--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "claudiouk" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > Before doing the Sidhis it DID, in that it was an easy, pleasant and > relaxing experience during meditation. But it didn't have any impact > outside meditation on what I considered my major LIFE problems at the > time - especially in comparison with all those "scientific" studies > that raised so many expectations. This led me to doubt my own > competence in the practice particularly as I didn't think I'd ever > reached transcendental CONSCIOUSNESS, although a sense of transcending > ordinary surface thinking was a common experience then. The Sidhis > created more self-consciousness and sense of competetiveness - never > hopped, for instance, as didn't want any "fake" experience. This > completely undermined the innocence during TM, which lead to very > subtle straining - with disastrous consequences. To this day - over 25 > years later - just CANNOT have easy meditations for more than a few > days or weeks. Typically I don't think I'm straining anything but just > get headaches and can't help finding this demoralising. No amount of > checking sorted this out and generally felt that the TMO was only > interested in success stories anyway. So I've had periods of not > meditating followed by renewed attempts which end up being > disappointing and short-lived, during which even the mild sense of > transcending is a rare phenomenon. So if YOU are finding TM easy and > relaxing just ENJOY it!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been experimenting with various ideas during meditation, because, as I've told before, I noticed from the very beginning that thinking of my mantra during inhalation felt quite bad, especially in my head. One of the "best" ones of those ideas is based on a bit more literal interpretation of "desha-bandhash cittasya". I'm not saying that's a correct interpretation, it just seems to work for me. I think it's a gift, sort of, to be able to meditate in TM-style exactly the way Maharishi teaches it. As a comparison, I think people who have perfect pitch, can't often understand, why other people can't hear the pitch of a sound very accurately, because for them "perfect-pitchers" it's totally natural.
