I can see how this relates to how I try to work with my horses, how it's hard to stop old patterns on my part, to stay in the moment and try to work with "feel"
"Ordinarily we are swept away by habitual momentum. We don't interrupt our patterns even slightly. With practice, however, we learn to stay with a broken heart, with a nameless fear, with the desire for revenge.... We can bring ourselves back to the spiritual path countless times every day simply by exercising our willingness to rest in the uncertainty of the present moment—over and over again." ~Pema Chodron Kim