<< The problem I have is that the best models I have made seemed to flow out so
effortlessly. I feel like I wasn't even trying. This makes me worry... If I wasn't really trying, if I were to deliberatly try to produce similar results, could I do it? I know from experience that I can, but somehow it still seems strange. Analogy: It feels like a cartoon, where I dip a brush in a bucket of paint, run a few strokes over the canvas, and then I suddenly have a complete, perfect picture, complete with different colors, even though the paint in the bucket is just 1 color and my strokes were only haphazard. Then I stare at the picture and say "How the heck did I do that?", and am afraid to try again for fear that the next time I try it will be a collosal failure. <<Has anyone else on the list ever dealt with something like this before? If so, how did you deal with it? This is really screwing with my head, and really inhibitting my Lightwave work. ... Any suggestions? >> I'm a writer, not a visual artist or musician, so I'm sure it works differently for me than it does for others, but when I run into a problem of thinking, "That was so good I'll never do anything that good again" (as, for example, when I write one of my rare "perfect" sentences that could not possibly be improved), I just think, well, few writers enjoy more than one or two perfect sentences in anything they're working on. I can always go back and savor rereading it and marveling, "*I* did *THAT*??? Wowwww I'm good!" :) The point is to enjoy the process and not think so much about the outcome. Unless you're on a deadline or something, or working with others where you have to supply your part of a project and they're counting on you. (Although I actually do some of my best work under such pressures.) You CAN do it again, because you HAVE DONE it. So, you WILL do it again! Just admire your own brilliance and plow forward. Hope this helps. Tom Beck www.prydonians.org "I always knew I'd see the first man on the Moon. I didn't realize I'd also see the last." - Jerry Pournelle
