-stricken. Instead of addressing the core reasons and/or the > subconscious belief system/negative messages/patterns that run below the > surface, I have been doing what I can to escape from my body/my self - an odd > combination of healthy and unhealthy practices, if I do say so myself - > relieving symptoms temporarily, creating more symptoms, and marking time > waiting for the other shoe to drop. > > So, there I was yesterday, lying on the table, attempting to focus on my > breath and connect with the earth's energy and feel myself in my body, and I > noticed that the cranial-sacral guy seemed to be working on me with real > intensity, working on my head, pressing on my heart area, etc. The energy in > the room was almost palpable. All of a sudden, I opened my eyes to see him > acting like he was pulling something out of my torso area and I felt a > "whoosh" sound, without the sound. Almost instantaneously, I felt > substantially lighter and grounded and the thought came to me that I have to > start helping my practitioners help me - I have to start taking > responsibility for my recovery (so to speak) - I have to transform the way I > exist on the planet. I have to stop punishing myself and start affirming my > right to exist and live. I want to give something back before I die. > > He told me he removed a "negative entity" that was inhabiting me. He is not > the first practitioner to energetically remove dark energy from me. Whether I > manifest this myself or whether I allow some other "entity" to inhabit my > being/body, I don't know, nor do I care. I was simultaneously giddy and > exhausted and energized from the experience, which makes very little sense. > But, for me, I don't need to transcend, I need to transform. Although using > certain definitions, they are one and the same. I want to inhabit my body > and empower my spirit. The negative beliefs I have about myself are false, a > self-destructive illusion, but they still run the show more times than not. > It is my responsibility to claim my right to exist on this planet and align > myself in a way that respects myself and others and reflects personal > integrity and honesty. The kids deserve it, but equally as important is the > idea that I deserve it as well. >
