Thanks for sharing your answers with us Emily. I love to see what others think and feel. And you are someone who interests me.
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Emily Reyn <emilymae.reyn@...> wrote: > > Hi Robin:  I did this for fun.  Couldn't score myself though, although I > noticed I was able to strongly agree or disagree on a few things.  Left you > a few notes below.  Can't really figure out the difference between > "maximally desired", "desired" "undesired" "maximally undesirable" answer. >  What is a "desired" answer?  Desired by who?  Perfect score?  Ha ha. >  Very funny.  > > > ________________________________ > From: Robin Carlsen <maskedzebra@...> > To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com > Sent: Tuesday, August 21, 2012 3:17 PM > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Quiz: Determining one's existential sincerity > > >  > Quiz To Determine How Sincere You Are About Knowing Reality > > Directions: Read each statement carefully. Decide whether you Strongly Agree > (SA), Agree (A), Strongly Disagree (SD), or Disagree (D). > > Score 4 for the maximally desired answer, which will always be either SA or > SD. Score 2 for the desired answer, which will always be A or D. Score 0 for > the undesired answer, Score -1 for the maximally undesirable answer. Perfect > score = 100. There are 25 questions. > > I understand more or less how I came to my present view of reality. > Four.  Sure > > I can't conceive of understanding or experiencing reality in any other way > than I do. > Four.  Of course I can. > > When I sense some challenge to my view of reality (or any given issue) I > harden and hunker down; it doesn't matter at that point whether I am right or > wrong; I must preserve the sense of my own sense of integrity: I must defend > myself. > Depends on the issue; depends how much experience I have related to it. >  "Right or wrong?"  Huh - who decides?  Yes, of course I like to stay in > integrity with myself.  I don't always have to defend my position - if your > experience is different, your reality will dictate a different answer.  Too > many questions here to give a number to.  > > I have had the experience of realizing I was wrong about something, and have > enjoyed surrendering to a different truth than I started out believing. > Four > > I feel I am a pretty good judge of the sincerity or insincerity of someone > who takes a point of view opposed to my own. > How does someone evaluate the "sincerity or insincerity" of others?  Over > what time period? What venue?  Depends on how well I know them and how > interactions with them have gone over time.  Hard to judge on the internet. > > I believe it is possible to be a good person and yet have a view of reality > or even any important issue which is opposed to my own point of view. > Four > > I would like to have a greater awareness of all the reality that there is to > know. > Not necessarily.  Who defines what "all the reality that there is to know" > is?  I don't need any more awareness of reality altered by drugs I haven't > taken yet nor do I want the reality of living on welfare, for example - both > experiences of which could qualify as part of "all the reality that there is > to know", depending on how it is defined.  > > I am living a life that is not ignoring the fact that I know I must die > someday. > Yes and no.  > > I wish I could be in an actual state of grace all the time, supposing this > were possible. > State of grace - (Christian theology) a state of sanctification by God; the > state of one who is under such divine influence; "the conception of grace > developed alongside the conception of sin"; "it was debated whether saving > grace could be obtained outside the membership of the church"; "the Virgin > lived in a state of grace" > > Seems like a complicated term, actually.  Not sure what that would mean.  > I am willing to brave my fears and my own conditioning in order to get a > connection with reality which will ask some form of sacrifice of my familiar > way of seeing things, and my own vanity. > Four > > I am interested in having an experience of my own essential innocence and > sincerity--at least this is a desideratum I seek. > Believe I have these on a regular basis - not sure what "essential" mean as > an adjective here.  > > I consider a clear conscience to be a good thing. It is something I wish to > possess in my own life. > Narcissists often have clear consciences.  If I had one "up front", I > wouldn't make any amends.  In general terms, yes, I'd like to have one at > the end of my life.  > > When I am in the presence of an intuition of a greater or higher reality I > tend to contract rather than expand. > Four > > I have done my best to find the purpose of life, even the purpose of my own > life. > Four.  Have always been stymied by this - in the larger scheme of > things..."what's the point of it all?"  > > I like learning new things about myself; I am in the quest of greater > self-knowledge all the time. > Four > > I feel motivated in some sense to seek the truth even if that truth is > inconvenient to me, to my assumed beliefs and predilections. > Four > > I think I am a pretty good judge of the character of other human beings. > Depends on the timeframe one knows them and under what circumstances and in > what venue.  > > I feel that my life has been governed by a fate which did not take into > account my own desire or free will. I feel I am not essentially responsible > for where I have ended up in my life. > Four > > I am willing to have a change of heart about someone should they indicate > some willingness to reach out to me. > Not always.  "Reaching out" can be a manipulative technique.  Depends on > how they conduct themselves over time.  > > My enemies, they are fixed for all-time for me. I don't see reconciliation or > negotiation. I will fight to the end, never giving any quarter--no matter > what. > Four > > I would rather be who I am than to be any other person who has ever lived. > Four > > I am willing to see the truth of when irony is directed towards me. > Four > > I feel I want what is the most real experience that any human being can have > in the universe. > Four.  What is "the most real experience that any human being can have in > the universe?"  Essentially, we are all living that, because we are here.  > > I feel the truth about something always has a better potential for being > useful to me than some falsification of that same truth. > Four.  "Truth" is subjective in many cases. > > I am living a life so as to deserve to be happy when I die. > "Deserve to be happy when I die?"  I would like to "deserve to be happy now" > - who cares about what I deserve when I die?  >
