Thanks, Kerry as always for your kind words. When we took care of him for a few days due to his injury three weeks ago, something told me that I wanted to take pictures of him, so I did - yesterday, I went developed them - I am so glad that I have his pictures with me - I put it in a frame and kiss him and hug him (which I could never do to him because he was so feral) - I did not want to forget what he looked like - he had such an innocent cute face - now I won't have to -
Hideyo -----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of MacKenzie, Kerry N. Sent: Monday, April 11, 2005 12:21 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: RE: My beautiful angel Jazz is gone Hideyo I'm so sorry about the little stray boy kitty. I'm crying with you. I'm glad you got a little comfort. It's so hard. And you're so brave. much love, Kerry -----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Hideyo Yamamoto Sent: Monday, April 11, 2005 12:12 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: RE: My beautiful angel Jazz is gone Nina, I am so very sorry to hear about Jazz - I am crying with you, Nina. I just hate this disease so much and I wish I could find words to make you feel better - but I know that you know that I understand exactly what you are going through. Nina, I talked to two ACs on Friday regarding the injured stray kitty that has been missing - and I wanted to share this with you in case you feel that this might be something that you might want to consider for Jazz (talking to Jazz through AC though you are the one who originally recommended to me about ACs). Anyway, two ACs, they both said a very similar thing about the boy kitty which was that he already crossed over, his soul is now out of his body. I was and am very sad - and I cried and I cried, but at the same time, I was able to communicate him via AC - and it was one of the most amazing experience I ever had in my life. Then, I realized that the worst thing I could have expected that was not that he was no longer alive, but he was somewhere suffering, and wanted to be found, and I couldn't. - and that was not the case. He said that he just went peacefully with no pain - it was something that was there for a long time, perhaps, cancer, and he knew that his time was approaching and he perhaps came to say good bye to Susan on Saturday of two weeks ago. This might sound weird - though no longer he was alive on this earth, he told me that he was OK - he had a good life and he loved me and still loves me. But he was worried about me, he thought that Susan would be sad, (my neighbor) but she would be ok - but he was worried about me because I love too much, and can't let go and he did not want me to be sad - Knowing that he was ok in his new world gave so much a peace of mind which I never experience before. I still cry every day missing him and thinking about him, but knowing that he is no longer suffering gives me a sense of peace which I found it so valuable. The both ACs told me that nothing is 100% and they can be wrong - so I still look for him everywhere I go , but even if I don't see him - I can feel him, and he will be in my heart always...just like Jazz will be in your heart... -----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Saturday, April 09, 2005 2:46 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: My beautiful angel Jazz is gone The day we all dread came for Jazz and our family today. My beautiful girl has gone to join her brother Flash and sister, Molly. She had been sick for the last couple of weeks and hadn't eaten for the last three days and her breathing had become fast and shallow. I brought her in to my GP vet this morning to get sub q fluids for her. During his exam, he became concerned about the faintness of her heartbeat. We took xrays and it wasn't good. Her lungs were pressed against her trachea, her heart was enlarged, and her liver deformed. So, you see, all the Dox and VO in the world wouldn't have helped. This came on so suddenly. My first indication that something was wrong came about a month ago when I noticed her sitting in the same spot, just staring into space. Then, about three weeks ago she didn't respond to my call and scared the heck out of me until I discovered her sitting in a corner of the garage, (all my babies come when I call, this was very unusual behavior for her), then the signs of anemia began. The last week has been the worst, more and more lethargy, less and less of my sweet Jazz's joy of life. Today, before we went to the vet, she looked at me and I swear I heard her say, Mom, I love you, but please don't force any more medicine or food on me. She'd lost 2 lbs over the last month and when I picked her up she'd be like a limp doll in my arms. Still, I never expected this morning to be the last morning we'd share. I'm so sad, so tired, in way too much disbelief, given the circumstances. I just can't believe my beautiful girl with the glamor tail won't be bugging me anymore when I make myself a cup of tea. She used to somehow know when I'd reach for the box and come running out of nowhere begging for the balled up tea wrapper to chase around the front room. Who's going to jump on my lap when I'm fresh out of the shower for a warm, humid, love session? Who will be nice to Kimba Cat now? My beautiful, naughty, sweet loving girl is gone. She just turned 18 months. Nina This email and any files transmitted with it are confidential and intended solely for the use of the individual or entity to whom they are addressed. If you have received this email in error please notify the system manager. This message contains confidential information and is intended only for the individual named. If you are not the named addressee you should not disseminate, distribute or copy this e-mail.
