Oh, Chandra...I'm so sorry to hear about Buddha! We're battling lymphoma here, too, and the emotional roller-coaster is really starting to take its toll. I'm ecstatic beyond belief one moment when I can see his old inquisitive, mischievious self in his eyes...and bawling the next when I imagine a future without him. Please know that you are in my thoughts...may Buddha find his way home swiftly...
Jen **************************************************** "But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world; You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed..." --Antoine de Saint-Exupéry "If you talk to the animals they will talk with you and you will know each other. If you do not talk to them you will not know them, and what you do not know you will fear. What one fears one destroys." --Chief Dan George ----- Original Message ----- From: chandra simms <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> Date: Friday, January 6, 2006 11:55 am Subject: Re: Chandra-- how is Buddha doing? > Michele and all the wonderful members of this group, > > I am sorry I have not written in a while, but it was a > very hard holiday and I haven't really had the > emotional strength to post until now. > > The last time I posted, Buddha was having his best > week since being diagnosed with lymphoma at the > beginning of December. He was back to his old self > and acting as if he was feeling fine, however four > days before Christmas he took a serious turn for the > worst. The tumor behind his eye quickly began to > cause the eye to bulge and protrude out of the socket > and the pressure it put on his little brain began to > effect his other neurological functions. He > completely lost his appetite, the ability to see in > either eye, and to walk. Although he was conscious, > he was fairly catatonic and had pretty much completely > checked-out by that point. We talked to the vet and > she said that there was no getting better from that > point and also that the eye would soon either pop out > on its own, or we would have to have it removed, which > we did not want to him to have to go through. So on > the 23rd we made the excruciating decision to help him > let go. > > My mother lives about 45 minutes away in Denton, so we > buried him in the yard at her house and decided to > just spend the week there. Neither Julian or I were > anxious to get home and begin the process of packing > away Buddha's things. Having all the visiting family > in town really helped to provide a slight distraction, > especially since I couldn't go much more than five > minutes without crying for the first 2 days. > > Although I knew this time would eventually come and I > was able to gather so much strength from all the > advice and good wishes from this group over the past > month, I was completely unprepared for the amount of > grief I felt. Since he lived so long without any > symptoms I think I was in denial that the day would > ever actually come. > > I am almost ashamed of how lucky I feel to have had > him in my life for 14 years, and my heart truly bleeds > for those of you who lost your friends sooner and > didn't have as much time together as we did. > > I will be forever grateful to all the members of this > list and honestly don't think I could have endured the > pain that the last month brought without you. > > I don't know how to go about it or if it is too late, > but I would like for Buddha's name to be added to next > Monday's candle light memorial service. If it is > still possible that is. > Could someone please tell me who I should contact for > that. > > Once again, on behalf of Buddha, Julian and myself, > thank you all so much! > > > > > > > --- [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: > > > Thinking of him and hoping he is still feeling > > better. Please give us an > > update when you get a chance. Having been through > > the rollercoaster of lymphoma > > several times, I really feel for you and Jen, who > > has Ewok, and think about > > Buddha and Ewok multiple times throughout the day. > > I hope he is still > > feeling well, but know there are so many ups and > > downs. Please let us know how he > > is when you get a chance. > > Thinking of the two of you, > > Michelle > > > > > Love is not necessary to life, but it is what makes life worth living. > > > > __________________________________________ > Yahoo! DSL ? Something to write home about. > Just $16.99/mo. or less. > dsl.yahoo.com > >
