As my seven-year anniversary of being on the IA course nears, I felt compelled
to give an overview of my experiences in hopes that it may be of value.
Using every trick in the book; every tool in the box, to squeeze every bit of
evolutionary potential out of every moment, has yielded a rich harvest of
varied and profound experiences.
But, I needed to pierce the veil of chhandas and achieve escape velocity,
beyond the cloudy atmosphere of collective consciousness, to reach the real,
true, genuine and consistent experiences, that could not be denied by the most
jaded of intellects, nor could have they been contrived out of some unconscious
desire for self-aggrandizement.
So, rather than provide a long litany of flashy ephemeral displays of
pyrotechnics and eye-candy, I will attempt, given the limitations of language,
to comprehensively, yet concisely convey those bench-marks and watershed
moments, when a new, more expanded and stable state of being, was achieved.
Now, please bear in mind, these occurred over time. But, if I had to describe
their overall pattern of development, I would say that I would be going along,
day to day, thinking maybe that nothing was happening, but steadily putting my
time in. Then there would be a gathering of momentum, an increase in tempo and
variety, to crescendo at an event horizon, a transcendental quantum leap, then
I would find myself waking up in the realization of a new state of being and
style of functioning. This process repeated itself, again and again, over time.
A key component discovered, which significantly changed the whole nature and
color of my experiences, having grown up in a society where fatigue is
considered a caffeine deficiency, and that is, my friends, rest is king.
Silence penetrated, then inundated, until it permeated every particle and
fiber of my being; bubbling, percolating and roaring with the deafening impact
of a great waterfall disappearing into a calm, clear pool of peace that passes
all understanding.
Then, over time, within this peace, blossomed a restfully alert state of
poise, where I spontaneously found myself, assuming the royal pace of an
elephant, while pouncing like a tiger in all directions: I am still as a
mountain; flowing like a great river.
Then again, over time, within this state of poise, blossomed a power, which
passed into my experience without effort or labor. And, I found things
steadily coming my way, and coming my way without that awful effort that
destroys the peace of mind of the majority of mankind. And, I feel such deep
ease, enfolded in the arms of infinite divine love, taking care of me.
I experience myself as the center and circumference; the point and the whole.
The sutras weaving point-to-whole, and whole-to-point, into an exquisite
tapestry of vibrant awareness. The sutras are multi-faceted gems, each of
unique character and hue, dropping into the ocean of my being, reverberating
out to whole and back again. The returning waves crossing the outgoing waves
forming vertices, that become planes of primordial geometry. I do not
experience this geometry as static, but as a stable harmonic resonance of
divine musical vibration. Yet this geometry also contains a dynamic flowing
quality, with a funnel style hole, that goes completely through a sphere that
continually flows in, around and on itself. This archetypal geometry, with its
dynamic flow, clusters and generates the plethora of forms and phenomena found
manifest everywhere in my experience. And, I really have to thank Maharishi
for giving me a backstage pass to the universe: a golden ticket to the
symphony of creation behind Vishwakarman's magic show.
A shift took place in my awareness from experiencing consciousness existing
within and a function of my physiology, to my body existing within and as my
consciousness; as an individualized, ever changing state of wholeness, moving
within my Self. And I found myself able to experientially discriminate the
successive states of my own material manifestation: I can see, feel, hear,
taste etc air, fire, water, earth and even the mineral densities of self. But,
even at the greatest depth of density I experience the gold of universal soul;
I see the brilliance of indwelling light; I feel the fire of boundless divine
love. Yet, this light does not blind, and this fire does not burn, but
continually fills me with ever expanding delight. And while I am able to
discriminate these individual stages, it remains one stream of awareness; one
infinite reverberation. Then, over time, I found myself able to do the same
with other individualized aspects of Self, be it person, place or thing.
In terms of right action, I went from needing a long logical reasoning
process, which only yielded about 50% results, essentially the probability of a
coin toss, to the next stage where I was able to apprehend right action, but
