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Hi Guys,
I am very happy to inform you, that I just hit my 100 hour goal for 2016 and this gives me 200 hours altogether with TROM. You can read my previous reports here: at 100 hours: http://lists.newciv.org/pipermail/trom/2016-March/005194.html at 150 hours: http://lists.newciv.org/pipermail/trom/2016-August/005376.html So what happened? First of all RI started to work at around 160-170 hours in. Before that, when I did RI nothing happened. I run it no yawning, no needle movement on the e-meter, no change at all. So I got used to it, just did it for a minute or two, and then moved on to level 2. Sometimes I run it for 15 minutes, just to see if it turns something on. Well the Tone Arm on the e-meter started to rise very slowly (as it should do with havingness processes) and reaches around 3.5 in about 15 minutes, but still no change. And then out of the blue at around 160 hours I yawned a very little, and then more and more, and harder and harder the yawning become. In the last 30 hours I yawned just as hard as running an event for usually 20 minutes. So I start the session, do RI for 20 minutes, with a lot of yawning, then puff, all of a sudden the yawning is gone, I try for 2-3 more minutes and then move on to my special mixture of level 5 with level 2. So I take the postulate failure chart, put the postulate in the wall, wait a few seconds, and ... yawning starts almost immediately. Soon and event pops up in my mind from this life. Then I take the event and run it on level 2. This takes these days somewhere between 10 - 30 minutes. I do RI afterwards (this time nothing happens) and look back on the postulate failure chart put the postulates back, start yawning almost immediately, then in a minute a new event appears and repeat the whole thing. Then I finish with RI (nothing happens here) This squirrel method was developed by me because all of you urged me to move on to level 5, and because I wanted to have some wins. Well, I still did not have a single win, but it is instructive to see for example me criticizing others or others criticizing me and so on. *Level 2 overrun?* Previously some people hinted that I overrun level 2, but I no longer believe that. I spoke with my auditor and he told me: and overrun is immediately visible on the meter as a sharp rise of the Tone Arm, which would settle between TA=4 - 5 in 1 to 2 minutes. This has never ever happened. *What About RI?* My auditor told me, that very often preclears start auditing, they go really fast, and then at some point they collapse, and then the auditing really start to bite. Many preclears give up then, feeling they lost all wins. He compared it to a river you have to swim through, but some preclears start to ice skate on the thin ice on the river banks, until the ice cracks and then the hard part begins. I believe at 170 hours of trom the ice collapsed under me, so I reached the bottom, all I have to do now is swim, it cannot be worse than this. *What are my wins/realizations?* Was I ever angry while doing trom? No! Sad? No! Depressed? No! Any emotion? Nada! Only yawning, yawning and more yawning. I guess I will have no wins (realizations) until I move out of yawning (unconsciousness) and reach the lowest levels of the tone scale. *What's next?* For 2017 my goal would be 200 hours which would put me at 400 hours of trom altogether. My auditor said that a preclear needs 450 hours on average to get to scientology clear, so I am willing to put in that much effort. Dennis said that completion of level 3 results in a higher state than Clear and even OT8, so it would be stupid of me to think that 50 or 100 hours of level 2 processing would get me above Clear. I hope I will have the willpower and endurance, maybe I will decrease my goal back to just a 100 hours ... will see. Problem is: I still yawn (my mouth is open) for about 90 % of the auditing time, my nose still runs, and very often I have to sleep/nap after 1 hour of trom auditing. If I don't sleep oftentimes I'm completely useless for the rest of the day. (and yes, I tried with RI ... did not help) Any comment or encouragement is very welcome! Good Tromming, Vorb
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