well my pal, looks like you have already got plenty of people with their scorns and admonitions to help you wallow ever more in self-pity and remorse. but I will say something different. I dont see any good outcome in continuing the scolding. for a change, i will say that, no matter if what you did was pretty mean and cowardly, it did take a conscience and an honest courage to come out with it on the forum.
so if you have realised what you did was something shameful, I think you can feel a little better about yourself than you are doing now. there is no one, who does not prove himself to be spineless sometime or other in life. but if you are really sorry and so desperate to make ammends like you say, maybe you like anyone else deserve the chance to make it up someway sometime. after all, all change for the better starts with such a realization that you need to work at something there, and ready to make it up if given a chance. I dont know whether that ditched guy is going to feel like giving you that chance, but here's hoping that you will get the chance to prove -- and "redeem" -- yourself in another way sometime in future. so i guess you should leave the past behind, as you cant undo it, and just make something constructive out of the humbling incident by just learning from it well, instead of masochistic wallowing in the morass of misery. cheers -- Jit Ajax DJ <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: You are being too kind. I hate myself more than ever. I have never been the kind of guy who has run away from anything in my life, and yet I did. I regret and am in remorse. Hope I can meet that guy some day and make good. Thats all I can say regards Arun On Sun, 05 Feb 2006 Sycophant Cynical wrote : >Well.................. I never have faced such a situation but can say what u >did was not correct. And for ur own sake don't dare to meet that person >again.............. am quite sure he just hates u...... nothing >else........... I agree with Tintin on his last question.............. "Do u >really know the meaning of friendship?"................ neway........... try >to be bit sensible............. from the next time................ Ajax DJ wrote: I am totally closetted and hence in 2004 December I made a brave attempt and got an advert on GB ADs and met up with this totally cute chap. I met him but had no guts to move ahead (cant say his name). I was also nursing an extremely hurtful breakup with a married guy, so I wasnt even interested in a fling and whats more, the hurt was so bad that I had gained over 30 pounds (which I have lost finally!). Had lost my father and then the married lover - the so called love of my life. Anyhoo, sob story aside. I have generally been a silent spectator to this group. Last saturday something got to me, I was very drunk and alone with a friend ( a very straight bachelor friend ), who abandoned me to catch some ZZZZ's. Since I stay at Girgaon (sorry to guys Ive told Colaba Post office), and I was afterall at Mondegar totally sloshed, I decided to do a dandi march to VOODOOs at 1230am or something like that. My first visit to Voodoo. Marched right in and glance upon a guy - dark moustached guy dancing with a cross dresser. he ditched her and we danced (REALLY REALLY CLOSE) till closing time (sadly for barely half hour), but in that time, I felt heaven ( and his trousers ) I have never been in such a passionate situation ever, I rode on his bike to a secluded spot around Malabar hill later that night and got at it on the road. But barely 10 minutes later a havaldar appeared at a distance obviously well aware of what I was doing to this hot masculine moustached stud. I got too scared and ran off. Leaving this guy alone perhaps. He stays in sion but cannot say his name. I wonder if he is on this message group. If he is, I am so sorry I shouldve faced the cop with you and not ditched but it was my first time ever and I was scared. Please contact me. I want your friendship too. arun lakani Group Site: http://www.gaybombay.info ========================== Group Site: http://www.gaybombay.info ========================== This message was posted to the gay_bombay Yahoo! Group. Responses to messages (by clicking "Reply") will also be posted on the eGroup and sent to all members. If you'd like to respond privately to the author of any message then please compose and send a new email message to the author's email address. Post:- gay_bombay@yahoogroups.com Subscribe:- [EMAIL PROTECTED] Digest Mode:- [EMAIL PROTECTED] No Mail Mode:- [EMAIL PROTECTED] Individual Mail Mode:- [EMAIL PROTECTED] Contact Us:- [EMAIL PROTECTED] Archives are at http://www.mail-archive.com/gay_bombay%40yahoogroups.com/maillist.html Classifieds for personal advertisements are back on www.gaybombay.info site. Please exercise restraint in the language of your personal advertisement. Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/gay_bombay/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
