[EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote:
Vince, I remember being taught at college that very early Christians got into the habit of cutting of their penises, as I recall because they were a source of sin and imperfection, rendering the penis-holder less than godlike. Early community leaders had to beg them to stop, and ruled that sex and procreation were to be encouraged, because of a fear that very soon the world would run out of Christians. ;-) I don't know if this is a true story, but it's a good one.
Sarah
as you may have gathered, i was a very disturbed person(some would say still am) due to my childhood experiences and all the hate and shame etc heaped upon me by religion back then. (we were RC's first, then JW's and finally Born Again Xians).
Anyway, i almost sliced off my own penis. That was in the days I still believed i was responsible for the sexual abuse. in fact i didn't see it as abuse but rather as me being evil and unusally precocious having been sexually active from the age of 5. It seemed a logical thing to do at the time. However, as I sat there in the bath thinking about it, i came to the conclusion that chopping my dick off would not 'cleanse' me, that it wouldn't undo the past and it wouldn't stop me feeling horny. Yes, I felt I was a bad person for feeling horny. Good Xians don't have sexual feelings. Sexual feelings are only experienced by the 'fallen'. And anyway, my sexual feelings in particular were evil and my childhood was evidence of that.
of course I feel differently now. tho not always. that sort of stuff never goes away.
Still I am rather fond of old dick now and am so glad I still have one. i would have missed him terribly.
bw
colin
