turq, fuck you and you'll fucked. eat your own shit for a while prick. i'm ready
fuck you fucker you'll get piged fucker how --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, turquoiseb <no_reply@...> wrote: > > No, the Subject line is *not* a prelude to some cafe rap about my > degenerate ways; it's actually the name of the cafe I am sitting in. > It's quite a pleasant place, with an international clientele and a nice > outdoor area where they keep the umbrellas open in case of sporadic rain > ( which is a way of saying that the umbrellas are always open; it's the > Netherlands :-). Besides, they have Westmalle Tripel beer (and at 2-3 > Euros less than other cafes charge), so I can sit here with my computer > and watch the passersby and just rap, while enjoying the fruits of > Trappist monks' labor. Life is good. > > What I feel like rapping about is a saying or tenet or dictum that one > tends to find in almost every spiritual teaching or tradition: "What you > focus on, you become." The thing that astounds me sometimes as I cruise > cyberspace, and listen in to what long-term proponents of these > spiritual teachings and traditions talk about, is the large number of > them who focus on life *not* being good. They tend to focus on negative > stuff -- bummers. > > I mean -- pick *any* forum, at random -- and you're likely to find far > more posts about the Coming Apocalypse, or American politics (which is > pretty much *by definition* negative), or their ailments and which > healer du jour is hopefully going to cure them, or arguments about > dogma, or (because they've been going on for so long that no one can > remember what they're about) arguments about arguments. When they *do* > talk about positive things -- experiences that most would consider > "spiritual" or uplifting -- the experiences described almost always tend > to be in the past, stories about how shiny such-and-such experience was > while in the presence of such-and-such teacher years or decades ago. > > WTF? What happened to having spiritual experiences in the present? > > Most raps on most forums that most people would consider positive or > uplifting are about either things that happened in the past, or about > things they anticipate (and hope for) in the future. At best 10% of the > participants ever find anything positive about their here-and-now lives > to talk about. > > You might not think it, based on some of the things I write here (where > I tend to fall into Bad Habits and write for this particular audience), > but I have positive -- even spiritual -- experiences all the time. If > it's been more than a couple of days since I've had a Class A uplifting > experience, I take it as a sign that something is "off" and that I > should Lighten The Fuck Up and start looking around more. > > But then, when it comes to finding uplifting things in my environment > *when* I look around, I'm kind of a cheap date. I can get high as a kite > hearing the laughter of a child, or watching a pretty girl walk by. > > In fact, that's what occasioned this rap. A lovely girl just walked by, > and the very sight of her got me high as a kite and triggered what many > here would call "witnessing." It *wasn't* lust, and it *wasn't* any kind > of prurient interest. It was her walk, and her demeanor, and her smile, > and the fact that she was so UN-self-conscious about all of these > things. > > She wasn't trying to attract attention; that was, in fact, the very > thing that caught my attention. She was just walking along the street -- > bouncing along, really -- full of joy and full of appreciation for her > life, and *completely unaware of her self* and all those problems that > selves tend to have. She was completely content with herself, *in the > moment*, so much so that if I'd stopped her and asked how she felt about > herself, she'd have probably looked at me as if I were crazy, because it > would have never even occurred to her that she *had* a self. > > This, to me, was a better lesson or "teaching" on the nature of > selflessness than any lecture or talk by any spiritual teacher in the > world. You could read every scripture in the world and not find a better > and more clear exposition of what "selflessness" is all about. But like > I said, I'm kind of a cheap date where these things are concerned. > > I guess what I'm saying is that I, for one, wouldn't mind seeing a bit > more of that kind of selflessness on so-called spiritual forums. If > you're offended by what I say, and your first impulse is to lash out at > me, that's self talking. Bad Habits. > > If you feel that way, prove me wrong and write a post or two today about > TODAY, and what you have experienced TODAY that you found uplifting or > spiritual. If you can't, don't you think you deserve a refund for all > the time, money, and energy you've put into the spiritual path you've > been following? >
