as we all here know, this is the very hardest place we as catparents
ever find ourselves.
for me, it's remembering that sometimes i'm the position to give them
that final gift, of peace, in gratitude for all the love they've
offered me. learning to separate out my own needs from theirs is the
hard part...
i do want to say, tho, that one of the most profound things anyone
ever told me was that, "it is better to send them home one day too
early, than 5 minutes too late." protecting them from suffering is,
for me, the biggest thing...
MC
On 10/10/06, Marylyn <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
After walking the walk with the Royal Princess Kitty Katt--------give them
the opportunity to leave on their own. Don't rush them on their journey.
You would not want to be rushed on yours. If you know in your heart that
you would want to be helped along if your were in their paws consider it.
Or if they flat tell you it is time and they need or want help.
The awful thing is you have to be so much stronger to do this. With Kitty I
have no doubt that I did right letting her leave on her own.
Blessings to you.
If you have men who will
exclude any of God's creatures
from the shelter of
compassion and pity, you will have men who
will deal likewise with
their fellow man.
St.
Francis
----- Original Message -----
From: "Nina" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
To: <felvtalk@felineleukemia.org>; "Carol Robinson"
<[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
Sent: Tuesday, October 10, 2006 2:52 PM
Subject: Spencer and the difficulty of final decisions
> Belinda,
> Thank you so much for your suggestions. You're right, I don't know what's
> going on with him exactly. Who knows, it could be Pancreatitis. I'm in
> that terrible position of wondering, 'if only'. I was stewing in that
> feeling all day yesterday. It's making me wonder if my resistance to all
> the suggested testing was misguided. I'm at that terrible point were I
> know we're just about out of time, where there's still life, and therefore
> still hope, but hope is dwindling rapidly. As I told you, I had the
> housecall vet on the phone this morning. He even had a cancellation and
> could have come this afternoon. I hung up without making an appointment.
> Something is holding me back from making that final decision. I tend to
> think, when I feel this way, that perhaps there's a miracle just waiting,
> if only I could figure out what to do to nudge it along. Before I began
> this post, I was thinking maybe I could call the housecall vet back and
> have him come draw blood for more tests. Unfortunately, Spencer's so
> emaciated at this point, I doubt his veins would support a blood draw. I
> have a call into my AC... I'm wondering if perhaps my hesitation to
> relieve Spencer of his practically useless body has more to do with
> allowing death to take it's natural course. Maybe the light in his eyes
> has more to do with him being glad for the opportunity to pass on his own
> then what I was hopefully interpreting yesterday as an indication of
> possible recovery. I know everyone on the list knows, (and of course
> Hideyo has just gone through it with her little Tsubomi), just how hard it
> is to watch and wait and comfort and cry through that process. I've
> always believed that euthanasia is a gift of love, that if it is done for
> the animal and not for our own convenience, or even to ease our own
> suffering, then it is the right thing to do. In Spencer's case, I'm not
> getting any of the signals that normally tell me this is what he wants...
> So, I continue to wait and watch and support and try to be brave through
> my tears.
> Nina
>
>
> Belinda wrote:
>
>> Steriods will help any kind of inflammation not just inflammation from
>> cancer. They also help many other conditions.
>>
>
>
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