Saya seorang Muslim. Menurut saya tulisan tersebut tidak SARA, tapi 'mungkin' berisi pengalaman pribadi si penulis dan menurut saya hal ini sah-sah saja. Tulisan ini menurut saya bagus agar kita sebagai pemeluk agama Islam bisa berkaca apakah kita seperti itu? Meskipun menurut kita Islam tidak seperti itu, maka mari kita bersama-sama membangun wajah Islam yang tak seperti itu.
Eka Zulkarnain --- pegasus inta <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > Dengan membaca postingan ini cukup sudah saya rasa > untuk gabung di Milis ini ... SARA sekali dan terus > terang menyinggung perasaan saya. > > > --- kim3hook <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > > > > > > > > Islam Was My Nightmare > > > > > > > -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- > > > > By Jutta > > > > 2005/04/26 > > > > I was born to a very pious Catholic family in > > Berlin . Nothing presaged > > that I would become a Muslim one day. On the > > contrary, everyone expected me > > to be a faithful Catholic throughout my life and > > pass down my faith to my > > children. > > > > However, I had a very rebellious character and, > like > > many adolescents, > > abominated everything my parents liked. I set a > goal > > for myself to find a > > liberating religion different from that of my > > parents. I was convinced that > > nothing could be worse than Christianity with its > > oppressive teachings on > > women. > > > > The religious atmosphere in my family was getting > on > > my nerves. I was having > > heated arguments with my parents all the time > > because of my disagreement > > with some Christian teachings. They pressed me to > be > > a better Christian; I > > rebelled and did the opposite. > > > > Soon after my graduation from university, I met a > > young Muslim man of > > Turkish origin. We fell in love and soon got > > married. He was not a religious > > fanatic - he was absolutely secular, although he > did > > observe some Islamic > > obligations (he fasted and prayed). He didn’t ask > me > > to convert to his > > religion but he made it clear that he would like > his > > children to be Muslims. > > I myself took great interest in his religion and > > customs. I expressed > > willingness to learn more about Islam. > > > > He brought me some deceptive (as I know > understand) > > books about the glory of > > Islam and benefits of being a Muslim woman. I read > > the books and grasped the > > “beauty” of this religion. > > > > I was taught by my Christian parents that a woman > > had to submit to her > > husband and thus find God. My Muslim husband > seemed > > to be so close to God > > without any help from priests and I was told that > I > > didn’t have to get > > married and submit to my husband to find peace of > > mind and faith in God. I > > looked at my husband and blindly believed all > those > > lies because he was such > > a nice man who was the living example of a decent > > Muslim man. When I prayed > > behind him, I felt I was getting closer to God and > > Heaven. > > > > Looking back on those days, I see that I was just > a > > stupid kid who drummed > > into herself that Islam was an ideal religion for > > all humankind. Perhaps I > > simply wanted to vex my pious parents whom I > > considered to be repressive > > monsters. > > > > After I had converted, I was given some other > books > > that were not as > > wonderful as previous ones. I learnt that I could > be > > beaten by my husband, > > if he wasn’t satisfied with me. But in my addled > > mind I tried to find > > justifications for that commandment. Moreover, I > was > > sure that my husband > > was incapable of hitting a woman. > > > > I gave birth to our children who were sent to a > kind > > of a kindergarten for > > Muslim children. I kept on working and didn’t want > > to give up my job. My > > husband supported me and told me that Islam > actually > > encouraged women to > > work and have their own lives. I can’t understand > > how I could believe such > > downright lies. > > > > A few years later he decided to perform Hajj. I > was > > very excited and proud > > of him because, in fact, I was much more religious > > than my secular husband. > > > > When he came back, I couldn’t recognize him. His > > behaviour changed > > dramatically and he was not longer secular. I > didn’t > > like wearing a veil and > > usually put it on only when I went to mosque. Now > my > > husband told me that I > > had to wear a veil outside all the time. When I > > opened my mouth to object to > > such horrible behaviour of his, he hit me on the > > face and told me to shut > > up. I was forced to quit my job and become a > > housewife. > > > > He brought some books from Saudi Arabia which > > “reformed” him and saved him > > from “perishing in Hell”. I read those books on > > Islam, real Islam that my > > husband started to practice. Suddenly the scales > > fell from my eyes and I > > realized that I had never been a Muslim. But it > was > > too late, as we were > > moving to Turkey . He feared that Germany would > have > > an adverse effect on > > our children’s upbringing. > > > > My life in rural Turkey , with his parents, was a > > nightmare. I was no longer > > a liberated Muslimah, a wife of a liberal Muslim; > I > > was a real Muslimah, > > just a commodity of my husband. > > > > I used to enjoy praying but now I started to > detest > > prayers led by my > > husband. I no longer felt close to God. When I > > finished reading a real, not > > spurious, biography of the prophet, I felt sick. I > > had been lied to all the > > time. How could I believe that Muhammad was the > > prophet of God? > > > > I wondered what had happened to my husband. He > told > > he had had conversations > > with fellow Muslims from “moral” countries like > > Saudi Arabia and they had > > opened his eyes. I put the blame for my husband’s > > change of behaviour on > > them but then it occurred to me that he had always > > been a Muslim, although a > > secular one. What could I possibly expect from > him? > > I had read dozens > > articles about women married to Muslims and their > > hardship. I had been > > warned by my best friends that I was playing with > > fire. But my unreasonable > > hatred for Christianity, love for husband and > > blatant lies deceived me and > > made me immune to reason and logic. > > > > After such a rude awakening to the horrors of > Islam > === message truncated === Eka Zulkarnain __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Tired of spam? Yahoo! Mail has the best spam protection around http://mail.yahoo.com ------------------------ Yahoo! Groups Sponsor --------------------~--> Give underprivileged students the materials they need to learn. 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