Thanks, Cherie. I am here. Fern actually died Sunday night, about six
hours after Pepsi. I was in NJ with Pepsi and Gray was in MA with Fern,
and he did not tell me until Monday morning because he thought I could not
handle it so soon after Pepsi's death. So I came back to MA and buried
her with him. We are pretty numb and exhausted.
Ginger is still at my mom's in NJ. I brought her down there with me when
I went to be with Pepsi, because she had a fever and I did not feel ok about
leaving her here with anyone else taking care of her, and she immediately
started doing better at my mom's. She has been eating a ton, with just
one periactin every other day. Knock on wood. So I left her there with
my mom, because we are moving to NJ in a little over a month and this way she
does not have to do two more 5 hour car rides. My mom is also very skilled at
medicating, giving fluids, etc. so if Ginger needs it she can do it. My mom
was very close to Pepsi, so I think having Ginger there to fuss over is
actually good for her, and for Ginger, right now.
Gray and I are actually both going to a yoga retreat center for two
nights this weekend. It is really hard to be in the house right now, as Fern
was the last of our three dogs, who we have had for the past 10 years, which
is most of our relationship. We want to get out of the house, but feel
we need something with some structure since we feel pretty lost and figure we
won't actually do anything otherwise, so we are going to a yoga place in the
berkshires where I have gone on my own a few times and really like it there.
We are trying to survive. To tell the truth, we are both functioning
better than we thought we would, and better than we have in the past when we
have lost loved ones, even though we lost two in one day after very difficult
days of them being in bad shape. We are not sure if we are just numb from
being overwhelmed, or if it has to do with how badly both of them were doing
for days beforehand. With Pepsi, I am not sure I have viscerally
accepted she is gone. I stayed with her while she was tranquilized,
until she was really out of it, but left before they gave her the euthanasia
shot because with horses it makes them fall over sideways and hit the ground
really hard and is extremely horrible. I also did not look at her body
afterwards. I went back to my parents' before they buried her, having last
seen her standing, and then back to MA. Since I was not seeing her every
day and did not see her die, I am afraid that inside I am not really convinced
she is gone yet. So I am not sure this has hit full force yet.
But thank you for worrying about me. I am just too tired to read or
respond to posts and have just been erasing most of them the few times i have
gotten on email.
Michelle
In a message dated 5/25/05 6:47:15 PM Eastern Daylight Time,
[EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:
Hi all,
I was just curious has anyone heard from Michelle, she has gone through
so much, I was hoping Ginger was still doing ok and Fern was still with her
for comfort....
Michelle...if you are out there please drop a line and tell us how you
are doing, you have had such a hard year, I just want to make sure you are
as well as can be expected.