Well, I would say you may still be a little wet behind the ears. I think many have taken this route.
A friend of mine who was an active teacher back in the day, and lived in FF for a spell, is now priest in an archdiocese in Iowa somewhere, IIRC, and he tells a similar store as Kai Druhl, and his objections run along the same lines. I think you have a tendency to take at face value every claim MMY or the TMO has made, and then when they don't pan out you start pounding. I think others were able to figure in a discount for the "vision of possibilities" and go from there. Yes, some of things that have come to light in the intervening years have caused me some cognitive dissonance, and forced me to look at things differently, but I know what I have taken away from the experience overall, and that has allowed me to overcome some of the dysfunctional parts of it all.