--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Emily Reyn <emilymae.reyn@...> wrote: > > Hi Alex: Â Thanks for letting us know. Â I expected a warning > email on the number of posts I was at last week (ya know, like > you've been giving Robin) but it didn't happen.
I was doing that for a while due to Yahoo glitches making posts show up under different handles in the Post Count, and I wanted people to be aware that they need to add up all their posts. I don't feel I'm under any obligation to that on a regular basis. > Â Guess that's more of that "you guys need to be fuckin' > responsible for how much you're posting" line, particularly if > you're posting under two different monikers. Yeah, that pretty much covers it, although I, myself, would never use the F-word. > Ah well: Â I always love to listen...speaking of which. Â I read > your WD experiences with interest and understand there was a point > at which you realized you had gotten what you needed out of it, > but curiously, can you elaborate more on this? > > "I can't speak for anyone else's experiences, but my awakening and > the four month dark night of the soul that led up to it were very > real. And, almost seven years later, I'm still trying to integrate > the skullfuckingly life-changing shift it's been."Â Â In a nutshell, my decades of seeking was all about trying to change the I/me story into someone it's not and never will be, and what Waking Down did was make me free fall into all the shadow stuff that I had been pushing away, trying not to be. To use WD's jargon, this is an embodied awakening; it's an awakening to the paradox of both our limited and unbounded nature. Awakening to the unbounded conscious nature does bring a great deal of freedom and internal spaciousness, but the hyper-awareness of all the shadow stuff ends up enforcing a brutal authenticity that has been very uncomfortable at times. I have to laugh at Uncle Feste's broad brush dismissal that this is all just moodmaking, because why the hell would I moodmake being the person I never wanted to be?
