Hi all, I just wanted to let y'all and Gene know I am home safe and sound. Thank you all for all of your thoughts, prayers and cards. There are some very funny, witty and odd people on this group. I have over 200 emails to go though so if I don't get back to you shortly don't be upset. Here are some of the details of what happened as I remember them. There were several steps that lead to a mental breakdown and diagnosis of Bipolar (yeah I know anyone can read this group... it's okay).
1. I have had low self esteem for years. I never felt like I was good enough, smart enough to accomplish all of my hopes and dreams. I never made resolutions because I couldn't accomplish them. 2. The first weekend of December we visited and decided to move to the commune (Cohousing) a very safe community. 3. 2 weeks before Xmas I had an organizer come in and help me with my desk (Best $300 I have spent in a long time)... All of a sudden dreams I thought I couldn't accomplish were very attainable. 4. Less thank 1 week before Xmas my house was robbed. Suddenly I didn't feel safe in my own house. 5. 12/30 Successful Karma sale - I accomplished something so cool I was brimming with pride. I feel like anything was possible 6. Stopped sleeping the 3 days leading up to the sale and the 2 days afterwards. 7. I started to think I could change the world and people were out to kill me. Proof that sleep is very necessary!!! Looking back on everything I have had manic periods for years but not to such a huge extent as I was this time. My mom was also probably bipolar too. Yeah my mom who committed suicide. The meds I am on are good and I had a week vacation at Fairfax Psych Ward. Basically it is like a cruise without the ports of calls, casino, bars, ohhh let's face it, it isn't a cruise but it was a nice vacation. I have a lot of comments and complaints about the hospital and my treatment that I need to write up but I already had 1 run in with the patient advocate (Tim Simon... he is a black man in a beret) and I didn't feel like he was advocating for me at all. Anyway I have missed you all so very much. There were several people in the ward I think would enjoy our little group...we will see if we get any new folks. And a special note to Gene... I am ready for you to bring back the chat. :) Lots of love, Daria
