Dear Mark: First let me apologize if I miss any of your words as I once again had a major computer crash. I have reloaded Netscape but I no longer have your sweet missive so please bear with me as I respond. Sorrow overcame when you told me...and I know we know what this means. And I am sooooo happy you have found new paths and treasures. At several points during the Fest I was afraid I would throw myself onto the floor and sob...unable to contain myself. Instead I went into this wee room off the main floor...and with the music playing, big tears rolled down my face and spilled onto the ground all around me. Often I feel that I have emptied the well of salty sorrow but it comes lurking back at the most unexpected times. Ninety percent of the time I am thinking, laughing, joking, playing...all of those things. I know many others have suffered loss but when I am in the middle of my memories I feel enveloped in sorrowful azure petals. I can not raise myself up by saying some people have it worse than I do when I am overcome with feelings as I was at the Fest. That comes later. I have sometimes asked myself why Sheila had to pass on and all I know is that this is the way things go sometimes. And it is that way for you too. A big smile has spread across my face because I know you have a special person in your life once again and I also know that being positive helps us maintain a healthy spirit and body. For myself, I do not believe I will be with another person. I am content with my family and friends and I feel that I had such a wonderful dazzling relationship for 17 years...something many people never have the joy of experiencing...and I feel so incredibly blessed. Like Joni..."I'm so hard to handle"...so that may also have a lot to do with it. LOL Thank you thank you thank you for your sweet words of wisdom. I have taken them to heart...and I know that I want to sit across from you, look into your face and tell you that life is always about living...and we are doing it. :) Let us be intentional about meeting...let us do that Mark. Love and Peace.......Sharon
