Poor Kerry, You really can't control what the vet's office did or didn't do. I know it's terrible, but does reliving it again and again do anything positive? No. Beating yourself up and reliving regrets can kill you. Please try to remember, YOU did everything YOU could do, and some things were out of your hands. Though they should have been IN the hands of capable people, sometimes bad things happen and mistakes are made, and you HAD NO WAY OF KNOWING. Please try to remember all the good times with Bandy, and don't relive the bad times. His memory should be one of love and happiness, not something that brings you nightmares. Try to focus on his life, and the joy he brought to you. If he were here, I'm sure he would much rather his memory bring you happiness than regrets!
I think you may need to confront the kennel person and sit down and discuss what did happen, because I don't think you will be able to let go and heal until you can confront the pain and the root of your fears and regrets about his care while there. Phaewryn http://ucat.us Adopt a New England FIV+ cat: http://ucat.us/FIVadopt.html Special Needs Cat Links (and feline info library): http://ucat.us/domesticcatlinks.html Declawing Creates SUFFERING, Please don't declaw! http://www.pawproject.com/kona.html
