Ah, a cool, inviting 65 degrees this morning. Well, the dark, pre-dawn
streets are for me one of the most sustaining and invigorating spiritual places
I know. Power walking on the asphalt outside gets me to my inside where I
confront my faults, think of the ultimate goals of my life and work, remind
myself of the core principles I want to live by and the values I wish to guide
me, and see how I am doing so far. I do all that not to change others, for
that I know I cannot do; I do all that to change myself, for that I know I
can do. That place, reinforced by my randomly selected "word for the day,"
places my ideals unflinchingly before me and tells me the vision I have and the
goals I strive toward. The fact that Yom Kippur, the Day of Atonement, that is
coming upon us tonight only drives me deeper.
The central prayer of Yom Kippur, what's called the Un'taneh Tokef,
reminds us of our frailty, our mortality, and the painful uncertainty of living
in the coming year. Don't I know that. I have had another year I feel I
should not have had. I've been granted a profound gift of plenty: Susan, my
sons, their wives, my grandmunchkins, my friends, my colleagues, my students.
For each day, I am humbly grateful. Why not. After all, these High Holidays
are more of a looking to a coming year unplanned and of a time of "who knows
what is to come." Each day, then, is like a two-handled urn. One handle is
the anxiety of tomorrow. The other handle is one of rejoicing today. Now, it
is difficult if you pick up the urn solely with one handle or the other. The
urn was designed to be lifted by both handles. The urn and handles are
metaphors for everything--everything--in life. No one's professional or
personal or social life is either all anxiety or all rejoicing because no one's
life is that straight, smooth, uniform, and predictable. It has inevitable
obstructions, windings, dips, bumps, and bends, as well as ups and downs. Life
often hands us the unplanned, the unwanted, the unprepared for, the
uncontrollable. If you pick up the handle of anxiety, you will become too
fearful and frustrated, maybe even resigned and cynical; everything will live
up to your expectations, and you will experience overwhelming sadness and
grief. If you pick up the handle of joyousness, you'll become euphoric,
dreamy; you will have your head in the clouds; you will totally idealize;
nothing will live up to your expectations, and you'll become jaded.. But, if
we pick up the urn as intended, we'll expect and accept the uncertain twists
and turns of life. How we deal with and adjust to the detours will determine
our inner strength, the depth of our appreciation and gratitude, and the
richness of our lives.
There's a lasting lesson in Yom Kippur for us academics. As academics
we hold ourselves up as "masters of the answers;" we don't like ambiguity; we
think we can control. But, I say that the proclamations of "I am certain" or
"I know how," the assertions of "I've got it" or "I'm there." close minds, shut
eyes, and clog ears. Such arrogant exclamation marks can be a deadly
cholesterol that obstructs the heart; the finality of such periods can lock
doors that both shut people in and shut people out. The need to know, the
drive to be sure, the desire to have the question answered, creates an
unyielding, and often self-devouring pressurized quest for order that doesn't
allow us to live patiently in the unanswered, unordered, and sometimes "you
just don't ask" now. We can't stand the "non-answer." Maybe that is the crux
of academia's problem: all knowledge is prepared, that which we help students
find has already been found; all experiences are prepared, for all experiences
have been experienced; all problem solving is known, for all problems have been
solved. And yet, there is so much "yet to be" out there. We prepare the
students' orderly minds loaded with book learning; do we prepare their whole
selves for the unknown, for the slings and arrows, for the ups and downs of
disheveled living that will render their book learning obsolete?
So, while I admit there may be a sense of uncomfortable and humbling
powerlessness in uncertainty, there is also reassuring power. Uncertainty can
also mean living with grace and hope in the face "possibility," and exercising
choices to convert possibility into actuality.
That is the courage to teach! That is "spiritual heroism!" Do you know what I
mean? It's not imposing control. It's not asserting authority. It's not
knowing. It's not the answer. It's not a guarantee. It's not safety. It's
when you walk into that classroom, or anywhere for that matter, living
gracefully and hopefully each new day in the face of unexperienced and
uncontrolled "newness." We mistakenly believe that good teaching equals
riskless certainty. It does not and cannot. We think good teaching means
errorless performance. It does not and cannot. We think good teaching equals
that sure-fire method or that magical technology. It does not and cannot. We
assert that good teaching is teaching by the assessment numbers. It is not and
cannot. Good teaching equals faith, and it's the exercise of faith that makes
us "spiritual heroes." It's faith! It's a faith that gives us the courage to
teach with uncertainty and possibility, being at ease welcoming the constant
stream of "strangers" we call students into our midst, being in the same room
with constantly "living questions" we call students. It's the constant
question, "who are you," not the answer, that leads us to be curious questers,
to ask, to search, to experiment, to venture, to strive, to reach out. It's
the question, not the answer, that offers us the choice to open ourselves up
and teach with deep awareness, otherness, and service. It is the question, not
the answer, that allows us to take our hands out from our pockets to reach out
with empathy, compassion, and connection. Reading student journals, engaging
with students, I have learned that when we establish a connection in the
classroom, that connection becomes sacred. It is then that we are doing what
truly matters, then that we return to our highest selves and bring our values
into both our and their lives; and then that we cut pathways to gratitude, deep
satisfaction, inspired action, increasing joy, significance, meaning,
integrity, and just living well. And, when we caringly do all that with each
student, we acknowledge her or his dignity, her or his uniqueness and worth,
and that we truly care.
When Yom Kippur ends tomorrow at sundown, my good friend, Sidney
Morris, will blow the shofar. It is a long, coiled ram's horn. Sidney will
have control over his lips and breath. He has no control over the inner
structure and outer curves of the shofar. If he adapts the shape of his his
lips and the pace of his breath to the twists and turns of the shofar, the
ordinary air he blows into the small hole at one end will emerge as rich,
piercing, trumpeting, "soul music" at the other end. It is soulful because you
feel its vibrations deeper than just in your ears. We hear the shofar in our
hearts, in our souls, under our skin, with our eyes, in our brains, in our
guts. It is a metaphor of whether we handle or can't handle the natural and
inevitable unforeseen twists and turns of life. Teaching, like life, is no
different.
To my Jewish friends, may you be inscribed & sealed in the Book of Life for
the coming year.
Make it a good day
-Louis-
Louis Schmier
http://www.therandomthoughts.edublogs.org
Department of History http://www.therandomthoughts.com
Valdosta State University
Valdosta, Georgia 31698 /\ /\ /\ /\
/\
(O) 229-333-5947 /^\\/ \/ \ /\/\__ / \ /
\
(C) 229-630-0821 / \/ \_ \/ / \/ /\/ / \
/\ \
//\/\/ /\ \__/__/_/\_\/
\_/__\ \
/\"If you want to climb
mountains,\ /\
_ / \ don't practice on mole
hills" - / \_
---
You are currently subscribed to tips as: arch...@jab.org.
To unsubscribe click here:
http://fsulist.frostburg.edu/u?id=13090.68da6e6e5325aa33287ff385b70df5d5&n=T&l=tips&o=4918
or send a blank email to
leave-4918-13090.68da6e6e5325aa33287ff385b70df...@fsulist.frostburg.edu
