from the Wednesday Night Satsang List: Hi y'all,
Rick gets private letters asking him to boot Bronte, and Bronte gets private letters in support of her stance. Well, now, doesn't that say it all? Why can't everyone be up front about this? I never said that I thought current Ff thought was as bad as German fascism, but I do think the two are compatible modes of thought. One is more extreme than the other. The Ff scene wants to project genteel peace at the moment, rather than holy warrior, and I find genteel peace insufferably phony---and not only phony, but, at bottom, icy cold and judgmental. And so I certainly agree with Bronte that the Wednesday Night group has a tendency to be condescending. That's why I've not been attending, though I do enjoy reading some of the posts. By no means all, however. In the posts, too, there is stuff that's too patronizing for me. And a patronizing attitude is somehow even harder to take when it comes from a female. That said, I'm going to be insufferably condescending myself. The Wednesday night group is pretty much where my head was at thirty five years ago. I was waking up then, and a group would have been nice. There wasn't one. And I was insufferably arrogant because I was awake and nobody else I knew was, though I found kindred spirits in literature. I ran rings around my profs in grad school, and that was not a good thing for a woman to do. Back then, I thought I would just get more and more incredible experience that would set me more and more apart from the stupid waking-staters of the world. Instead, I've become more and more ordinary over the years. At this point, I'm more comfortable with people who pretend to no spiritual attainment whatsoever than I am with folks who do. Yes, I've also got groovy experiences, but so f---ing what. a
