I’m living in my own little fantasy world. You know the one we all get stuck
in the world of love. The one where we all believe love is real. When in
truth all love is, is hurt. We stay with someone and for girls the guys make
them think they really love them. It’s easy for girls to believe guys cause
we only date the ones we like. They keep us going with it. Then when we
least expect it they break our hearts. You can be walking through the
hallway at school and they just walk by and say it’s over or something that
hurts you then later they try to fix it. You can’t fix a broken heart you
can only try to piece it back together. The hurt stays with us and it never
goes away. I’ve had enough of it from my family, friends, and from guys I
actually did love or still do love. Why do they have to hurt us. I know most
of the time its because they don’t know it is going to hurt us. My world is
being torn apart piece by piece and no one notices it they think I’m fine
cause I try to cover it up with a smile and most of the time it works. I’m
starting to get to where I don’t care anymore. Why sit here and let people
tell me who to be. I hate that. I want to be with someone to be happy. I
noticed lately that’s not possible. I’ve told people for years that I wasn’t
meant to be happy. They think I’m wrong. Everything I try to do messes up. I
try to keep a boyfriend I don’t do anything wrong he breaks up with me
breaks my heart and hurts me so bad I cried. I get another guy and all the
stuff my ex is spreading around he doesn’t want to date I feel like about to
cry now cause of that because I really did like him. Why does love have to
be so hard?
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love always
cool girl 2009
