Beckie, You are such a bright little light here and I
feel so sad to know you are hurting and your sweet
little Moeman might be fading away. You have learned a
lot for the time you have been here. I know I have on
just how to take care of our little guys better and
signs to look for. I have been checking all my
kittie's gums this morning and just like I suspected,
my old guy, Dingo, he is 13 years old, and has seemed
out of sorts lately, has very pale gums. He is not
FeLV+ or FIV+ that I know of ,but I will have him
tested and for now am trying to get a good iron
supplement. I wrote down :Procrit ? Who was it that
said they gave that to a kitty and it helped with the
anemia? It was just in a recent post... I am asking my
vet about what it is and can I have some right now...
I just left a message for my vet...Anyway, thanks to
these guys here, I know a lot more than I did a couple
months ago.
Do not give up fighting, but I do not believe in
stressing our guys out either.I think you probably
have a good idea where Moeman is at this point and if
he is getting weaker and you have tried through
supplements, etc. you have done all you can...just
love him.
I absolutely loved Jenna's letter to you. What a
beautiful, thoughtful gift from her and her husband to
share their experience with you...I will be keeping
that letter for myself, for when I will be needing
that precious support, that can only come from people
who really understand...
My heart is with you and Moeman...Glenda
--- Jenna <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
> im so sorry beckie- i will keep you and moeman in my
> prayers.
>
> It feels odd to write about this now as my husband
> and i were crying remembering our beloved siamese
> calico lady. This is my experience and I hope it
> helps you.
>
> My baby died at home. That was important to me,
> and i wanted it that way though my husband was very
> caucious about it. I wanted her to be comfortable
> and not with people she was afraid of and being
> stressed out. I have seen people go kicking and
> screaming and while in trauma that might be more
> beneficial, in the case of terminal illness it makes
> it harder. So after that experience (this was with
> my grandmother) I told myself that if this happened
> with my animals- i wanted it to be gentle and
> peaceful. There is a line from the nbc show Heros
> where Peter the hospice nurse says, "death can be
> beautiful, if you let it be." Though most may reject
> this statement because it is not something most want
> to think about, I can say that I do agree with it.
> It doesn't make it hurt less, but it made it easier
> for me to deal with.
>
> She stopped eating, and slept all the time. She
> didn't purr and did not want to be held. In her
> prime she was very talkative and loved being held
> and paraded around our apartment. Eventually she
> stopped her toilet activiites- which actually was a
> relief because she had a lot of blood (stool was a
> dark tar color) in it and that was very tough. I
> started having a feeling that it was going to be on
> sunday because i started getting a song in my head
> about a relationship ending that is from Aspects of
> love by Andrew Lloyd Weber. The song is "Tell me on
> a sunday."
>
> "Don't write a letter when you want to leave
> Don't call me at 3 a.m. from a friend's apartment
> I'd like to choose how I hear the news
> Take me to a park that's covered with trees
> Tell me on a Sunday please
>
> Don't leave in silence with no word at all
> Don't get drunk and slam the door
> That's no way to end this
> I know how I want you to say goodbye
> Find a circus ring with a flying trapeze
> Tell me on a Sunday please"
>
> That day - on sunday- she was in the bathroom and
> she was breating very heavy. Her eyes were very
> diated. I bent down around her and sang her
> Complainte De La Butte from Moulin Rouge. For the
> first time all weekend she raised her head and
> looked at me. She purred so loud. I told her I loved
> her and if she wanted to go it was okay. I got a
> feeling that she understood.
>
> The song goes:
> "Petite mandigotte je sens ta menotte qui cherche
> ma main
> Je sens ta poitrine et ta taille fine
> J'oublie mon chagrin
> Je sens sur tes lèvres une odeur de fièvre de gosse
> mal nourri
> Et sous ta caresse je sens une ivresse qui
> m'anéantit
> The stairways up to la butte can make the wretched
> sigh
> while windmill wings of the moulin shelter you and
> I"
>
> I sang to her for about 15 minutes and pet her,
> even though I could feel each vertebrate of her
> little back bone. She did not shy away that time.
>
> I went back to the living room and laid down, but
> didnt' sleep. It was exhausting. My husband went
> into the bathroom and stayed a long time. I knew he
> was talking with her. When he was done, I could see
> he had been crying.
>
> When i woke up I sat at my computer. About 20
> minutes later my dog, Carmel got very whiney and
> would not settle down. She was upset about
> something. I went into the bathroom and found that
> satine had passed. She was stretched out like she
> would when she was comfortable and when I said kitty
> and shook her she didn't move.
>
> I went out side and told my husband she was gone.
> He said he knew that he talked with her. He told her
> that she was surrounded by love and she would always
> be loved. He said she picked her head up and meowed
> at him. He said he thinks she knew what he was
> saying and that she was waiting for him to be okay
> before she left. I agree with this. He hugged each
> other and cried a long time.
>
> I had put her carrier together before hand in
> preperation for when I would need it. I picked her
> up to put her in it. Her body was totally slack and
> her head fell all the way back like a rag doll when
> I picked her up. (I'm telling you this so you can be
> ready for it)I held her to my chest and cried- no
> wept - over her- and i cried hard- for a long time.
>
> I put her in the carrier and covered the front of
> it with a towel. My husband called the vet and said
> that she had passed. We took her to the vet and
> picked out an urn for her and left her there to pick
> her up again when we got her ashes.
>
> That night I could not relax to sleep. Eventually
> I felt (and you may think me crazy) her presence in
> the room. I felt a warmth on my chest where she
> would lay all the time. Only then was I able to
> sleep. I tell you about it because I do believe that
> all those living have souls and we can call upon
> them when we need. And not in a distant way like
> they are far off in heaven but that they are they
> present around us all the time. The Other reason I
> tell you that last part is because I had her visit
> me again last night and I didn't know why. When I
> read your email, I knew I had to write you about
> what happened.
>
> I don't know if any of this helped, but I hope it
> does. I cried alot when i wrote this, but I wanted
> to share my experience with you and hope it helps.
>
> "It is okay to grieve- not all tears are evil"- JRR
> Tolkien.
>
> Bless you and Moe.----
>
> Jenna
>
> Beckie McRae <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
> I think the Moeman is dying.
> Im just trying to keep him comfortable as
> possible now. No more pokes and prods, etc. Hes
> content I think. Im just wondering if you guys
> could tell me the typical course of dying for a FELV
> cat? Will he just get weaker and weaker like he has
> been?
>
>
>
>
>
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