I Hate My One Eyed Mother

 

"My Lord! bestow on them (Parents) thy Mercy even as they cherished me
in childhood." (Q 17:24)
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My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment.
My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and
such to sell... anything for the money that we needed, she was such an
embarrassment.

There was this one day during elementary school. I remember that it was
field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this
to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school...
"Your mom only has one eye?!" and they taunted me. I wished that my mom
would just disappear from this world, so I said to my mom, "Mom, why
don't you have the other eye?! You're only going to make me a
laughingstock. Why don't you just die?" My mom did not respond.

I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think
that I had said what I'd wanted to say all this time. Maybe it was
because my mom hadn't punished me, but I didn't think that I had hurt
her feelings very badly. That night... I woke up, and went to the
kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as
if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, and then
turned away.

Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something
pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my mother who
was crying out of her one eye. So I told myself that I would grow up and
become successful, because I hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate
poverty. Then I studied really hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul
and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the
confidence I had. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. Then
I had kids, too. Now I'm living happily as a successful man.

I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom.
This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when someone unexpected
came to see me "What?! Who's this?!" ...It was my mother... Still with
her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My
little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye. And I asked her, "Who are
you? I don't know you!!!" as if she trying to make that real. I screamed
at her "How dare you come to my house and scare my daughter! GET OUT OF
HERE! NOW!!!" And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, I'm so
sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared. Thank
good ness... she doesn't recognize me. I was quite relieved. I told
myself that I wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of
my life.

Then a wave of relief came upon me... one day, a letter regarding a
school reunion came to my house. I lied to my wife saying that I was
going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went down to the old
shack, that I used to call a house...just out of curiosity there, I
found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a single
tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me.


She wrote:

My son...

I think my life has been long enough now. And... I won't visit Seoul
anymore... but would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come visit
me once in a while? I miss you so much. And I was so glad when I heard
you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to the
school... For you... I'm sorry that I only have one eye, and I was an
embarrassment for you. You see, when you were very little, you got into
an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching
you having to grow up with only one eye... so I gave you mine... I was
so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my
place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did. The
couple times that you were angry with me. I thought to myself, 'it's
because he loves me.' I miss the times when you were still young around
me.

I miss you so much. I love you. You mean the world to me.

My world shattered!!!
Then I cried for the person who lived for me... My MOTHER


A WONDERFUL MOTHER.

GOD made a wonderful mother,
A mother who never grows old;
He made her smile of the sunshine,
And He molded her heart of pure gold;
In her eyes He placed bright shining stars,
In her cheeks, fair roses you see;
God made a wonderful mother,
And He gave that dear mother to me.

(Anonim) 

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pada 9/27/2007 11:17:00 A




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