--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "seventhray1" <steve.sundur@...> wrote: > > > > I don't look for "experiences". If I feel I might be having an > experience I try to look the other way. Somewhere along the way I took > a mental stand against "mood making". I have observed that to be a > major deterrent on the path to spiritual growth.
Why did you take a mental stand against experiences - isn't that a resistance? I wouldn't call it "mood making" but "mood happening". The "mood happening" happens to me everyday. I love the label bipolar or manic depressive since it expresses the states I feel so beautifully. The manic states captures the beauty and the bliss of the oneness you feel with the existence, that you are taken care of, that though you may be a speck of dust in the existence the existence is somehow incomplete without you, that you are not a thing of utility, you need not be a millionaire with a million dollar wife and million dollar kids, that you don't need any reason to be just in joy, bliss and beauty, that the existence is my beloved and I'm in an orgasm with it - no wonder sex has no more the "charm" it once had, it just pales in comparison. The depressive state captures the incredible pain, melancholy, sorrow you feel as if you are the container of all the negativities as well. Both these states capture the essence so beautifully and you are just a mere witness to all of it.
