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Well said, Jamie. =^..^= Terri, Salome', Siggie the Tomato Vampire, Guinevere, Sammi, and 5 furangels: RuthieGirl, Samantha, Arielle, Gareth and Alec =^..^= Furkid Photos! http://mysite.verizon.net/vze7sgqa/My FeLV Site: http://pages.ivillage.com/ruthiegirl1/MyFeLVinformationSite/My Personal Page: http://www.geocities.com/ruthiegirl1/terrispage.html?1083970447350 - Original Message - From: Jamie Laws To: Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Sent: Tuesday, May 24, 2005 10:17 PM Subject: what they do I just read Lisa's post about little Akira and was struck by something she said. The part about what they teach us. The "why me, why this cat" will drive you insane. I mean you just love them so much and they are so special that you have to wonder WHY? Well I think I know. Perhaps I am biased, but I can tell you there was something about Andy. I mean I love my other 2 cats, but Andy had the "It" factor. People were drawn to him. People who don't like cats liked him. He was so handsome and so sweet and so... well, cool. So why do I think he was stricken with Felv? Because he is unforgettable. He makes an impression on anyone who meets him. When I moved to Georgia 3 months after he was diagnosed, I went to the first vet in the phone book- Accute Care Veterinary Clinic- because he was so sick and I knew no one in that town. There, Dr. Brucker, like may vets, was telling me it was hopeless. Unbeknown to me, Andy was in his hemobartinella bout at that point but the vet heard me say "felv" and all desire to treat that cat flew out the window on his part. So I took him home to die at that point. This was 6 YEARS ago and he just died yesterday. So I get on the List and email like mad. Then Pam, Rissa-Tai's mom, posts and said "MAKE that man test for hemobartinella!" I had no clue what that even was. Pam did b/c Rissa had suffered through it. Back we go to the vet and Dr. B tells me he doesn't want me to "waste" $50 on that test, especially when they can have it and it won't show on the test anyway. But at Pam's insistence, I insisted. That is what Rissa-Tai did. She saved Andy. And many others I'm sure, but here is an instance where I can directly link a life saved because of HER bravery and suffering. So we did the test and it was positive! He sent me home with some Doxycycline and said "don't expect miracles." That cat's RBCs shot up and he was running around and playing again almost overnight. The vet was stunned. So for 2 years we had an understanding that he would never count Andy out like that again and we were TREATING him for LIFE not managing him for death. At the end of the 2 years I came into the clinic and said I needed my records copied since my husband was out of the Army and we were moving back to Texas. Dr. Brucker looked like I punched him in the gut. Then proceeded to tell me how much he learned from me and Andy and how he would forever change the way he approached the treatment of Felv+ cats. So there is one thing Andy did. How many cats were saved because this vet changed his attitude about Felv? And just now at this new vet, Dr. Baxter was stunned at how long he lived and really picked my brain about what I had done for Andy all these years. So I told him about the List, and stress management, Interferon, the various supplements, etc. He was familiar with most of it, but now had reason to SUGGEST IT TO FUTURE PATIENTS! He said they succumb to it anyway, and I said but look how much time you can get with them if you treat it. Just thing about HIV+ people. They will eventually die from AIDS but you don't know when and the better they are taken care of the longer their life will be. So I think Andy made an impact there too. Of course I have to mention James' cat Vyvyan whose battle with Felv inspired him to create this website and this wonderful place for us to come together and share, learn, laugh and cry together. Many thanks to James and Vyvyan for that. They come into our lives for a fleeting moment and touch us so deeply. But like all of us, their purpose is much greater than to bring the joy and love and fulfillment that they do end up bringing to our lives. That is just a fabulous, beautiful byproduct. So Andy, Vyvyan, Akira, Rissa-Tai and all of your wonderful babies served a much greater good. For me, I am clinging to what I know in my soul to be true. That wonderful creature came into my life and changed me at my core. I became heavily involved in animal rescue because of him on top of everything else. I would have never done that if it was not for Andy. They say you cannot know true joy wi
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Hmmm good idea - too late for this newsletter, but I'll remember it for the next. Always a crunch, and people are too busy to write! Gloria At 10:22 AM 5/25/2005, you wrote: great idea! On 5/25/05, Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > Jamie, > Thank you for that eloquent and loving tribute to Andy and all our very > special friends. Gloria was looking for articles to include in her > newsletter, I think your tribute should be published so that more people > might understand that the opportunity for life we give to these angels in > fur is not just for their benefit, but infinitely more so, for ours. > Nina > > > Jamie Laws wrote: > > > > > I just read Lisa's post about little Akira and was struck by something she > said. The part about what they teach us. The "why me, why this cat" will > drive you insane. I mean you just love them so much and they are so special > that you have to wonder WHY? Well I think I know. > > Perhaps I am biased, but I can tell you there was something about Andy. I > mean I love my other 2 cats, but Andy had the "It" factor. People were > drawn to him. People who don't like cats liked him. He was so handsome and > so sweet and so... well, cool. So why do I think he was stricken with Felv? > Because he is unforgettable. He makes an impression on anyone who meets > him. When I moved to Georgia 3 months after he was diagnosed, I went to the > first vet in the phone book- Accute Care Veterinary Clinic- because he was > so sick and I knew no one in that town. There, Dr. Brucker, like may vets, > was telling me it was hopeless. Unbeknown to me, Andy was in his > hemobartinella bout at that point but the vet heard me say "felv" and all > desire to treat that cat flew out the window on his part. So I took him > home to die at that point. This was 6 YEARS ago and he just died yesterday. > So I get on the List and email like mad. Then Pam, Rissa-Tai's mom, posts > and said "MAKE that man test for hemobartinella!" I had no clue what that > even was. Pam did b/c Rissa had suffered through it. Back we go to the vet > and Dr. B tells me he doesn't want me to "waste" $50 on that test, > especially when they can have it and it won't show on the test anyway. But > at Pam's insistence, I insisted. That is what Rissa-Tai did. She saved > Andy. And many others I'm sure, but here is an instance where I can > directly link a life saved because of HER bravery and suffering. So we did > the test and it was positive! He sent me home with some Doxycycline and > said "don't expect miracles." That cat's RBCs shot up and he was running > around and playing again almost overnight. The vet was stunned. So for 2 > years we had an understanding that he would never count Andy out like that > again and we were TREATING him for LIFE not managing him for death. At the > end of the 2 years I came into the clinic and said I needed my records > copied since my husband was out of the Army and we were moving back to > Texas. Dr. Brucker looked like I punched him in the gut. Then proceeded to > tell me how much he learned from me and Andy and how he would forever change > the way he approached the treatment of Felv+ cats. So there is one thing > Andy did. How many cats were saved because this vet changed his attitude > about Felv? And just now at this new vet, Dr. Baxter was stunned at how > long he lived and really picked my brain about what I had done for Andy all > these years. So I told him about the List, and stress management, > Interferon, the various supplements, etc. He was familiar with most of it, > but now had reason to SUGGEST IT TO FUTURE PATIENTS! He said they succumb > to it anyway, and I said but look how much time you can get with them if you > treat it. Just thing about HIV+ people. They will eventually die from AIDS > but you don't know when and the better they are taken care of the longer > their life will be. So I think Andy made an impact there too. > > Of course I have to mention James' cat Vyvyan whose battle with Felv > inspired him to create this website and this wonderful place for us to come > together and share, learn, laugh and cry together. Many thanks to James and > Vyvyan for that. > > They come into our lives for a fleeting moment and touch us so deeply. But > like all of us, their purpose is much greater than to bring the joy and love > and fulfillment that they do end up bringing to our lives. That is just a > fabulous, beautiful byproduct. So Andy, Vyvyan, Akira, Rissa-Tai and all of > your wonderful babies served a much greater good. For me, I am clinging to > what I know in my soul to be true. That wonderful creature came into my > life and changed me at my core. I became heavily involved in animal rescue > because of him on top of everything else. I would have never done that if > it was not for Andy. They say you cannot know true joy without knowing true > sorrow. I believe that, and I now know th
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I totally agree too! In a message dated 5/25/2005 8:23:34 AM Pacific Standard Time, [EMAIL PROTECTED] writes: great idea!On 5/25/05, Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:> Jamie,> Thank you for that eloquent and loving tribute to Andy and all our very> special friends. Gloria was looking for articles to include in her> newsletter, I think your tribute should be published so that more people> might understand that the opportunity for life we give to these angels in> fur is not just for their benefit, but infinitely more so, for ours.> Nina Terrie MohrCheck site for available Siameses for adoption!http://www.iGive.com/TAZZYShttps://www.paypal.com/TAZZY'S ANIMAL TRANSPORTShttp://www.tazzys-siameses-collies.petfinder.org/Click Here to Join WASHINGTON SIAMESE RESCUE Yahoo Group!http://groups.yahoo.com/group/wasiameserescueClick Here to Join K9 and Puddy Xpress Yahoo http://groups.yahoo.com/group/K9andPuddyXpress/joinhttp://hometown.aol.com/tatorbunz/index.htmlhttp://hometown.aol.com/tatorbunz/myhomepage/petmemorial.htmlTAZZY'S ANIMAL TRANSPORTSSIAMESE & COLLIE RESCUEOwner/DriverPetfinder.comAdopt a Homeless Pet!http://www.petfinder.com/http://www.orecatay.com/http://www.awca.net/index.htmhttp://www.felineleukemia.org/http://www.petloss.com/http://www.meezer.com/http://thesiamesestore.com/http://tx.siameserescue.org/adopt.htmlhttp://ca.siameserescue.org/Southern CA. Siamese Rescuehttp://cs.siameserescue.org/Northern CA. Siamese Rescuehttp://cn.siameserescue.org/http://co.siameserescue.org/http://va.siameserescue.org/
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great idea! On 5/25/05, Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > Jamie, > Thank you for that eloquent and loving tribute to Andy and all our very > special friends. Gloria was looking for articles to include in her > newsletter, I think your tribute should be published so that more people > might understand that the opportunity for life we give to these angels in > fur is not just for their benefit, but infinitely more so, for ours. > Nina > > > Jamie Laws wrote: > > > > > I just read Lisa's post about little Akira and was struck by something she > said. The part about what they teach us. The "why me, why this cat" will > drive you insane. I mean you just love them so much and they are so special > that you have to wonder WHY? Well I think I know. > > Perhaps I am biased, but I can tell you there was something about Andy. I > mean I love my other 2 cats, but Andy had the "It" factor. People were > drawn to him. People who don't like cats liked him. He was so handsome and > so sweet and so... well, cool. So why do I think he was stricken with Felv? > Because he is unforgettable. He makes an impression on anyone who meets > him. When I moved to Georgia 3 months after he was diagnosed, I went to the > first vet in the phone book- Accute Care Veterinary Clinic- because he was > so sick and I knew no one in that town. There, Dr. Brucker, like may vets, > was telling me it was hopeless. Unbeknown to me, Andy was in his > hemobartinella bout at that point but the vet heard me say "felv" and all > desire to treat that cat flew out the window on his part. So I took him > home to die at that point. This was 6 YEARS ago and he just died yesterday. > So I get on the List and email like mad. Then Pam, Rissa-Tai's mom, posts > and said "MAKE that man test for hemobartinella!" I had no clue what that > even was. Pam did b/c Rissa had suffered through it. Back we go to the vet > and Dr. B tells me he doesn't want me to "waste" $50 on that test, > especially when they can have it and it won't show on the test anyway. But > at Pam's insistence, I insisted. That is what Rissa-Tai did. She saved > Andy. And many others I'm sure, but here is an instance where I can > directly link a life saved because of HER bravery and suffering. So we did > the test and it was positive! He sent me home with some Doxycycline and > said "don't expect miracles." That cat's RBCs shot up and he was running > around and playing again almost overnight. The vet was stunned. So for 2 > years we had an understanding that he would never count Andy out like that > again and we were TREATING him for LIFE not managing him for death. At the > end of the 2 years I came into the clinic and said I needed my records > copied since my husband was out of the Army and we were moving back to > Texas. Dr. Brucker looked like I punched him in the gut. Then proceeded to > tell me how much he learned from me and Andy and how he would forever change > the way he approached the treatment of Felv+ cats. So there is one thing > Andy did. How many cats were saved because this vet changed his attitude > about Felv? And just now at this new vet, Dr. Baxter was stunned at how > long he lived and really picked my brain about what I had done for Andy all > these years. So I told him about the List, and stress management, > Interferon, the various supplements, etc. He was familiar with most of it, > but now had reason to SUGGEST IT TO FUTURE PATIENTS! He said they succumb > to it anyway, and I said but look how much time you can get with them if you > treat it. Just thing about HIV+ people. They will eventually die from AIDS > but you don't know when and the better they are taken care of the longer > their life will be. So I think Andy made an impact there too. > > Of course I have to mention James' cat Vyvyan whose battle with Felv > inspired him to create this website and this wonderful place for us to come > together and share, learn, laugh and cry together. Many thanks to James and > Vyvyan for that. > > They come into our lives for a fleeting moment and touch us so deeply. But > like all of us, their purpose is much greater than to bring the joy and love > and fulfillment that they do end up bringing to our lives. That is just a > fabulous, beautiful byproduct. So Andy, Vyvyan, Akira, Rissa-Tai and all of > your wonderful babies served a much greater good. For me, I am clinging to > what I know in my soul to be true. That wonderful creature came into my > life and changed me at my core. I became heavily involved in animal rescue > because of him on top of everything else. I would have never done that if > it was not for Andy. They say you cannot know true joy without knowing true > sorrow. I believe that, and I now know that I have experienced true sorrow > through the loss of Andy. The selfish side of me wants him here, whole and > healthy. I don't want him to be gone, yet helpful to others. I w
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Jamie, Thank you for that eloquent and loving tribute to Andy and all our very special friends. Gloria was looking for articles to include in her newsletter, I think your tribute should be published so that more people might understand that the opportunity for life we give to these angels in fur is not just for their benefit, but infinitely more so, for ours. Nina Jamie Laws wrote: I just read Lisa's post about little Akira and was struck by something she said. The part about what they teach us. The "why me, why this cat" will drive you insane. I mean you just love them so much and they are so special that you have to wonder WHY? Well I think I know. Perhaps I am biased, but I can tell you there was something about Andy. I mean I love my other 2 cats, but Andy had the "It" factor. People were drawn to him. People who don't like cats liked him. He was so handsome and so sweet and so... well, cool. So why do I think he was stricken with Felv? Because he is unforgettable. He makes an impression on anyone who meets him. When I moved to Georgia 3 months after he was diagnosed, I went to the first vet in the phone book- Accute Care Veterinary Clinic- because he was so sick and I knew no one in that town. There, Dr. Brucker, like may vets, was telling me it was hopeless. Unbeknown to me, Andy was in his hemobartinella bout at that point but the vet heard me say "felv" and all desire to treat that cat flew out the window on his part. So I took him home to die at that point. This was 6 YEARS ago and he just died yesterday. So I get on the List and email like mad. Then Pam, Rissa-Tai's mom, posts and said "MAKE that man test for hemobartinella!" I had no clue what that even was. Pam did b/c Rissa had suffered through it. Back we go to the vet and Dr. B tells me he doesn't want me to "waste" $50 on that test, especially when they can have it and it won't show on the test anyway. But at Pam's insistence, I insisted. That is what Rissa-Tai did. She saved Andy. And many others I'm sure, but here is an instance where I can directly link a life saved because of HER bravery and suffering. So we did the test and it was positive! He sent me home with some Doxycycline and said "don't expect miracles." That cat's RBCs shot up and he was running around and playing again almost overnight. The vet was stunned. So for 2 years we had an understanding that he would never count Andy out like that again and we were TREATING him for LIFE not managing him for death. At the end of the 2 years I came into the clinic and said I needed my records copied since my husband was out of the Army and we were moving back to Texas. Dr. Brucker looked like I punched him in the gut. Then proceeded to tell me how much he learned from me and Andy and how he would forever change the way he approached the treatment of Felv+ cats. So there is one thing Andy did. How many cats were saved because this vet changed his attitude about Felv? And just now at this new vet, Dr. Baxter was stunned at how long he lived and really picked my brain about what I had done for Andy all these years. So I told him about the List, and stress management, Interferon, the various supplements, etc. He was familiar with most of it, but now had reason to SUGGEST IT TO FUTURE PATIENTS! He said they succumb to it anyway, and I said but look how much time you can get with them if you treat it. Just thing about HIV+ people. They will eventually die from AIDS but you don't know when and the better they are taken care of the longer their life will be. So I think Andy made an impact there too. Of course I have to mention James' cat Vyvyan whose battle with Felv inspired him to create this website and this wonderful place for us to come together and share, learn, laugh and cry together. Many thanks to James and Vyvyan for that. They come into our lives for a fleeting moment and touch us so deeply. But like all of us, their purpose is much greater than to bring the joy and love and fulfillment that they do end up bringing to our lives. That is just a fabulous, beautiful byproduct. So Andy, Vyvyan, Akira, Rissa-Tai and all of your wonderful babies served a much greater good. For me, I am clinging to what I know in my soul to be true. That wonderful creature came into my life and changed me at my core. I became heavily involved in animal rescue because of him on top of everything else. I would have never done that if it was not for Andy. They say you cannot know true joy without knowing true sorrow. I believe that, and I now know that I have experienced true sorrow through the loss of Andy. The selfish side of me wants him here, whole and healthy. I don't want him to be gone, yet helpful to others. I won't deny that. I want him back so much. But he did what he was sent to do and he is gone now. Before we went back to the vet yesterday afternoon, I explained to Andy about the Rainbow Bridge and that
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Thank You,Jamie. When I look back to (Rocky) my first Felv+ cat 18 years ago I realize how much he taught me about love, life and caring about all God's creatures. Not just the pretty healthy ones. He changed my life and I will always be grateful for having known him.
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Oh Jamie, what a beautiful tribute to Andy and our other poster kitties You can be so proud of Andy's legacy, the minds he changed and opened. We all miss him too and envy you and Abe for having had the privilege of knowing him so well. You really hit the nail on the head with the reason for how special our FeLV+ kitties are. And we are all with you through this - feel free to email me off list if you need to vent - I'm also on YM (Yahoo Messenger). <wrote: I just read Lisa's post about little Akira and was struck by something she said. The part about what they teach us. The "why me, why this cat" will drive you insane. I mean you just love them so much and they are so special that you have to wonder WHY? Well I think I know. Perhaps I am biased, but I can tell you there was something about Andy. I mean I love my other 2 cats, but Andy had the "It" factor. People were drawn to him. People who don't like cats liked him. He was so handsome and so sweet and so... well, cool. So why do I think he was stricken with Felv? Because he is unforgettable. He makes an impression on anyone who meets him. When I moved to Georgia 3 months after he was diagnosed, I went to the first vet in the phone book- Accute Care Veterinary Clinic- because he was so sick and I knew no one in that town. There, Dr. Brucker, like may vets, was telling me it was hopeless. Unbeknown to me, Andy was in his hemobartinella bout at that point but the vet heard me say "felv" and all desire to treat that cat flew out the window on his part. So I took him home to die at that point. This was 6 YEARS ago and he just died yesterday. So I get on the List and email like mad. Then Pam, Rissa-Tai's mom, posts and said "MAKE that man test for hemobartinella!" I had no clue what that even was. Pam did b/c Rissa had suffered through it. Back we go to the vet and Dr. B tells me he doesn't want me to "waste" $50 on that test, especially when they can have it and it won't show on the test anyway. But at Pam's insistence, I insisted. That is what Rissa-Tai did. She saved Andy. And many others I'm sure, but here is an instance where I can directly link a life saved because of HER bravery and suffering. So we did the test and it was positive! He sent me home with some Doxycycline and said "don't expect miracles." That cat's RBCs shot up and he was running around and playing again almost overnight. The vet was stunned. So for 2 years we had an understanding that he would never count Andy out like that again and we were TREATING him for LIFE not managing him for death. At the end of the 2 years I came into the clinic and said I needed my records copied since my husband was out of the Army and we were moving back to Texas. Dr. Brucker looked like I punched him in the gut. Then proceeded to tell me how much he learned from me and Andy and how he would forever change the way he approached the treatment of Felv+ cats. So there is one thing Andy did. How many cats were saved because this vet changed his attitude about Felv? And just now at this new vet, Dr. Baxter was stunned at how long he lived and really picked my brain about what I had done for Andy all these years. So I told him about the List, and stress management, Interferon, the various supplements, etc. He was familiar with most of it, but now had reason to SUGGEST IT TO FUTURE PATIENTS! He said they succumb to it anyway, and I said but look how much time you can get with them if you treat it. Just thing about HIV+ people. They will eventually die from AIDS but you don't know when and the better they are taken care of the longer their life will be. So I think Andy made an impact there too. Of course I have to mention James' cat Vyvyan whose battle with Felv inspired him to create this website and this wonderful place for us to come together and share, learn, laugh and cry together. Many thanks to James and Vyvyan for that. They come into our lives for a fleeting moment and touch us so deeply. But like all of us, their purpose is much greater than to bring the joy and love and fulfillment that they do end up bringing to our lives. That is just a fabulous, beautiful byproduct. So Andy, Vyvyan, Akira, Rissa-Tai and all of your wonderful babies served a much greater good. For me, I am clinging to what I know in my soul to be true. That wonderful creature came into my life and changed me at my core. I became heavily involved in animal rescue because of him on top of everything else. I would have never done that if it was not for Andy. They say you cannot know true joy without knowing true sorrow. I believe that, and I now know that I have experienced true sorrow through the loss of Andy. The selfish side of me wants him here, whole and healthy. I don't want him to be gone, yet helpful to others. I won't deny that. I want him back so much. But he did what he was sent to do and he is
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I just read Lisa's post about little Akira and was struck by something she said. The part about what they teach us. The "why me, why this cat" will drive you insane. I mean you just love them so much and they are so special that you have to wonder WHY? Well I think I know. Perhaps I am biased, but I can tell you there was something about Andy. I mean I love my other 2 cats, but Andy had the "It" factor. People were drawn to him. People who don't like cats liked him. He was so handsome and so sweet and so... well, cool. So why do I think he was stricken with Felv? Because he is unforgettable. He makes an impression on anyone who meets him. When I moved to Georgia 3 months after he was diagnosed, I went to the first vet in the phone book- Accute Care Veterinary Clinic- because he was so sick and I knew no one in that town. There, Dr. Brucker, like may vets, was telling me it was hopeless. Unbeknown to me, Andy was in his hemobartinella bout at that point but the vet heard me say "felv" and all desire to treat that cat flew out the window on his part. So I took him home to die at that point. This was 6 YEARS ago and he just died yesterday. So I get on the List and email like mad. Then Pam, Rissa-Tai's mom, posts and said "MAKE that man test for hemobartinella!" I had no clue what that even was. Pam did b/c Rissa had suffered through it. Back we go to the vet and Dr. B tells me he doesn't want me to "waste" $50 on that test, especially when they can have it and it won't show on the test anyway. But at Pam's insistence, I insisted. That is what Rissa-Tai did. She saved Andy. And many others I'm sure, but here is an instance where I can directly link a life saved because of HER bravery and suffering. So we did the test and it was positive! He sent me home with some Doxycycline and said "don't expect miracles." That cat's RBCs shot up and he was running around and playing again almost overnight. The vet was stunned. So for 2 years we had an understanding that he would never count Andy out like that again and we were TREATING him for LIFE not managing him for death. At the end of the 2 years I came into the clinic and said I needed my records copied since my husband was out of the Army and we were moving back to Texas. Dr. Brucker looked like I punched him in the gut. Then proceeded to tell me how much he learned from me and Andy and how he would forever change the way he approached the treatment of Felv+ cats. So there is one thing Andy did. How many cats were saved because this vet changed his attitude about Felv? And just now at this new vet, Dr. Baxter was stunned at how long he lived and really picked my brain about what I had done for Andy all these years. So I told him about the List, and stress management, Interferon, the various supplements, etc. He was familiar with most of it, but now had reason to SUGGEST IT TO FUTURE PATIENTS! He said they succumb to it anyway, and I said but look how much time you can get with them if you treat it. Just thing about HIV+ people. They will eventually die from AIDS but you don't know when and the better they are taken care of the longer their life will be. So I think Andy made an impact there too. Of course I have to mention James' cat Vyvyan whose battle with Felv inspired him to create this website and this wonderful place for us to come together and share, learn, laugh and cry together. Many thanks to James and Vyvyan for that. They come into our lives for a fleeting moment and touch us so deeply. But like all of us, their purpose is much greater than to bring the joy and love and fulfillment that they do end up bringing to our lives. That is just a fabulous, beautiful byproduct. So Andy, Vyvyan, Akira, Rissa-Tai and all of your wonderful babies served a much greater good. For me, I am clinging to what I know in my soul to be true. That wonderful creature came into my life and changed me at my core. I became heavily involved in animal rescue because of him on top of everything else. I would have never done that if it was not for Andy. They say you cannot know true joy without knowing true sorrow. I believe that, and I now know that I have experienced true sorrow through the loss of Andy. The selfish side of me wants him here, whole and healthy. I don't want him to be gone, yet helpful to others. I won't deny that. I want him back so much. But he did what he was sent to do and he is gone now. Before we went back to the vet yesterday afternoon, I explained to Andy about the Rainbow Bridge and that he would be there in a few minutes so just hang on for me. And soon, but hopefully not TOO soon, I will come pick him up from there and we will go on to Heaven. So that is where we stand now and I just hope God will grant me the gift of relief from this unbearable pain. Thanks once again to everyone for your kind words, emails and support through this. Jamie
