Hi All,
I haven't written in a while, and I haven't been able to read the posts for several weeks as the end of the semester was winding down and the amount of grading and advising I had to do has been enormous. So, bear with me as I try to ease back into the group! If you remember me and Cassidy (FeLV+), I'll give you an update. The sweet guy and I flew from Nebraska to Las Vegas and then drove to Best Friends in Utah. This all happened yesterday, and I flew back today-no overnight stay-just back to the airport and home. I'm exhausted emotionally and physically. Unfortunately, I didn't get to see Best Friends since I arrived after hours and had to hand Cassidy over to my contact there and a lady from Cats. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. I've never lost a kitty, but now I have a feel for what all of you have gone through. I felt like my heart was being torn out of my body. Cassidy has lived in my office at my house since the first week of April, and since I spend the majority of my time in there, we've spent a lot of time together. I can't help but cry and cry as I write this-the first email I've sent without his help since he got here. It's so lonely in my office now, and quiet. I miss our talks and discussions. I miss how he always asked me questions or just meowed a little bit to remind me he was there. I miss his soft little body curling of in my lap. What I miss the most is the way he would always look deep into my eyes like no other cat has ever done-as if he were communicating with me on a deeper level. I love him so much. Of course, I still have 3 permanent cats and 2 other rescues to keep me company, but there was something special about Cassidy-something that was so far beyond my other cats, and I just can't name it. I didn't think I could love another cat more than my Bandit who I've had 10 years, but in only a month and a half Cassidy completely stole my heart. It hurts so much to not have him here to talk to. Of course, I know he's much happier now. He'll have so much room to play and jump around and go outside and visit with other cats, but I'm selfish, and I wish he was here with me. I hope they'll be able to send me pictures or at least tell me how he's doing. He's going to have so much fun adventuring in his new home. I just wish I could have afforded to build a place just for him and other future FeLVs at my house. Someday I'll have a FeLV rescue, and I'll dedicate it to this boy who has opened my eyes and taught me my calling. He found me just when I needed to be found. I was lost, confused, didn't know what to do to feel more complete-to find my niche in this world. He showed me what I need to strive for and why. Luckily, since he's been here, I was hired for a new job-a full-time one! I start on Monday! I couldn't even get interviews around here because I have "too much schooling." But, after nearly giving up hope, I got an interview and the job! I can't help but think that Cassidy was the catalyst for all of this-my guardian angel sent to set me straight! Everything is going to fall into place, I just know it. Now I can start saving for my dream, and if another special guy like Cassidy ever comes into my life, I'll be able to offer him a place to stay. Well, I have to sign off since I can't stop crying and I have work to do yet this evening. Thank you all for listening, and I'm sorry I haven't posted in forever! Melissa minus Cassidy, plus Bandit, Angel, Smokey, Ashley, and Nonie.
