What if you did come back here again?
[ What if you really did come back here again Richard, what would you really like to be if you did? ] Oh slap me bloody vitals mate, here we go again IFS :- ) I would not be the least bit surprised IF I did come back here again. BUT, I would never know it would I :- ) It would be a new baby born onto the world. I would not know that it was AGAIN would I. I would not know that this life force was once Merlin of Exmoor I am glad to say :- ) But, to play your game of IF. OK, in all truth I would like to come back like this a human being, a male one, with all my faculties about me. Born into a family that loved you and cared about you and did their best for you. I would like to get a reasonably good education as a child (which I never had in the slums of London during the war) and to be encouraged to bring out of me whatever was the best in there; and to wave the rest. I would want to meet a fair damsel in the glen and settle down and produce ten kids. I would like to be born a bit smarter than I was born, and not in quite so much poverty and dark times and hardship. For me, all that would be PERFECTION. That is all. But I am sure that I would do the same then as I did this time, to give it MY ALL. What am I without it. I sure would not want to be ME for ME sake. That aint my ball park. If you DO NOT live for something other than you then you are already DEAD. Do I think or feel that I might be? No. I do not think about it at all, and I do not give a hoot either way. What will be will be. And this time around was GOOD, wonderful, sublime ! That is enough for me mate. I lived and I loved. It was DONE. Nothing can ever ever ever undo that. Ipso. Merlin
