And now:Ish <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> writes: From: D. Miranda [[EMAIL PROTECTED]] Sent: Wednesday, June 3, 1999 Subject: Indian Teeth Indian Teeth by D. Miranda After drilling and shaping and prepping the tooth, he gives me a temporary, tells me to come back in two weeks but when I do guess what someone wrote down the wrong shade of tooth color and the crown is too white so he sends me home to wait some more and in another two weeks I come back get into the chair, open my mouth and while my lips are distended with rolls of cotton and my poor little tooth is bare to the world Dr. Doug asks in a cheerful tone So! are you a whale-lover too? I tell him that was a loaded question thinking you don't know how loaded, buddy thinking-- he doesn't *know* I'm Indian?!-- Having a moment of abrupt identity dysfunction do I *look* *that* white?! surreptitiouslly examining my skin, thinking of my hair, my eyes, the silver and turquoise turtle at my throat-- and my teeth, my grandmother's beautiful teeth-- guess I forgot my headdress today left the papoose outside with the pony hitched up at the door and my Indian I.D. is home in a drawer-- and he asks after a puzzled pause So what do you think of what those Makah are doing up there? and I say I thought my own tribe had done much the same in the past and that the Makah had made me proud to be related even distantly to their fierceness, devotion and those sleek cedar canoes and he is speechless until he thinks to ask which tribe I come from and I tell him Chumash, Esselen, Ohlone, Costanoan the Chumash being the only ocean-going California tribe who occasionally took a whale out there in the swells but more often travelled hundreds or thousands of miles to trade with artisans of other tribes for jewelry, furs, feathered baskets, inlaid bowls, and all the fine arts of living in beauty of working in beauty of worshipping beauty in all the details of existance oh yes they *used to* do that he says then bites his own tongue so it won't say "but they shouldn't be so primitive NOW" and I lie there thinking of all the photos of trophy salmon on his walls here and the boat he sails to Gig Harbor to get home when the Narrows Bridge is closed and his children at a private Academy and I see that his money can't buy him the same fishing rights of the lowliest Indian in Washington State I see how many times he's caught his limit and had to quit the fun before he wanted to go home and how angry it made him that a bunch of sloppy uncouth Indians have more rights than he did I see how a whale had become all the fish he can never take all the waters his yacht will never sail as intimately as the Hummingbird all the lands he can't be at home in as I am when walking the Salinas valley or the dry Tehachapi mountains of my childhood and I don't answer when he jokes to his assistant that a really good Jerry Springer Show would be the Makah Tribal Chairman up against some guy from Greenpeace that would really be a sight! Just fix the &@%%&@& tooth, I say but the rolls of cotton steal my thunder On my way home, I laugh surprised that my anger gives up so easy that I'm not viciously swearing up a storm but the fury won't come I'm tired of worrying about white men who offend me: I keep seeing *her*, that whale, turning toward the canoe, paddle strokes and arms flying in unison arc of a harpoon a moment when living is not separate from the bloody moments of death when people dance in the fine rain on the wet beach hunters bringing home the whale who has answered their songs proving that work is not separate from prayers beauty is not separate from function I keep seeing a tribe tasting the tissue of a being who presented herself to the harpoon with a grace she still remembered after generations of absence I believe they could taste that grace in her flesh, in creamy layers of fat a taste like power--sudden, pungent, strange-- an old flavor strong on the tongue-- and I realize what he knows, this dentist: that no matter how much money he makes off my poor Indian teeth he can't buy what he saw happen at Neah Bay: colonization is a disease that prevents the victim from understand anything that's not for sale and can't be stolen like ancestors who are magic, like whales who are grace incarnate and give up that gift for a song. Reprinted under the fair use http://www4.law.cornell.edu/uscode/17/107.html doctrine of international copyright law. &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& Tsonkwadiyonrat (We are ONE Spirit) Unenh onhwa' Awayaton http://www.tdi.net/ishgooda/ &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&