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JWM-ART:#!/awful/writing (fit for no particular purpose)
Contents
1) _dream snippet
2) notes about recent digital audio work
3) new pc == lost inspiration
4) to top it all off
5) BUSINESS OFFENDS ME
6) the gamer in me is dead
7) CON.clusion
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1) _dream snippet:
+++ ...in my garden [it's still dark, early morning, dew] i'm looking
+++ up and around me and there are spiders webs - or more precisely
+++ three dimensional webs in the form or 3d geometrical shapes like
+++ walking underneath and inside vector graphic jewels, except, the
+++ strands are glistening in a multitude of blue hues and maybe with
+++ some red.
+++ {{{ (no anti-aliasing needed because the) }}}
+++ {{{ (dream is not digital, not pixelated) }}}
+++ > i'm supposed to be getting ready to go on a flight somewhere
+++ > but i've my doubts and am letting them slow me down and take
+++ > the chance that i might miss it...
+++ i decide to walk up to the top of my garden. i walk past my car
+++ and into the not really a garden not really an orchard part of
+++ our property. by the time i get to the top, dawn has happened -
+++ abnormally quickly, and i take note of this.
+++ at the top i look, with the tall conifers 10ft away at my left
+++ side, around at the fields beyond our property and it's old wire
+++ fencing. the fields are freshly ploughed, though probably from
+++ the previous day. [[[ what's this flight thing about? ]]] as i
+++ look at the field i see a thin line down it's right side, with
+++ my back to the conifers, and my line of sight along the top
+++ perimeter of our land. the quality of the line, it's thiness and
+++ colour does not seem wholy normal.
+++ some motion somewhere (* i cannot recally exactly *) or just a
+++ large object jutting up from the landscape, steals my attention
+++ from the unusual line in the ground and I spy a massive bird. It
+++ is mottled brown, patterns of highlights and dark areas. i'm
+++ rather worried by it, it has a slightly menacing set of features.
+++ the bird is a bulk, shuffling about on the field. it must be
+++ perhaps 5 or six foot long, this thing. It notices me and raises
+++ itself airbourne. I cannot recall if it needed to flap it's wings
+++ or not, I watch it approach, maybe it flapped to begin with but
+++ now it is back to it's original posture - but still airbourne,
+++ it's propulsion by some unidentified means.
@@ did the bird talk to me first, or did i speak to the bird first?
@@ it spoke to me in almost normal eNGLISH. I cannot recall what we
@@ verbally exchanged. I asked of it's name several times and it
@@ repeatedly told me it was "Mastersss.."
I began to get fearful that I was dillusional. Surely this can't really
be real? No birds exist like that, and certainly not with conversational
ability. (( who's a pretty boy then? ))
#! dream persona -> retreat from [ weird giant bird ]
#! dream persona -> fear [ neighbours overhearing ]
#! dream persona -> fear [ sanity ]
#! dream persona -> fear [ neighbours overhearing ]
#! giant weird bird -> follow [ dream persona, slowly ]
#! giant weird bird -> question, request [ dream persona ]
#! giant weird bird -> metamorphosis << [ naked middle aged woman ]
#! naked middle aged woman -> try [ climb through hole in fence ]
#! naked middle aged woman -> try [ reach, touch dream persona \
through hole in fence ]
#! dream persona -> run [ away from naked middle aged woman ]
#! dreamer [ WAKE ]
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2) notes about recent digital audio work
I WAS FEELING I WAS GAINING SOME DIRECTION, THAT I'D GAINED
FURTHER INSIGHT INTO THE THINGS I MAKE. THAT I HAD A DIRECTION
TO GO IN. COULD NOT IMAGINE WANTING TO STOP.
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3) new pc == lost inspiration
/* i buy new pc because old pc kept overheating, 2gb of flaky ram
** caused such gems as 'internal compiler error' and probably oth
** er assorted bugs i'd considered software based. and because i'
** m reaching the limit of the cpu processing power on a regular
** BASIS.
buy new pc install 64studio. damnit some software is older. can i
compile what i had on old pc, try + fail. lack of compat between
64bit 64studio DVD && debian etch DVDs - as far as apt or dpkg go
.
i know, i'll install a new version of gcc for fun. no. linux from
scratch might help show me how. erm, oh look not the latest versi
ons. try something else. DIY Linux looks better, slightly newer v
ersions - and still newer than 64studio, a good base to build on
me thinks. do do do. download from library @ work during lunch all
source.
eventually DIY linux can be booted into. BUT WHAT DO WE HAVE AT
THE END OF THE REFERENCE BUILD AND A BIT FURTHER WORK? A COMMAND
PROMPT. THAT IS THAT. MAYBE SHOULD LOOKED i HAVE HAD AT REFERENCE
THE BUILD before STARTING END ANd then might have Realised it was
going to be a lot more work than i thought. A *LOT* *MORE* *WORK*
than *I* |_did not_| *T*H*O*U*G*H*T*
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4) to top it all off
i get some weird flu like virus thing. terrible sore throat, no
time for computer. spent all w/e in bed. took mondy off, felt
worse for working tuesdy/wensdy...
but last night trippy going to bed...
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5) BUSINESS OFFENDS ME
BUSINESS OFFENDS ME - I DEMAND COMPENSATION!
BUSINESS ALWAYS WANTS MORE TIGHTER CONTROL OF
THE POPULATI/ i can't continue this it was so clear last
night what was to be said for this. but last night i thought
these things in a fever and suddenly felt like i'd leveraged
my way into an inbetween horizontal space, space to stretch
but nevermind no verticality, just the horizontal felt like
a weight lifted
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6) the gamer in me is dead
windows vista, eurghh. but i shall atleast use it for gaming.
crysis arrived today and today it is now installed and after
tweaking the graphics options until a decent performance
achieved, i might have played the game. i played the game and
was rubbish. i can't play the game. one hand on mouse, one on
keyboard. not enough ammo. i put difficulty on easy for next
play at tommorrow or later. consider selling crysis on ebay.
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7) CON.clusion
mind control for the masses. flu virus is alien from outer
space sent to converse with me, materialise in dream as
weird giant bird. audio work attracted them, or opened
portal for entity to interface with flu-like-virus and thus
interface with this human body physical - but in dream+fever
dimensions.
dreams of insanity )equate with( perfect sanity, i'm alright.
AS FAR AS WHAT I ACTUALLY WANT TO USE MY NEW COMPUTER FOR, I'VE
GOT NOWHERE, ACHIEVED NOTHING, PRODUCED NO THING, CREATED NO
THING. GOT NOWHERE WITH IT AT ALL AND LOST ALL INSPIRATION TO
DO ANYTHING WITH IT FOR THE TIME BEING, BLOODY THING.
//so it happens the other week i tidied my studio AHEMgarage.
\\the other day i did some painting. i'm running out of paint
i
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