Many years ago I discovered that wholehearted surrender to Thy will be done can result in a very deep awareness of Gods allness. Why? Because thats what God wills that His Allness be known. And once it was known, my life became wonderful in many great ways. When youre sure God is all there is, your experience becomes rich with harmony, freedom, discovery, revelation, wonder, delight, love, healing, miracles, beauty, all that stuff. But then I eventually came to rest on my laurels and fell back to sleep. My deep awareness of Gods allness shriveled into just an idea, an idea that became diluted with other ideas that made me dream illusions, until the illusions became dreadful enough to motivate me to surrender once again. Thats happened four times in 30 years. The last time it happened I sank so deep into despair that my friends had to work hard to get me out; nudging, wooing, inspiring, nuking, encouraging, confronting till I finally could see what I needed to do. What I needed to do was become humble enough to dump the baloney and return once again to wholehearted desire that Thy will be done. When I listen, God reveals His will to be always the same. What God wills is awareness of His allness, not just as an idea, but as a deep realization. It can only happen by listening, because only God can reveal it. But I listened. And it happened. So, with a new deep awareness that God is all, it was once again clear theres nothing to be concerned about, no reason to despair, and that released the illusions that despair and concern held in place, and allowed my life once again to reflect Gods intent. Now if I get sloppy again, Ill fall back asleep. The only way Ill be able to stay awake is to keep listening to God. Thats the only way awareness of Gods allness will remain deep enough to allow His will to be done. Thats simple enough. So why didnt I keep listening before? Well, listening right now, heres what I hear, dont look back or youll turn to a pillar of salt. Thanks for listening, Ben
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