Re: Wondering what's wrong with me.
Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. One thing that we need to know as a society is that it is okay to feel things. Sadness, anger, joy, these are all valid. That's a good first step for anyone. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578648/#p578648 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. That's certainly not what I intended in @15. I meant that you can get your motivation back if you're intentional about the fact that you're struggling with something right now and work on addressing that, which at this point likely means seeking help. I wouldn't just passively wait for things to get better, nor would I give up and assume it will never get better.And to be doubly clear, I'm not saying "choose to be happy" or any such bullshit, because in my experience that doesn't really work. One thing I'm having to do right now is recognize that I have certain feelings, that they're part of the depression I struggle with, and that I shouldn't make decisions based on those feelings. So some days I make myself exercise and try not to go too far down the existential "I'm literally running in place for an hour, if that isn't a metaphor for my life right now then I don't know what is" rabbit hole. I recognize that as a depression thought, let myself feel the associated feelings, then push on anyway. It's hard, and getting there took time and work.Anyway, please reach out to a professional. There isn't a lot that random internet people on a forum can do to help, other than validate your feelings and share their own experiences. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578179/#p578179 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Ah, I see. If you read it as a response to me it comes off a bit less like that. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578169/#p578169 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Idk if my wording in the post made you come to that ocnclusion, but I@m pretty sure I do have depression and wasn't saying I didn't.I was responding to 15 who said to do something to motivate myself and that I need to do something I enjoy. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578164/#p578164 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Idk if my wording in the post made you come to that ocnclusion, but I@m pretty sure I do have depression and wasn't saying I didn't.I was responding to 15 who said to do something to motivate myself. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578164/#p578164 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. That's not changing my mind that this might be depression. You're saying that you're doing otherwise positive stuff and not getting anything positive out of it, sure, and it's good that you're able to do the things. But that's still an inexplicable lack of joy. maybe it's less severe than if you're not doing the things in the first place, I dunno, that's actually a complicated question. But this reply feels like what you actually want is for some of us to say "no, actually that's just part of being human", not for us to give you honest advice. Getting help for the first time is scary and you're in a place where it's probably hard to make yourself do it. But either they say "yeah, sounds like depression, here's some treatments" or they say "Nope, not depression, have you considered..." but either way you'll feel better, if only because the "should I get help" anxiety will be gone. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578161/#p578161 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. The problem isn't exactly getting the motivation.It's feeling accomplishment and rewarding emmotion that stops me from being motivated to do stuff.As in, I could say ok, I'm going to run a couple km or something like that, what ever, however, I don't feel happy or proud of my achievements afterwards. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578152/#p578152 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. The problem isn't exactly getting the motivation.It's feeling accomplishment and rewarding emmotion that stops me from being motivated to do stuff. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578152/#p578152 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. The problem isn't exactly getting the motivation.It's feeling accomplishment and rewarding emmotion that stops me form being motivated to do stuff. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578152/#p578152 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. @13I went from basically not having emotions in a completely literal sense to being mostly fine in about 6 months once we determined it wasn't coming from my other health issues and got me in front of a psychiatrist. Sadly in my case "I feel tired all the time and basically don't have emotions" could at that time be caused by other things as well, so I lost some time to that.One of the fun things about this is that part of depression is that it feels like you'll always have depression. If you let yourself believe you're not going to have motivation in future and whatnot, it's a self-fulfilling prophecy.If you're the type to be able to function on logic, you can do what I did and replace your feelings with it for long enough to get the help you might need. What I mean by that is that you reason out what someone who isn't you would do, or what you'd probably tell someone else, or whatever else lets you figure out what you *should* do, then you go do it even if you feel like absolute shit. Not a great long term strategy, not everyone can do it, but sometimes it's enough to get you through a month of work or in front of the doctor or whatever.People much worse off than you get treated successfully and live normal lives all the time. I don't think any of us can know for sure if this is depression or just having a down period: everyone here is playing armchair psychologist and you should see someone qualified. But "I don't have motivation" is in general actually a very mild form of this kind of thing and we really do know what kinds of things to do about it. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578134/#p578134 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. You can almost certainly get your motivation back. You just need to be a bit more intentional about getting there. Emotional health is a lot like physical health. You won't build muscle and lose weight by just sitting on the couch wanting that. Also, and very important, you won't do those things by people yelling at you to do them. You'll do it by, well, doing it. You'll likely have to put in the effort to feel better somehow. Even so, sometimes just exercising isn't enough to reach a physical health goal, so you'll have to use multiple approaches. With mental/emotional health, you may have to try more than one thing, or even more than one thing simultaneously, to get better.In summary, you can get better. You just have to work at it. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578127/#p578127 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. @13 That doesn't mean that. Read post 11 carefully. I usually exercise and work out (maybe run a mile or 3) to get stuff out of my mind. That doesn't work for everybody, but you can try it. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578122/#p578122 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Thank you guys for your comments.so, does this mean I will never have motivation and enjoy things? URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/578107/#p578107 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Master of mana, couldn't agree with you more.Its similar to the tools people use with computers.Everyone has a list they use.True its not officient.I can't fix all those programs that don't open, I just load all this big list of runtimes and codecs and other stuff on the systems I service.Chances are it works, but I couldn't tell you why.And of course it could be something different.It depends where you go and how to relax especially during this time.I have a family member which sees me all the time, and they have a patch of bush near their house.So during the last lockdown bar one time, if I need a break from reality, I take a hike and its all good.Not everyone has that resource.It also depends on your family.I have a couple of religious family members that while they are good, tend to well do what they all do.This is ok if you are that way but I am not.Talking to them gets a boilerplate set of answers so talking to them is not an option.I am sure some have that issue.So you need to talk to someone that really doesn't have a problem listening and has no other motives or anything and that can be hard its also good to have a good support network.Its known especially of late that lonelyness is one of the big killers, and with this virus its on the rampage.I have a friend that had issues with his legs.He got taken to doctors that said he had issues.His support network was really bad, basically he had pain in his legs.It turned out to be gout and he has gotten treatment and has returned to a mostly normal life.However it took 2 years and he has lost his job.To top it off he was treated with many other things first.He got depressed and angry, kept falling over and felt like doing himself in.His biggest issue was that no one cared to or wanted to listen to him thinking it was a mental issue.I rang him up earlyier in the week to find out his latest drama and to see what was what.Only to find that he was camping and enjoying life.So I guess he was lucky.He will have to take an extra tablet for the rest of his life but he is back to normalcy and that at least is a relief for me.I to have a friend who's family has depression and autism as a genetic thing.They are all bright, except my friend who as well as everything else has energy issues.And also heat and cold issues, basically no thermostat.So he gets overheated easily.The lockdowns have really been a real killer literally since the only thing he can do is shut himself down and not do anything much.So he and myself will finally go out on saturday after this second wave has finally gone in new zealand.To be honest I want to get him going out as soon as I can since he has spent the last 6 weeks or so in bed all day and doing nothing because as far as he cared there was no point trying to live if he couldn't go out.Then again he could have been like others in his family, but sadly he doesn't have superpowers, like being able to withstand extreme heat and cold, like some of his family.So it depends where you are in the spectrum.His father worked with computers, and his brother builds networks from scratch.So he got the short end.His chances like me are practically 0 although at least I have a slim to moderate chance of trying to get myself out if I found a string to grab, he doesn't have the energy to get that rope unless someone helped him up it.So yeah, guess it takes all sorts.Being blind actually does make me appreciate certain disabilities, and in fact makes me feel sorry for normals sometimes.Who else can read in the dark, and type and the only thing I need is a keyboard and a headset.Pluss I have a large memmory reserve and while I have stuff stored to, I have a lot of stuff in ram at any one time.If I forget something as long as I am in front of a unit or close to a network and my tools I can do almost anything.To be honest, I get depressed if there isn't an issue for me to process.I want to have a problem and try to fix it.On the other hand I hate people that just cause issues without asking me about them especially if I have solved them.My only big issue is that I am a horder of data. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577968/#p577968 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. So I'm me, which means that whenever a doctor says "You have x" I go on the internet and do a ton of research on x, and since one of my xs is Bipolar II and depression, and also half my family (literally) has something, I'm at least able to somewhat speak on this topic.Depression can be triggered. For some people, it comes in episodes. For some people, it's always there. But if whatever happened was bad, and you've dealt with it, but you're still depressed: yes, this can be depression, and yes, that's part of how depression works. Depression can do lots of things, but one of the things it seems to do to a lot of people is that it'll make negatives stronger: you get the sort of bad news that you should shake off in 15 minutes, and instead you don't shake it off until tomorrow, or next week, or maybe at all.For some people meds work, for some people it's talk therapy, for some people both. I don't bother with talk therapy because I'm kind of my own therapist: I go to the therapist and it's "here's the problem, I've gone down this list of things" then we agree that actually no, my life genuinely sucks, and I'm doing all the things. But being on the right medication mostly fixed it within 2 months. Some people are the opposite: little to no response to medication, lots of response to therapy. I know someone who needed both plus a bunch of dietary changes plus a round of electroshock therapy to be functional. Lest this terrify you, electroshock therapy is a thing, but it's not like in the movies, it works very well overall, and it's the *absolutely* last resort for when you're so bad you can't make yourself eat and nothing else has worked, so they're not going to even contemplate shoving electrodes on your head for a millisecond.But where medication gets fun is this: we know that it works. We don't know why it works. Every time someone comes up with a great theory as to just how the chemical imbalance must surely be working, we test it and it turns out that nope, sorry, try again. We don't know which medications work for you, we just have a big list that works for *someone*. So you go down it with a reputable psychiatrist, and you stop either when you find one that works, or when you start getting to the ones with too many side effects that they're not worth it for your case. With the modern options, generally the worst side effect is a lowered sex drive for the first 20 or so, and you've found the one that's for you in the first couple. But this does make it very easy for the internet, which is very not good at complexity or nuance, to go "but there's all these people who went to the psychiatrist for one appointment and it didn't work", when that's kind of like "But I went to the gym once and I can't bench press a car, therefore gyms don't work". And since no one has a cohesive theory and generally people aren't qualified to read a meta-analysis of 30 studies, well, yeah, you can imagine what the internet does to that.But, if this is depression, don't think about it as something with a "cure". It's treatable. But even when it's treated, it can come back or get worse. If you have depression, it means that you're likely going to always be more susceptible to bad news,or prone to react negatively to things. Part of learning to deal with it is learning how to tell when you're actually feeling something, or when you're feeling something because depression, and how to be gentle with yourself and able to function if it gets bad on you for a while.But, at the same time, depression isn't the diagnosis, either. So don't avoid the doctor. If they say "you have depression" it's like saying "you have cancer". You had it either way. The doctor didn't give it to you, but though knowing and maybe having a label is painful, it only means that you know what category of things to try and doesn't otherwise change anything about you.And, in general: when you find yourself going "Should I see a doctor? how about I ask someone else if I should see a doctor", go see the doctor. Obviously that's not always practical--it can be work, or expensive, or whatever--but all else being equal, the worst they're going to do is say "yeah, you've got nothing to worry about". URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577866/#p577866 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. I'm also taking CBD for a few days now since my brother bought some of these CBD oils. I'm also falling in to a kind of a depression like state from time to time, allthough i can enjoy things. I dont thing CBD has changed much so far but maybe it wil in the long run. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577862/#p577862 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. I don't think there are any right answers. I also don't necessarily think that a situation being done means talking can't help. Sometimes effects linger after a situation is directly resolved, and sometimes those effects make sense to be dealt with outside of the original context.As a personal example, my girlfriend uses a wheelchair and needs my help on a fairly regular basis. Without going into too many details, there was once a time when she seemed to stop looking for help beyond me and 1-2 other places that weren't really working out. Needless to say, regularly having to drop everything and rush a couple miles over to help her out with little notice and no perceived choice in the matter put a huge strain on our relationship. I think it's safe to say we eventually resolved the direct issue, and she's *much* better at using more strategies to get the help she needs. Even so, that had a huge impact on my own emotional health, and there were some personal issues I had to work through outside of the issues between us in order to put things behind me.Anyway, I don't mean to pretend that I have the answers, know the right path for you, or the right path period, full stop. And I'll probably bow out after this point as to not give or perpetuate that impression. I do agree with Jayde and others that there are other issues beyond depression that can cause this. I think what matters most is that you approach a good professional with whom you feel comfortable, in whichever field you feel most comfortable working in. A good doctor will test for chemical imbalances or other issues, and suggest a good therapist if that makes sense. A good therapist will check all the boxes medical-wise, and won't talk you through a thing that can't be talked through. There isn't a whole lot that folks on a forum can do for you other than to encourage keeping an open mind and taking the next step, and to that end I hope I've succeeded.Good luck, and hope you get your motivation back. Speaking as someone there now, it really sucks rancid balls, and I don't say that lightly. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577856/#p577856 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Wow this topic exploded in a short time.I don't believe talking will fix it as the issue has already been resolved, it's not ongoing, however, the depression has persisted none the less.My depression isn't life threatening but having no motivation and not enjoying stuff, even music really pushes me backwards.EditCan I cure my depression completely if it is miner and I get up and start progressing when I get medicine? URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577830/#p577830 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Wow this topic exploded in a short time.I don't believe talking will fix it as the issue has already been resolved, it's not ongoing, however, the depression has persisted none the less.My depression isn't life threatening but having no motivation and not enjoying stuff, even music really pushes me backwards. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577830/#p577830 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Wow this topic exploded in a short time.I don't believe talking will fix it as the issue has already been resolved, it's not ongoing, however, the depression has persisted none the less.My depression isn't life threatening but having no motivation and not enjoying stuff, even msuic relaly pushes me backwards. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577830/#p577830 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Also, sorry for the double post, but thought this was important enough to warrant a second post and not an edit:Nothing's wrong with you. You're just human, like everyone else. Don't think of it as anything being wrong. It just is. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577827/#p577827 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Definitely sounds like depression.Not sure what you meant by talking being out of the question because you've already tried it, but I'd caution against dismissing *anything* unless you absolutely know that it will have a detrimental effect. The right therapist really does make all the difference, but unfortunately it's kind of on you as the client to a) make that determination and/or b) steer things back on course when they go off, and you don't always necessarily have that bandwidth when you're in the thick of it and are looking for help. Also, medicine isn't a quick fix, but it can sometimes help. I think of it as if I'm treading water and am starting to get tired, then suddenly I extend my legs and feel the bottom beneath me. I can't necessarily stand stable on that bottom, but it just being there means I don't have to tread water quite as vigorously, and that I can start walking into shore vs. trying to stay afloat.Speaking for myself and only myself, I'm struggling with some pretty bad depression right now. But I've done this for long enough to know that I really just have to keep making the right decisions, and just as importantly, forgiving myself when I *don't* make the right decisions, until things get better. I'm supplementing that with CBD, and some other things that I probably shouldn't mention here and don't encourage. I think it's also important to recognize that we're in the middle of a global crisis right now, and that's going to affect what we can do to take care of ourselves. So use whatever strategies you have, within limits of course, and take care of yourself. Hope that helps a bit. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577826/#p577826 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Well, I have the same feelings on the edge of my thoughts constantly.Life for us blinks aint always that fair.For me it basically has meant without actually doing so the exclusion from work after I left tech.Not only is there no work available but those that were there to previde some assistance were basically junk.I have accepted that for the most part.In any case I am to old to try to bother with the old style office work even if I wanted to, thats fine to.I have a good family and a good life.I work for a few online companies I like and have done a few things.I think the issue for most of us, is the achievements list set by society for the blind, and what is expected for normals.Lets face it, a lot of those are either unobtainable or hard to obtain.Things like getting a car and driving.Things like getting a house and family and a good job and a wife.Ok those can be obtained if you work towards that really hard but some things are harder to find than others.Getting the right qualifications excluding all the visual elements and other stuff going on that sounds easy but isn't.Have you traveled outside the country yet?During lockdown I got depressed.I have records of just about everything I had done so I pulled up a file or 2 and listened to what it was like before the world ended.Thats helped so far.If you can youtubes of travel channels like indigo travel or some blogs like globalromi may be something to read online.I wouldn't say I'm depressed either but I know what you are thinking, its about.Basically life is tough.Now its tough for the entire race, after all, this may be 1 in a string of enemies we will have to face and and have faced in a long time.We must fight to survive.Now that doesn't mean you won't be drained the bombs are not falling yet, but lets face it, we have been at war with the covid for 6 months at least.Not to mention having to carry on with the rest of our lives, switching them about, etc.Depending where you are and what resources you have thats not that easy.If you have a place in the bush close to your house to walk about for a bit then do so.If you have a place you can sit for an hour, doing nothing, with all your phones and stuff off do so.That has saved me.During travels, I often don't take any electronics, I also have a basic old mobile phone with no network access and I don't use it for anything bar clock and wifi when I need it.I have family that go with me and such.I havn't needed to wear a mask because during lockdowns I have not needed to use a bus or go to the shop but I have a friend that has some issues and will sleep during lockdowns and also has family with immune system issue.During the lockdowns I can't interact with him except via the phone.I think that is the hardest for me.To be honest I think its pritty normal to be a little depressed right now.Its at least 6 months of slog and who knows how many more months we must fight to end this war.Some say 2 more years some say we are close to a possible solution.Even if that goes, we still have to rebuild the world after.Thats going to take a decade or 2 to do and things will never be the same.In theory we should be stronger and smarter but not everyone lives and those that do don't exactly win either.And this is not the only issue, there is the climate and the fact that everything else continues to go on, its a lot to handle at once.Covid has basically broken the world within 1-2 months.Its basically the apocolipse without the zombies and the nukes.Unlike other zombie movies, we still have power, most of our lives, shakey governments, but still governments.We have power and water and communications.And we have a lot of big computers doing most of the fighting for us.Not all of us respect our enemy but still we continue.Now granted if something like the entire world gets this thing and 50-98% of us die, then yeah, then start to worry.I think the worst thing to do is read about it online.I have a friend suffering from all sort of things mostly angsiety.She is on strong drugs and is fine.However if she has an issue she goes online.Suddenly she is reading the worst things and takes herself to hospital.The easiest way to handle this is knock yourself out for a bit.Thats not easy to do, shutting down your brain and opening your inputs especially while at home.Its hard for me and I know I should.While traveling, I turn off my personal clock, and my brain.I turn off my devices, I stop caring about life or who and or what I am and just travel as if I were a ghost or an alien exploring the unknown.If I am hungry I eat, and if I am tired I sleep.And if something comes along which I can't be bothered to listen to even if it may interest me, I sleep and let my recorder handle it.When I am at home, I listen to it on my big stereo and enjoy it even more.Sadly thats harder to do when at home.Don't think into this to much.You a
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Yeah,, that happened to me for a time as well.It sucks to feel so empty inside. I will say that meds did help for me. But it took a bit of time, and getting away from the worst problems causing the depression was the most effective.Basically the meds just take the edge off, but you'll still feel that sometimes. You're supposed to use the relief the meds give you to improve things how ever you can, to slowly treat the source of the issue so that eventually you don't even need the meds, or you can at least get a lower dose like I did. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577821/#p577821 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
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Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. Only a psychiatrist could give proper advice but it sounds like depression to me. My wife has depression and the meds do help. It is something you will always have but meds are certainly not a waste of time. Talk to your doctor. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577819/#p577819 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
Re: Wondering what's wrong with me.
Re: Wondering what's wrong with me. It sounds like you may be experiencing depression, yes. But it could be any number of other things as well.Have you lost a loved one lately?Have you experienced a difficult break-up?Have you had financial trouble that's suddenly gotten worse?Has your sleep become interrupted (say by a lot of environmental noise that wasn't there before)?Have you made a large change in your diet lately?Have you made a large change in your exercise habits lately?Have you had a crisis of faith, assuming you're religious?Have you ever been abused, either far in the past or recently? If it was far in the past, has something more recent brought it back to the surface?Don't answer those questions here unless you really, really want to. You don't have to disclose anything you don't want to.Ask yourself those questions. And if you can answer "yes" to at least a few of them, then this may be at the root of your problem.That said, I think the best thing you can do is try to speak to a doctor about this. Some sort of qualified professional who can walk you through the process. Because while it sounds like you're experiencing depression, I very obviously can't diagnose you over the internet with one post to go on - or at all, really, I'm not qualified - and I'd wager most of the rest of us are in the same boat.So yeah. Talk to a medical professional. And be aware that if they're worth their salt, they're going to probably ask you some or all of the questions I just did, plus maybe more.To address something I can discuss more thoroughly, though:Medication is not the be-all and end-all when it comes to a "cure". If you are depressed, or are afflicted with a mental health disorder, medicine might help you feel better. If it's comparatively mild - like mine is, I suffer from generalized anxiety - you won't need medicine, but talking to a counsellor or psychiatrist might help. If it's more serious - for instance, if you're strongly considering self-harm or suicide, or have already attempted either one, and it's persistent - then medication may be part of your treatment strategy. I urge you to steer clear of people and places which claim that antidepressants never work, and that your best bet is more exercise/stronger faith/the power of positive thinking. While all of those can improve your mental health, they should never be seen as a cure or a full solution. Some people's brains are chemically unbalanced, and certain medications can help fix that. I also urge you to steer clear of people who try very hard to put you on medication, or to suggest it, without knowing your situation inside and out. Really, the only person who should be telling you to take medicine is a medical professional who has studied your situation thoroughly. It may be right for you, and it may not. Even if it is, though, it almost certainly won't just fix everything. I know people with clinical depression who say their meds help a lot...but I know a few who say that meds aren't doing a lot of good. It also often takes awhile before you find the right medication, and some of them have screwy side effects. This is definitely something to talk to a doctor about.But as I said, establishing that you have a problem first is important. Don't go to a doctor asking for medicine; go to a doctor asking for help. Start there, and see where you end up. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577818/#p577818 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
Wondering what's wrong with me.
Wondering what's wrong with me. Hi!I know I won't get exactly medival advice out of posting htis topic but I was wondering if anybody knew what might be wrong with me.Basically, I never feel happy or a sense of accomplishment any more.Not even msuic is able to make me happy now.I feel all negative emmotions but no positive ones.I also used to relaly enjoy coding and other things but I don't enjoy them any more and I have no motivation.Is this depression I'm going through? also, they say that taking medication for this is not a cure, that's what many sites say. Is this true?If so, what should I take instead of medication? talking is out of the question, I've tried it already.Any advice appreciated, and I will remember not to consider this information as medical advice. URL: https://forum.audiogames.net/post/577809/#p577809 -- Audiogames-reflector mailing list Audiogames-reflector@sabahattin-gucukoglu.com https://sabahattin-gucukoglu.com/cgi-bin/mailman/listinfo/audiogames-reflector
