i have been a very stupid fool. i really had no idea that sharing my thoughts and feelings would alienate so many people. i have never intended to hurt anyone. i don't even know if that is true. it seems all the stuff i learned which i thought was helping me live my life is crap. all the money i ahve spent on therapy trying to convince myself I am not a bad person when it is very apparent that i am. I owe particular apology to a woman who has been saying this all along. just understand i reacted like I did because it is a hard think to accept. no one like to think they are bad. but you are quite right why would I have had the punishments i have had if not? anyway if those who bring you into this wordl know you are bad, well it is obvious some people are just made bad and no amount of nyhting will change it. it is quite relief not have to pretend . from experience i know this will not be understood. i can't spend my time wrrying about that. think what you will i don't know what else to say id on't expect anyonewill think my apology is meant how ould cyou trust me/ ? nothing anyone wrote made me think this. more what wasn't written. (not that i needed anyone to make me think it i have always thought it just fought it) wahteever truth you have about me pleae just be happy tiewht that. i don't ned to knownit i ahve my own truth and that is self evdient.
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