Ah, another poor, betrayed victim of the fiend that was MMY. So MMY told us "that we all should avoid relationships." He did? That's news to me, and I was in the movement for over 30 years.
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Rick Archer" <r...@...> wrote: > > Got the book yesterday. I spent two hours with it today reading the first > third of the book, and an hour last night reading the last part. Last night > I felt mad, today I feel like crying. It hurts so much to hear direct about > the fraud that he was. Wanting to know if he should go for prime minister or > spiritual guru. It just hurts in a very tender place that so trusted that > man and believed in him and everything he told us. I was a trusting fool. > Still am to some degree, I'm afraid. All the time he was screwing girls > behind our backs, while we were so full of exalted dreams, sacrificing > everything human to be spiritual. And he was using our hard-earned money to > buy his lovers gold necklaces and see-through saris. > > You know, we know this stuff about him, but when it's right there in your > face, with his letters and his photos, and the innocence side by side ... > sweet Jerry Jarvis, the other innocents ... all these good, misled people we > believed in and trusted to guide us to perfection. It just brings up so much > emotion. He didn't just betray the women he fucked with. He betrayed us all. > Not because it's bad to have sex. Of course it isn't that. It's because he > told us that he was a lifelong celibate, that we all should avoid > relationships, that sex impeded spiritual development. It's because he used > women and dumped them like whores, all the while lying to all of us about > what is true and important and right. In a very real sense, I myself feel > violated, seduced, raped and dumped. In the most intimate way that can > happen - spiritually. I've got a big lump in my throat and can't deal with > any more of that book tonight. Little bites, little bites. >
