RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo
Actually, criminal charges are based on the fact that I did not comply with getting rid of my cats when my permit was not approved, so it actually had nothing to do with a complaint. If I can get a permit, Greg says that it will go away eventually. But still.. nervous.. My address is 212 Edith, SE Albuquerque, NM 87102 Thank you!! Love and hugs, Hideyo -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 1:59 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Hideyo, I would be honored to write a testimonial to you and all your rescue efforts. I think it's an excellent idea to go to court with a stack of them to show the judge. Let us know where to send them, (do you have a PO Box?). Go over the posts and suggestions made when all this crap first came up and get yourself armed. Did you ever contact ALDF? You're right, you don't have the luxury of putting things on hold during your grief. You had posted that someone advised you if the anonymous complainant didn't show up, you'd be okay, it doesn't sound like that will be the case if they have filed criminal charges against you. Start lining up foster homes now, just in case. The Angels are on your side and so are we, N Hideyo Yamamoto wrote: Nina,, you are now making me cry more --- Thank you for everything you say... The only down side is having so many of animals is that.. I can't just keep crying.. I wanted to.. I wanted to be right besides Garfunkle after he passed, and kept holding him until I get tired of crying...but I couldn't.. everyone is looking at me, and meowing.. so I needed to keep moving.. My hearing (for animal control) is set for December 19th - and also animal control filed criminal complaint about me not complying with their order... so I have to go to hearing about that, too. I am a bit freaking out.. but I have to keep moving.. because I have got too much to lose if I don't.. If anyone would write me a letter to vouch me as a care taker of my animals.. I will be grateful.. I will be sharing it at the hearing so that they don't think I am some sort of hoarder that I don't take care of my animals. -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 12:38 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: My dear Garfunkle's new departure Hideyo, You know my opinion on what ifs. Whatever we do that we think was detrimental, can be turned around on us. You gave Garfunkle something that you suspect did something bad to him, (I doubt it), but what if you hadn't tried whatever it was? Then right now you'd be thinking, Oh, if only I'd given him that homeopathic I wanted to try, maybe he'd still be with me. You can't win that game, and I know you know that. It's all part of the pain of letting go and knowing that we are not in control the way we wish we were. As far as you not being strong... You are one of the strongest people I know. There is no greater champion for those who can't speak, or act for themselves. What you do, and you do so much, takes guts and courage. It's only common sense to realize that the more animals we take in, (esp when those animals have had a rough start and are at a disadvantage to begin with), the more probability there is for loss. Yet you continue to help all those that cross your path. You fight like a tiger protecting their young, don't tell me you aren't strong. You are very strong, strong of heart and strong of spirit. There is NOTHING weak about mourning the loss of our babies physical presence, nothing weak about not wanting to let go. The only thing messed up is the seeming injustice of life. Life, unfortunately is a death sentence. Every creature born is terminal, I know that you know, it's how we share our time together, whether long, or short, that matters. Many blessings to you Hideyo, you're my kind of human. Nina Hideyo Yamamoto wrote: Thanks, Nina.. I pretend to be strong.. but you know how messed up I am.. I am crying my tears out, Nina. I think that I gave something (homeopathic treatment) to him that did something bad to him.. because he went down right after that.. this is one of my what if... thing.. and I so regret it, Nina. But - I know that Garfunkle had a good life --I just so wish to have more of it! I will talk to Jasmine tomorrow to see if I can talk to Garfunkle in his new life. Thank you for thinking of me and my babies. Hideyo
RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo
Hideyeo - was the email I sent you enough or do you need me to re-write and actually mail. Happy to do if you need that. Just let me know.Hideyo Yamamoto [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Actually, criminal charges are based on the fact that I did not complywith getting rid of my cats when my permit was not approved, so itactually had nothing to do with a complaint. If I can get a permit,Greg says that it will go away eventually. But still.. nervous..My address is 212 Edith, SEAlbuquerque, NM 87102Thank you!!Love and hugs,Hideyo-Original Message-From: [EMAIL PROTECTED][mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of NinaSent: Monday, November 28, 2005 1:59 PMTo: felvtalk@felineleukemia.orgSubject: Animal Control hearing - HideyoHideyo,I would be honored to write a testimonial to you and all your rescue efforts. I think it's an excellent idea to go to court with a stack of them to show the judge. Let us know where to send them, (do you have a PO Box?). Go over the posts and suggestions made when all this crap first came up and get yourself armed. Did you ever contact ALDF? You're right, you don't have the luxury of putting things on hold duringyour grief. You had posted that someone advised you if the "anonymous" complainant didn't show up, you'd be okay, it doesn't sound like that will be the case if they have filed criminal charges against you. Startlining up foster homes now, just in case. The Angels are on your side and so are we,NHideyo Yamamoto wrote:Nina,, you are now making me cry more ---Thank you for everything you say...The only down side is having so many of animals is that.. I can't justkeep crying.. I wanted to.. I wanted to be right besides Garfunkleafterhe passed, and kept holding him until I get tired of crying...but Icouldn't.. everyone is looking at me, and meowing.. so I needed to keepmoving..My hearing (for animal control) is set for December 19th - and alsoanimal control filed criminal complaint about me not complying withtheir order... so I have to go to hearing about that, too.I am a bit freaking out.. but I have to keep moving.. because I havegottoo much to lose if I don't..If anyone would write me a letter to vouch me as a care taker of myanimals.. I will be grateful.. I will be sharing it at the hearing sothat they don't think I am some sort of hoarder that I don't take careof my animals.-Original Message-From: [EMAIL PROTECTED][mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of NinaSent: Monday, November 28, 2005 12:38 PMTo: felvtalk@felineleukemia.orgSubject: Re: My dear Garfunkle's new departureHideyo,You know my opinion on "what ifs". Whatever we do that we think was detrimental, can be turned around on us. You gave Garfunkle something that you suspect "did something bad to him", (I doubt it), but what if you hadn't tried whatever it was? Then right now you'd be thinking, "Oh, if only I'd given him that homeopathic I wanted to try, maybe he'dstill be with me". You can't win that game, and I know you know that.It's all part of the pain of letting go and knowing that we are not in control the way we wish we were.As far as you not being strong... You are one of the strongest peopleIknow. There is no greater champion for those who can't speak, or act for themselves. What you do, and you do so much, takes guts and courage. It's only common sense to realize that the more animals we take in, (esp when those animals have had a rough start and are at a disadvantage to begin with), the more probability there is for loss. Yet you continue to help all those that cross your path. You fightlikea tiger protecting their young, don't tell me you aren't strong. You are very strong, strong of heart and strong of spirit. There isNOTHINGweak about mourning the loss of our babies physical presence, nothing weak about not wanting to let go. The only thing "messed up" is the seeming injustice of life. Life, unfortunately is a death sentence. Every creature born is terminal, I know that you know, it's how weshareour time together, whether long, or short, that matters. Manyblessingsto you Hideyo, you're my kind of human.NinaHideyo Yamamoto wrote: Thanks, Nina.. I pretend to be strong.. but you know how messed up Iam.. I am crying my tears out, Nina. I think that I gave something(homeopathic treatment) to him that did something bad to him.. becausehe went down right after that.. this is one of my "what if..." thing..and I so regret it, Nina. But - I know that Garfunkle had a good life--I just so wish to have more of it! I will talk to Jasmine tomorrow to see if I can talk to Garfunkle in his new life.Thank you for thinking of me and my babies.Hideyo
RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo
Thank you, Susan very much , I think it is just fine I have it in my file already. From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Susan Loesch Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 2:24 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Hideyeo - was the email I sent you enough or do you need me to re-write and actually mail. Happy to do if you need that. Just let me know. Hideyo Yamamoto [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Actually, criminal charges are based on the fact that I did not comply with getting rid of my cats when my permit was not approved, so it actually had nothing to do with a complaint. If I can get a permit, Greg says that it will go away eventually. But still.. nervous.. My address is 212 Edith, SE Albuquerque, NM 87102 Thank you!! Love and hugs, Hideyo -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 1:59 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Hideyo, I would be honored to write a testimonial to you and all your rescue efforts. I think it's an excellent idea to go to court with a stack of them to show the judge. Let us know where to send them, (do you have a PO Box?). Go over the posts and suggestions made when all this crap first came up and get yourself armed. Did you ever contact ALDF? You're right, you don't have the luxury of putting things on hold during your grief. You had posted that someone advised you if the anonymous complainant didn't show up, you'd be okay, it doesn't sound like that will be the case if they have filed criminal charges against you. Start lining up foster homes now, just in case. The Angels are on your side and so are we, N Hideyo Yamamoto wrote: Nina,, you are now making me cry more --- Thank you for everything you say... The only down side is having so many of animals is that.. I can't just keep crying.. I wanted to.. I wanted to be right besides Garfunkle after he passed, and kept holding him until I get tired of crying...but I couldn't.. everyone is looking at me, and meowing.. so I needed to keep moving.. My hearing (for animal control) is set for December 19th - and also animal control filed criminal complaint about me not complying with their order... so I have to go to hearing about that, too. I am a bit freaking out.. but I have to keep moving.. because I have got too much to lose if I don't.. If anyone would write me a letter to vouch me as a care taker of my animals.. I will be grateful.. I will be sharing it at the hearing so that they don't think I am some sort of hoarder that I don't take care of my animals. -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 12:38 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: My dear Garfunkle's new departure Hideyo, You know my opinion on what ifs. Whatever we do that we think was detrimental, can be turned around on us. You gave Garfunkle something that you suspect did something bad to him, (I doubt it), but what if you hadn't tried whatever it was? Then right now you'd be thinking, Oh, if only I'd given him that homeopathic I wanted to try, maybe he'd still be with me. You can't win that game, and I know you know that. It's all part of the pain of letting go and knowing that we are not in control the way we wish we were. As far as you not being strong... You are one of the strongest people I know. There is no greater champion for those who can't speak, or act for themselves. What you do, and you do so much, takes guts and courage. It's only common sense to realize that the more animals we take in, (esp when those animals have had a rough start and are at a disadvantage to begin with), the more probability there is for loss. Yet you continue to help all those that cross your path. You fight like a tiger protecting their young, don't tell me you aren't strong. You are very strong, strong of heart and strong of spirit. There is NOTHING weak about mourning the loss of our babies physical presence, nothing weak about not wanting to let go. The only thing messed up is the seeming injustice of life. Life, unfortunately is a death sentence. Every creature born is terminal, I know that you know, it's how we share our time together, whether long, or short, that matters. Many blessings to you Hideyo, you're my kind of human. Nina Hideyo Yamamoto wrote: Thanks, Nina.. I pretend to be strong.. but you know how messed up I am.. I am crying my tears out, Nina. I think that I gave something (homeopathic treatment) to him that did something bad to him.. because he went down right after that.. this is one of my what if... thing.. and I so regret it, Nina. But - I know that Garfunkle had a good life --I just so wish to have more of it! I will talk to Jasmine tomorrow to see if I can talk to Garfunkle in his new life
RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo
Title: Message Hideyo-Goes without saying I will of course send you a glowing testimonial too. Gotta dash now, but I'll be in touch, love and hugs, Kerry -Original Message-From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Hideyo YamamotoSent: Monday, November 28, 2005 3:25 PMTo: felvtalk@felineleukemia.orgSubject: RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Thank you, Susan very much , I think it is just fine I have it in my file already. From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Susan LoeschSent: Monday, November 28, 2005 2:24 PMTo: felvtalk@felineleukemia.orgSubject: RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Hideyeo - was the email I sent you enough or do you need me to re-write and actually mail. Happy to do if you need that. Just let me know.Hideyo Yamamoto [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Actually, criminal charges are based on the fact that I did not complywith getting rid of my cats when my permit was not approved, so itactually had nothing to do with a complaint. If I can get a permit,Greg says that it will go away eventually. But still.. nervous..My address is 212 Edith, SEAlbuquerque, NM 87102Thank you!!Love and hugs,Hideyo-Original Message-From: [EMAIL PROTECTED][mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of NinaSent: Monday, November 28, 2005 1:59 PMTo: felvtalk@felineleukemia.orgSubject: Animal Control hearing - HideyoHideyo,I would be honored to write a testimonial to you and all your rescue efforts. I think it's an excellent idea to go to court with a stack of them to show the judge. Let us know where to send them, (do you have a PO Box?). Go over the posts and suggestions made when all this crap first came up and get yourself armed. Did you ever contact ALDF? You're right, you don't have the luxury of putting things on hold duringyour grief. You had posted that someone advised you if the "anonymous" complainant didn't show up, you'd be okay, it doesn't sound like that will be the case if they have filed criminal charges against you. Startlining up foster homes now, just in case. The Angels are on your side and so are we,NHideyo Yamamoto wrote:Nina,, you are now making me cry more ---Thank you for everything you say...The only down side is having so many of animals is that.. I can't justkeep crying.. I wanted to.. I wanted to be right besides Garfunkleafterhe passed, and kept holding him until I get tired of crying...but Icouldn't.. everyone is looking at me, and meowing.. so I needed to keepmoving..My hearing (for animal control) is set for December 19th - and alsoanimal control filed criminal complaint about me not complying withtheir order... so I have to go to hearing about that, too.I am a bit freaking out.. but I have to keep moving.. because I havegottoo much to lose if I don't..If anyone would write me a letter to vouch me as a care taker of myanimals.. I will be grateful.. I will be sharing it at the hearing sothat they don't think I am some sort of hoarder that I don't take careof my animals.-Original Message-From: [EMAIL PROTECTED][mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of NinaSent: Monday, November 28, 2005 12:38 PMTo: felvtalk@felineleukemia.orgSubject: Re: My dear Garfunkle's new departureHideyo,You know my opinion on "what ifs". Whatever we do that we think was detrimental, can be turned around on us. You gave Garfunkle something that you suspect "did something bad to him", (I doubt it), but what if you hadn't tried whatever it was? Then right now you'd be thinking, "Oh, if only I'd given him that homeopathic I wanted to try, maybe he'dstill be with me". You can't win that game, and I know you know that.It's all part of the pain of letting go and knowing that we are not in control the way we wish we were.As far as you not being strong... You are one of the strongest peopleIknow. There is no greater champion for those who can't speak, or act for themselves. What you do, and you do so much, takes guts and courage. It's only common sense to realize that the more animals we take in, (esp when those animals have had a rough start and are at a disadvantage to begin with), the more probability there is for loss. Yet you continue to help all those that cross your path. You fightlikea tiger protecting their young, don't tell me you aren't strong. You are very strong, strong of heart and strong of spirit. There isNOTHINGweak about mourning the loss of our babies physical presence, nothing weak about not wanting to let go. The only thing "messed up" is the seeming injustice of life. Life, unfortunately is a death sentence. Every creature born is terminal, I know that you know, it's how weshareour time together, whether long, or short, that matters. Manyblessingsto you Hideyo, you're my kind of human.NinaHideyo Yamamoto wrote: Thanks, Nina.. I pretend to be strong.. but you know how messed up Iam.. I am crying
RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo
Title: Message Thank you, Kerry! From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of MacKenzie, Kerry N. Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 3:53 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Hideyo-Goes without saying I will of course send you a glowing testimonial too. Gotta dash now, but I'll be in touch, love and hugs, Kerry -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Hideyo Yamamoto Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 3:25 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Thank you, Susan very much , I think it is just fine I have it in my file already. From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Susan Loesch Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 2:24 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Hideyeo - was the email I sent you enough or do you need me to re-write and actually mail. Happy to do if you need that. Just let me know. Hideyo Yamamoto [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Actually, criminal charges are based on the fact that I did not comply with getting rid of my cats when my permit was not approved, so it actually had nothing to do with a complaint. If I can get a permit, Greg says that it will go away eventually. But still.. nervous.. My address is 212 Edith, SE Albuquerque, NM 87102 Thank you!! Love and hugs, Hideyo -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 1:59 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Hideyo, I would be honored to write a testimonial to you and all your rescue efforts. I think it's an excellent idea to go to court with a stack of them to show the judge. Let us know where to send them, (do you have a PO Box?). Go over the posts and suggestions made when all this crap first came up and get yourself armed. Did you ever contact ALDF? You're right, you don't have the luxury of putting things on hold during your grief. You had posted that someone advised you if the anonymous complainant didn't show up, you'd be okay, it doesn't sound like that will be the case if they have filed criminal charges against you. Start lining up foster homes now, just in case. The Angels are on your side and so are we, N Hideyo Yamamoto wrote: Nina,, you are now making me cry more --- Thank you for everything you say... The only down side is having so many of animals is that.. I can't just keep crying.. I wanted to.. I wanted to be right besides Garfunkle after he passed, and kept holding him until I get tired of crying...but I couldn't.. everyone is looking at me, and meowing.. so I needed to keep moving.. My hearing (for animal control) is set for December 19th - and also animal control filed criminal complaint about me not complying with their order... so I have to go to hearing about that, too. I am a bit freaking out.. but I have to keep moving.. because I have got too much to lose if I don't.. If anyone would write me a letter to vouch me as a care taker of my animals.. I will be grateful.. I will be sharing it at the hearing so that they don't think I am some sort of hoarder that I don't take care of my animals. -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 12:38 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: My dear Garfunkle's new departure Hideyo, You know my opinion on what ifs. Whatever we do that we think was detrimental, can be turned around on us. You gave Garfunkle something that you suspect did something bad to him, (I doubt it), but what if you hadn't tried whatever it was? Then right now you'd be thinking, Oh, if only I'd given him that homeopathic I wanted to try, maybe he'd still be with me. You can't win that game, and I know you know that. It's all part of the pain of letting go and knowing that we are not in control the way we wish we were. As far as you not being strong... You are one of the strongest people I know. There is no greater champion for those who can't speak, or act for themselves. What you do, and you do so much, takes guts and courage. It's only common sense to realize that the more animals we take in, (esp when those animals have had a rough start and are at a disadvantage to begin with), the more probability there is for loss. Yet you continue to help all those that cross your path. You fight like a tiger protecting their young, don't tell me you aren't strong. You are very strong, strong of heart and strong of spirit. There is NOTHING weak about mourning the loss of our babies physical presence, nothing weak about not wanting to let go. The only thing messed up is the seeming injustice of life. Life, unfortunately is a death sentence. Every creature born is terminal, I know that you
RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo
Hideyo, we're pulling for you. Let us know if we can help. Sending glowing good vibes for you! Gloria At 03:25 PM 11/28/2005, you wrote: Thank you, Susan very much , I think it is just fine I have it in my file already. -- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Susan Loesch Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 2:24 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: RE: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Hideyeo - was the email I sent you enough or do you need me to re-write and actually mail. Happy to do if you need that. Just let me know. Hideyo Yamamoto [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Actually, criminal charges are based on the fact that I did not comply with getting rid of my cats when my permit was not approved, so it actually had nothing to do with a complaint. If I can get a permit, Greg says that it will go away eventually. But still.. nervous.. My address is 212 Edith, SE Albuquerque, NM 87102 Thank you!! Love and hugs, Hideyo -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 1:59 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Animal Control hearing - Hideyo Hideyo, I would be honored to write a testimonial to you and all your rescue efforts. I think it's an excellent idea to go to court with a stack of them to show the judge. Let us know where to send them, (do you have a PO Box?). Go over the posts and suggestions made when all this crap first came up and get yourself armed. Did you ever contact ALDF? You're right, you don't have the luxury of putting things on hold during your grief. You had posted that someone advised you if the anonymous complainant didn't show up, you'd be okay, it doesn't sound like that will be the case if they have filed criminal charges against you. Start lining up foster homes now, just in case. The Angels are on your side and so are we, N Hideyo Yamamoto wrote: Nina,, you are now making me cry more --- Thank you for everything you say... The only down side is having so many of animals is that.. I can't just keep crying.. I wanted to.. I wanted to be right besides Garfunkle after he passed, and kept holding him until I get tired of crying...but I couldn't.. everyone is looking at me, and meowing.. so I needed to keep moving.. My hearing (for animal control) is set for December 19th - and also animal control filed criminal complaint about me not complying with their order... so I have to go to hearing about that, too. I am a bit freaking out.. but I have to keep moving.. because I have got too much to lose if I don't.. If anyone would write me a letter to vouch me as a care taker of my animals.. I will be grateful.. I will be sharing it at the hearing so that they don't think I am some sort of hoarder that I don't take care of my animals. -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Monday, November 28, 2005 12:38 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: My dear Garfunkle's new departure Hideyo, You know my opinion on what ifs. Whatever we do that we think was detrimental, can be turned around on us. You gave Garfunkle something that you suspect did something bad to him, (I doubt it), but what if you hadn't tried whatever it was? Then right now you'd be thinking, Oh, if only I'd given him that homeopathic I wanted to try, maybe he'd still be with me. You can't win that game, and I know you know that. It's all part of the pain of letting go and knowing that we are not in control the way we wish we were. As far as you not being strong... You are one of the strongest people I know. There is no greater champion for those who can't speak, or act for themselves. What you do, and you do so much, takes guts and courage. It's only common sense to realize that the more animals we take in, (esp when those animals have had a rough start and are at a disadvantage to begin with), the more probability there is for loss. Yet you continue to help all those that cross your path. You fight like a tiger protecting their young, don't tell me you aren't strong. You are very strong, strong of heart and strong of spirit. There is NOTHING weak about mourning the loss of our babies physical presence, nothing weak about not wanting to let go. The only thing messed up is the seeming injustice of life. Life, unfortunately is a death sentence. Every creature born is terminal, I know that you know, it's how we share our time together, whether long, or short, that matters. Many blessings to you Hideyo, you're my kind of human. Nina Hideyo Yamamoto wrote: Thanks, Nina.. I pretend to be strong.. but you know how messed up I am.. I am crying my tears out, Nina. I think that I gave something (homeopathic treatment) to him that did something bad to him.. because he went down right after that.. this is one of my what if... thing.. and I so regret it, Nina. But - I know that Garfunkle had a good life --I just so