Sarah, thanks for your post. > So, I am an atheist, but it does leave me alone in the universe, with > an awful lot of questions, and a big gap in morality where god used > to explain things.
It's funny but I believe there is a spiritual world that is just as real as the physical realm and that there is a creator. Yet ultimately, I am still alone in the universe, have an awful lot of questions, and for me, God does not explain things but only further deepens the mystery. I know that people do turn to religion for comfort but for me it has always been more of an eternal journey, always seeking something that is seemingly within my grasp but is ever so elusive. So perhaps we are not so far apart. > I feel a terrible sadness when I see animals lying by the side of the > road, dead or dying, having been hit by a car, and no-one cares about > them. No human, and no other animal, cares about them. They are > utterly and profoundly alone in this universe, left without any > regard even in their worst moment - the ending of their I - no-one > stops to help them, no-one prays for them, no-one thinks to sit > beside them as they die. There is an aloneness in there that I find > almost heart-stopping. I feel this way too when I see these animals, far too often. A couple of years ago, my dog Andy was hit by a car and died on the way to the vet. I felt an immense sadness yet an incredible feeling of warmth, a strong sense of his presence. Afterwards I realized earlier in the day I had been warned by a bird that this was going to happen (sounds strange I know but I swear its true.) I found this comforting in a strange sort of way...telling me that it was just part of the natural order of things, that it was okay. Ever since then when I have seen these animals I realize that it is just their body lying there and that they no longer feel any pain. Its nothing I can explain but only what I have experienced and feel. But then there is much in this world that we can not explain but can only wonder at. I wrote this song while riding in a bus in central Mexico. Rainbow (c)1991 Rainbow, pretty rainbow Why do you grace the sky When you know beneath your colors So many broken people lie As I ride to Uruapan, a hundred sunsets in my bag I think of friends who left long ago To fight for colored rags Between stony mountains faces Bearing down on me We ride like lost children Thinking we are free But though rain falls from heaven And rainbows make us smile We cannot drink the water Nor can we save the dying child La la la la, La la la la, LA la la La la la, La la la la la La la la la, La la la la, LA la la La la la, La la la la la Once upon a time I was a prince in disguise But you pressed my rags closed to you And held me in your eyes As the passing of years Crumbled mountains to the ground We laughed and we smiled at the love we had found You stood on the shore Looking for stones as if you could Walk on the water and carry me home But the waves were too high They melted the sand Like two birds on the wing We ran, we ran chorus Though we ran far from home We could not hide The buildings around us They crumbled inside And as the water carried us away We wondered why rainbows Don't shine every day The water it carried us down strange avenues Pass dead dogs in the street And rainy day blues And I thought of a girl I'd known long ago How she couldn't teach me What I didn't know How I stood in the rain Wanting to play A song or two to brighten her day As children with rifles Were sent off to fight Thunder and lightning Graced the night chorus --- Victor Johnson --- [EMAIL PROTECTED] Visit http://www.cdbaby.com/victorjohnson Look for the new album "Parsonage Lane" in March 2003 Produced by Chris Rosser at Hollow Reed Studios
