there is always that one person i could run back too and cry my eyes out to after i had let another treat me wrong after i had seen the clear signs not to take them on board but decided to ignore them with the hope that maybe this time he would be different, or even, that i would be different i wouldn't nag too much, that i wouldn't try have the louder voice in this, but at the end of the day i would find myself in the arms of this one person who no matter how much it hurt to hear me talk about the others would still listen and hold me without judging me or criticizing me or pushing me away, in his arms i felt at ease i felt i could be the exact person these other didn't want me to be
you know the common phrase people use that it was right there in front of me but i just didn't want to see it. i would take this person to be my cushion when i needed to vent about what was going on but this person i took as a third person, only when i needed him i would call, but if it was going smooth, he was out of sight out of mind. this person would hold me gently not too tight to frighten me or let me get the wrong idea but he wouldn't force his love on me but gave me enough to be comfortable, to be free, to be me. after so many times of going back to the same person it hit me, why do i keep going back to him and not cry on the shoulders of the others, why him, because iv been in love with this person for so long but never wanted to take the time out and see that its him i want and not the others, its him who treats me right, who is there, who was always there for me from the very beginning. he never judged me when i stubbornly made the same mistake over and over again. he was always to hear me cry and to ease my pain. its now that i see it, its been there for so long right there in front of me the best thing that could ever happen to me, i am in love with God, i am in love with Him, head over heels in love i cant even stop saying it because reality hit me last night and i don't want to mess this one up like i blindly did the others. i want to make this the first right relationship iv ever been in. he wrote a book, a book on how i can make that happen, how i can not mess this one up. i had taken the Bible as a set of rules and regulations of trying to control my life yet its a handbook on how to be in the right, how to safe guard this relationship i am in. i am starting my journey now with God with someone who loves me more than the word love, defined can ever mean!!! i am in love and its great!!!!! -- You received this message because you are subscribed to the Google Groups "tribewithavibe" group. To post to this group, send email to [email protected]. To unsubscribe from this group, send email to [email protected]. For more options, visit this group at http://groups.google.com/group/tribewithavibe?hl=en.
