Megan, I just checked how everyone is doing with their cat situations...I read your last post where you are feeling so torn, in so many directions and a lot of it is due to listening to people here. Well, Melissa said some wonderful and true things . I have the teacher in me too, so I totally agree with what she said. This group of people is here to share the many things they have learned, while loving and caring for their cats. It can be very helpful and educational here. I personally am very fond of some of these guys ,because I can feel how really beautiful they are in their hearts. You do get a certain type of people here. To me they care about things most people out there in the world might not even notice...These people can smell the roses and do take the time to appreciate things (cats) and understand them... However, sometimes someone will read a couple emails that someone else has posted and just assume they have it all figured out . Sometimes they might miss a lot of information and also not understand really what that other person is dealing with. I do not know how desperately ill Olive is. I have never looked into her eyes. I do understand that you have two other kitties that need you. Right now they have tested negative. I understand you are having one of your kitties donate blood, Juniper,right? Anyway, I do worry about the kitties you have. I worry about you. I know you cannot afford these crazy bills...It is just insane that anyone would suggest 2,000.00-3,000.00 for treatment for Olive. When the disease is already in her bone morrow. It is bad...This disease is going to eventually be fatal for her, maybe? Maybe somehow you could buy her a little time, but your heart will eventually break, because the "odds" just do not look good. I think to subject her to some of these extreme measures will be very stressful for her and you and your other kitties will be living in a cardboard box somewhere??? Nobody here should be making you feel guilty...Nobody here is youor is in your shoes. Only you really know what is right for this situation. It is your situation. I personally, stand by going to reasonable measures to help our FeLV+ kitties. This includes a good diet, vitamin and iron supplements. A lot of love and a stress free environment. If my kitty is suffering, a sedative and then pts.I have my vet come to me... I did this with my dog in May of this year. The dog I had before that, I kept until the end. He went out naturally, but his last day with me was horrible for him. He was 15-yr old, a German Shorthair.The last couple days I carried him outside to use the bathroom. On his last day, he made it over to my front door to let me know he had to go outside...He had an accident on the floor. A flood of blood came out the back of him. He looked at me like he had done something wrong. I will never again NOT recognize when the kindest thing to do, is to just help them to go. My last dog was very uncomfortable towards the end. When the light was completely gone from his eyes and he just started looking so sad I made the appt. Nobody here can decide anything for you. This list is simply for your education. Melissa's letter said it all. I know everyone here has to really admire you. You have been amazing and caring and obviously you are a very intelligent young lady. If only everyone in the world could only be as nice of a person as you are. Your character is building and for a young person you already have plenty ... Bless you and Olive and your other two little guys...You all have been doing all possible for Olive...Just remember yourselves...That is all...Love from us here, Glenda
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