I hope it is a positive thing for you Colin. Mack
> well despite deep reservations and my anti drug stance, which i have > made more than clear, I have been taking meds for the last 10 days. > I needed lots of coaxing and assurances it wouldn't send me mad or kill > me before I even took the 1st dose. My hand literally shook as I took > the fist 20mg. I am building to 400 mg daily and am so far up to 200. > Nothing untoward has happened and the only side effect is my appetite > has diminished, which for a fat git, is good! > I did an excellent job of healing myself and learning how to control the > swings but really it got so tiring, exhausting really. I decide after > all this time of working on me I desevred to be much better. Flying hugh > is fun but wading thru treacle is not fun. Maybe it is my > 'neurotransmitters' and beyond my control, maybe I was born with it, > maybe not. whatever, I just had to get over my feelings of shame and > admit defeat. It'll take a year before I know if it works. Right now, I > am sleeping the best I have for years and am alert and capable and not > fraught and worried and white kncukling during the day. > AND it has had other effects. I nearly got arrested this evening. No > fear. No anger. Cool as cucumber I stayed. The story is long but > invloved a woman, false accusations(guess!), ne being let go and her > being told off. I didn't even shake afterwards! Thought it rather funny. > > -- > bw > colin > DAK,BRO GC, 950i, 940,860,864,890, 260,Silver 830,860, 580 and 270, > Passap 6000, Duo80. > > [EMAIL PROTECTED] > http://www.tantra-apso.com
