Hideyo,
I would be honored to write a testimonial to you and all your rescue
efforts. I think it's an excellent idea to go to court with a stack of
them to show the judge. Let us know where to send them, (do you have a
PO Box?). Go over the posts and suggestions made when all this crap
first came up and get yourself armed. Did you ever contact ALDF?
You're right, you don't have the luxury of putting things on hold during
your grief. You had posted that someone advised you if the "anonymous"
complainant didn't show up, you'd be okay, it doesn't sound like that
will be the case if they have filed criminal charges against you. Start
lining up foster homes now, just in case. The Angels are on your side
and so are we,
N
Hideyo Yamamoto wrote:
Nina,, you are now making me cry more ---
Thank you for everything you say...
The only down side is having so many of animals is that.. I can't just
keep crying.. I wanted to.. I wanted to be right besides Garfunkle after
he passed, and kept holding him until I get tired of crying...but I
couldn't.. everyone is looking at me, and meowing.. so I needed to keep
moving..
My hearing (for animal control) is set for December 19th - and also
animal control filed criminal complaint about me not complying with
their order... so I have to go to hearing about that, too.
I am a bit freaking out.. but I have to keep moving.. because I have got
too much to lose if I don't..
If anyone would write me a letter to vouch me as a care taker of my
animals.. I will be grateful.. I will be sharing it at the hearing so
that they don't think I am some sort of hoarder that I don't take care
of my animals.
-----Original Message-----
From: [EMAIL PROTECTED]
[mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina
Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 12:38 PM
To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org
Subject: Re: My dear Garfunkle's new departure
Hideyo,
You know my opinion on "what ifs". Whatever we do that we think was
detrimental, can be turned around on us. You gave Garfunkle something
that you suspect "did something bad to him", (I doubt it), but what if
you hadn't tried whatever it was? Then right now you'd be thinking,
"Oh, if only I'd given him that homeopathic I wanted to try, maybe he'd
still be with me". You can't win that game, and I know you know that.
It's all part of the pain of letting go and knowing that we are not in
control the way we wish we were.
As far as you not being strong... You are one of the strongest people I
know. There is no greater champion for those who can't speak, or act
for themselves. What you do, and you do so much, takes guts and
courage. It's only common sense to realize that the more animals we
take in, (esp when those animals have had a rough start and are at a
disadvantage to begin with), the more probability there is for loss.
Yet you continue to help all those that cross your path. You fight like
a tiger protecting their young, don't tell me you aren't strong. You
are very strong, strong of heart and strong of spirit. There is NOTHING
weak about mourning the loss of our babies physical presence, nothing
weak about not wanting to let go. The only thing "messed up" is the
seeming injustice of life. Life, unfortunately is a death sentence.
Every creature born is terminal, I know that you know, it's how we share
our time together, whether long, or short, that matters. Many blessings
to you Hideyo, you're my kind of human.
Nina
Hideyo Yamamoto wrote:
Thanks, Nina.. I pretend to be strong.. but you know how messed up I
am.. I am crying my tears out, Nina. I think that I gave something
(homeopathic treatment) to him that did something bad to him.. because
he went down right after that.. this is one of my "what if..." thing..
and I so regret it, Nina. But - I know that Garfunkle had a good life
--I just so wish to have more of it! I will talk to Jasmine tomorrow
to
see if I can talk to Garfunkle in his new life.
Thank you for thinking of me and my babies.
Hideyo
